Our special thread where we can be who we are. A thread to remember our children who are no longer physically here. Our 'safe haven.'

[shabbs]

United we stand.....divided we fall. My love to all of you - a place to remember our precious children and to help each other walking this 'crappy path.'

Shiney - I like a busy noisy house now - I miss it _ it's so quiet! A and the nurses and carers become your friends - especially when some friends decide to run for the hills...

I so know what you mean - when it was discovered my son was sick we were given a councillor by the hospital and i still go now. For over a year - that hour was the only time to myself ... Sometimes I'd have to take ds while he was still portable but gosh how much did I savour just being able to talk properly freely.. I soon know where you are coming from....

One year ago today my heart was broken forever. I lost my mum 3 years ago and I grieved but nothing compares to the grief I feel for pippa it's continuous.

Cathpip - sending big hugs xxxxx

Morning girls xx

Cathpip - I know exactly what you mean. My precious Dad died just over a year ago......it hurts like hell but I dont think anything comes close to the grief surrounding the loss of our children. I suppose its because our children didn't get the chance of many years of life. Grief is still grief when we lose someone we love but when its our child it becomes all consuming and overwhelming. Thinking about you and sending my love.

cathpip all my love to you today, wishing you strength and happy memories of your darling girl, I hope through the tears she brings you peace and comfort x

We have spent the day by the river in Grassington in the Yorkshire Dales, it was Pippas, and is our favourite place for walking. We have (well dh) has found a toad, we have caught some little fish and skimmed stones. We have had glorious sunshine all day and we rounded the day off with chips in our favourite coffee shop. A peaceful nice family day away from phone calls, where we have been able to talk about Pippa, the boys and the new baby.

Oh Cathpip it sounds like a lovely, and special day. I am so glad the weather was on your side it helps to have those blue skies. I hope tonight is a peaceful one x

Thinking of you carhpip.

Just checking in with you all. Hope you are all managing/coping as best you can.

Morning girls - hope everyone is ok (whatever the hell OK is) xxx

Feeling flat today. School holidays where I am and I have taken time off to be with the kids. I love hearing their laughter and games as we have had sleepovers galore. Today I felt melancholy and missing my DD as she continues to miss out on all she had every right to participate in and enjoy. A life taken too soon.

Oh mojito I just read your post I hope the rest of the holidays went better. It is hard isn't it? You think you are managing and then something, anything, can bring your heart crashing down again. I wish you strength and peace, in fact I wish all of us going through this hell strength and peace and at least some dreams of our lovely children, what I would do for just one dream of my tiny girl!

Checking in on you all taking it easy this weekend and just hanging with the boys. Not so melancholy and hope you aren't too. It's hard not to be especially in the early years of the loss.

Morning girls.

My nephew (has his own gardening business) brought me a planter full of forget-me-nots from my Dads back garden. They are starting to open this morning.....tiny little blue flowers. Walked into my back yard, saw them and stood there with snotty, blobby tears running down my face. Sometimes its the little things that tear at my heart. Right....head up, shoulders back and smile pinned on xxx

You remain an inspiration and amazing shabbs. I get it as well.

Shiney, I have been thinking of you so it was good to see you post. A month is an eternity and no time at all. Crying can be so incredibly hard but also incredibly necessary. I have those times when you feel you are falling apart and all you can do is sob. Do what you need.

Thinking of you all.

Morning, hope everyone is ok xx

An emotional weekend for us as a family. My dh along with his best friend ran the London marathon in aid of child bereavement uk in memory of Pippa. Both families travelled down and lots of friends in and around London came to cheer the boys on, we managed to spot them at mile 12 and mile 22 so Aubrey is happy, not sure which he is more impressed with really as he saw Spider-Man and batman and went on a train that goes under the ground :)! And to top it all off at 12.58pm they and Pippa got mentioned on the bbc, quite teary with it all but so pleased and am now utterly exhausted.....

Oh my word Cathpip - what an amazing day. I understand the feeling of exhaustion so well. What a lovely tribute to your precious daughter. xxx