Lemon's Mum

[lemonzest123]

Hi MNers,

Thanks for tipping me off about the message limit on my other thread www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/2725008-Would-any-MNers-be-able-to-help-tonight?pg=1&order=

I am stunned and unbelievably humbled to see that one little post I wrote sparked 1000 messages, and Im so appreciative of all you personal stories and jokes to cheer me up.

MN is offically amazing and you're all fantastic.

DM had a rough night, she apparently woke in the night with a bad headache which I think confirmed the disease has moved into her head (we expected this, apparently what's causing the paralysis often appears in the brain too). Still no appetite and sleeping all the time.

Hope everyone had a good night. I had yet more nightmares - theyre all about Mum and they all horrible. Shouty I is in fine voice this morning. Dad said he heard Shouty I bellowing to Shouty II to shut up the other day. Pot, meet kettle

Three twenty check in, can't sleep and was thinking of you.
You're doing so well, so much strength, so much love is clear in your wee family.
I hope you have a peaceful night.

Thanks so much everyone. Feels quite spooky here tonight....

How are you this morning Lemon?

Morning Lemon, hope the daylight chased away the spooky feeling, and you managed some sleep.

Off to bake some pastries for breakfast, then hopefully beach later, I've already ironed DDs uniforms, and they have done their homework. So today is looking quite calm, just hoping DH back is feeling better.

Hope this is enough inane waffle...

(((Big))) 🌻🌻🌻

Lemon - she is so lucky to have you

Blergh! Worst night so far. Dropped off about 4.30, Tweedle Dum and Tweedle Dee came in at about 5.15 and then Shouty II went ballistic. She was literally screaming like her fingernails were being ripped out from 6 - 8. Amazingly, Mum slept throughout.

Am full on zombie today... can't wait to get me some kip.

Also had obligatory horrid dream...this time DM waking UK and crying to be that she's "ready to go" and "wants it over".

Morning Lemon, hope your fast asleep now? Sounds like you need it. Keep your chin up, we're all here for you.

Good morning lemon thinking of you and praying for you this morning. I hope you've managed some sleep and that you've had some breakfast- I know it sounds a bit trivial but you do need to eat. You must be feeling paper thin- this sort of thing is so exhausting inside and out. Your mum is very fortunate to be surrounded by so much love.

I had a lie in today - hurrah- as no service til 10 - and then MIL making lunch for us- double hurrah. I found two earthworms in the dog bowl this morning (we do keep the bowls on the patio outside the kitchen just in case you're wondering!) but I can't work out how they got in there!

Just read your post about the bad dream and the broken night. You poor thing. So sorry you and your family are going through this hellish time. It's just so hard. Sending love and strength and peace

Hi lemon
I dreamt that our village was full of fire engines but no one knew why or who had called them, and DH dreamt that his brother got in a cardboard box and then blew away over the fields. His brother must weigh 16 stone so it isn't likely.
Dreams are rubbish aren't they.
Hoping you can have a quiet day with your mum.

Hi Lemon, thinking of you and your mum. Sounds utterly bloody horrendous.

Hi

What a dreadful night you had! Poor thing.

What's the plan for today?

Have I missed an update about your brother? You don't seem to have mentioned him in a while (sorry if I missed some great Falling Out or something?!)

I need to go in search of decent ☕️

What an awful night. All knackered here as DD &DSIL ended their night out ( I was baby sitting) with a terrible row. Divorce on the cards again. I was up all night fretting while they tried to talk. I hope you've managed to grab some much needed rest today after such a rough night.

Hope you've been able to have some sleep or a rest. Best wishes

Thanks lovelies...knocked myself out for a few hours...DF came back and reported she hasn't spoken or opened her eyes, she hasn't eaten today either....also has slow heart rate and low BP....I think this could be it.

I volunteered to stay over tonight again but DF may want to. Or tbh we might end up both saying.

Fuck. Scared.

Don't be scared. You know she is ready to go. You have all spent time with her and she saw her best friends a few days ago. When she goes she will be out of pain and you will no longer be in the limbo of waiting for her to die.
Having said that, it will be hard. Sending you hugs.

Of course you're scared. It's horrible. At least it sounds as though your lovely mum is not in distress. I know that's very cold comfort.
Do what you need to do- maybe speak to the nursing staff to see what their view is- but stay if you feel you need to, or rest if you feel you need to. You know that she knows how dearly you love her.
I have to go out for the last service of the day- I'll be praying for you and for her and all the family. Take care

Sorry this is so hard.

Thanks everyone.... I don't know if its the sleep deprivation but feel weirdly calm. Its a nice evening here, sunny and breezey. I'm in her spot on the sofa again. Going back in a few hours

I really appreciate your support ladies, I really do x

You'll be ok Lemon, I promise. And she knows how much you love her.

Re the calmness, it's really common, don't worry about it just go with it.

Calm is good.
Scared is okay - it's normal. You will be stepping into a new world ahead of you, without the mum who knows you inside out. But she still will be there - I promise.
Before she got really ill, I used to ring my Mum up to see how she was , and when I asked her how she was , she grumpily used to reply -", darn it, I woke up again this morning..."

Don't be scared Lemon - she's ready to go. It's a strangely beautiful experience. You do what you need to do. Thinking of you.