Lemon's Mum

[lemonzest123]

Hi MNers,

Thanks for tipping me off about the message limit on my other thread www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/2725008-Would-any-MNers-be-able-to-help-tonight?pg=1&order=

I am stunned and unbelievably humbled to see that one little post I wrote sparked 1000 messages, and Im so appreciative of all you personal stories and jokes to cheer me up.

MN is offically amazing and you're all fantastic.

DM had a rough night, she apparently woke in the night with a bad headache which I think confirmed the disease has moved into her head (we expected this, apparently what's causing the paralysis often appears in the brain too). Still no appetite and sleeping all the time.

Hope everyone had a good night. I had yet more nightmares - theyre all about Mum and they all horrible. Shouty I is in fine voice this morning. Dad said he heard Shouty I bellowing to Shouty II to shut up the other day. Pot, meet kettle

My job stresses me out an enormous amount and I can only do it if I'm not thinking about something else. Also a lot of the management won't have even noticed I'm not there yet so wouldn't pull any punches when it came to demanding things I have no knowledge of. I wouldnt be able to get to her until 9pm each night by which time she's already asleep...unless I slept over there and went to work in the morning from the care place but that's really not an option as 4hrs travel each day, 8 hrs work then sleeping on a floor is pretty much a recipe for me throwing myself off a bridge.

Right, in that case, fuck that!

Might be an idea to consider trying to find another job, they don't sound very nice.

How did today go?

Hi lemon just checking in to say goodnight- I really hope you're ok and that you've managed some rest. Take things gently if you can

Hi Lemon
Sorry everything's so hard just now. Have you thought of screaming and throwing things, maybe just for a few minutes, for some stress relief. Probably no one will notice. You'll just blend in.

Poor lemon. Have this

Hi Lemon
Having a pop in to see how things are for you and Dmum.
I would not be over keen to do too much to return to work for people like your company. ~Taking care of you at this time is vital for both you and Dmum and also the rest of the family DF and DB.

Hope you have a decent night as best you can in the circumstances.

Hi lemon
Seems quiet here tonight so just wanted to let you know that still thinking of you and your family. Hope you manage to find a way forward with work- going in doesn't seem like an option. Hopefully someone will have compassion otherwise if you see your gp I'm fairly sure that they will agree you are in no state to work...

I know everything is shit at the moment and nothing you do will feel enough but you are there and you care and that is everything right now.

Have a and know you will get through this, as a family, together .

Hahaha Marci

Thanks chaps. All quiet here so far. I think we've settled on unpaid leave for now which is a bloody relief!!

Had and several . Coughy is seriously going for it tonight!

Hi Lemon, sending you a bottle of Covonia (can't upload a picture on my Kindle) in case Coughy gets too much. A good swig might do the trick! Hope DM is managing to sleep through it and that you are in the land of nod.

Glad work has been sorted and that DF will help you out (he still will won't he?) I've been off sick for 10 months and as soon as I get my wheelchair I'll be going back. Been there a v long time but even so tbh I'm really quite scared. Hope you and DM have a good day today. Will pop back later.

Thanks boo! Sadly I think the only way it would stop him coughing would be if I clobbered him over the head with it!!

Morning Lemon sorry to see you're up so early. Did you manage a bit if rest overnight.?

Good morning Lemon, hope you managed to get some sleep.
The last thing you need is worrying about working so hopefully being on unpaid leave will help.
Just wanted to say I know how bloody difficult it is when all you can do is hang on in there.
UnMNsy hug and ☕️

Good morning Lemon - I hope you've had a bit of rest in spite of surround sound coughing. I'm so glad you've sorted the work thing out. Off for the first morning service soon- I'll be praying for you and all the family. Then just two more services and a surprise birthday party to get on top of today- I'm already looking forward to going back to bed!

Oh, I forgot it was Sunday. Say hello to the Big Man from me.

I don't mind being awake all night tbh, she didn't wake up I'm agony at 4am so I'm happy.

Also have DP Skype sleeping next to me on my tablet. He hugs his pillow when I'm not there the soppy bugger.

Morning Lemon glad to read your night wasn't to bad. Off to work shortly, it's another lovely autumn morning here. Keep your chin up and know what a lovely daughter you are. Hope you have a quiet day.

Time for a nice relaxing sleep in my own bed....

Oh good just discovered Ive lost all my cards including ID.

Fucks sake.

Oh shit Lemon, can you remember when you last had them? If not hope you have cancelled them if you haven't found them.

Just checking up on you Lemon and sending love x

I had them in a coffee shop...then I walked literally about ten paces to my DFs car and have only been at DMs care place, the car or DFs house. Its not in any of those places and coffee shop are checking and ringing me back.

damnfuckbuggerarseandhell

Just popping in to say Hi. I think I've name changed since my last post. I never used to name change at all, I had the same name for about 8 years. But with all the hacking I decided I'd name change frequently. It's weird though because I know who others are, but others don't know who I am. I'm rattling on because I think this pretty pointless shite gives your brain a bit of a break 😁

I hope your cards turn up soon, if not you'd better call your bank & get them cancelled. I thought I might have to cancel mine recently. The bank offered to have some cash there for me at a local branch. Luckily I didn't need to in the end.

You're really hard on yourself. You're doing a fantastic thing and have been for months now. I'm sure any negative vibes from your Dad are you projecting because he has NO reason at all to feel disappointed in you.

I understand what you mean about the world changing already, places feeling different & about other people just carrying on with life as though everything was just fine...I just wanted to scream at them.

Oh bugger Lemon! Really hope they turn up safe and sound, last thing you need right now.

That's great you can take a bit of unpaid leave from work, one less thing to worry about.

Been keeping an eye on the thread but don't very often post. Was watching the Lion King with my toddler the other day, and catching up on here. Was reading about how you'd like to get married one day, but can't imagine it without your Mum. Others were saying "she'll be there don't worry" (in spirit) and then I looked up to see the scene in the film where the grown up Simba gets taken to a watering hole at night to "see his Dad again". Of course it's just his reflection in the moonlit water, but it made me shed a tear as it's so true. I lost my Mum three years ago, when I was 31. I miss her terribly but only have to look in the mirror to remind myself she lives on in me (and it makes me proud, daft as it sounds).

Anyway, enough random waffling. Hope you're OK

Buggerit lemon you don't need that. Hope they've turned up.

Did you find your cards Lemon? Hope you managed a kip.

Any news on your cards?

Ahhh my bloody reply disappeared....

Well, I'm a numpty. I totally forgot that the heatwave broke yesterday and I'd taken a coat to see Mum,it was in the pocket! Dad retrieved it. Cue a massive panic attack as there was something in the holder I didn't want DF to find! But he didn't, I don't think.

I'm not doing three night in a row. Have come back to my little flat where it's quiet. Lit my candles and fairy lights and oil burner. Sipping a glass of white and counting my blessings. DFM (darling flat mate) is coming home soon and we're getting Pizza. I adore him.

Also, before he left of Fri DP left a card on my pillow.

What a lucky Lemon I am.

What flavour pizza shall I get?? I'm thinking a dirty dominoes!