kneecaps the last thing you need to feel is guilt towards the rest of us about how you are feeling... this is the safe haven where you can be totally honest about your grief and pain, especially when you feel you can't show how you feel in RL. Same goes for you, saintvera!! But equally, you shouldn't feel guilty for the moments when you aren't consumed by your loss, when you smile at something odd, or laugh with someone.
Someone on here (a very wise lady, I think) once said that grief is like a tsunami, it comes and goes without warning, and there can be also waves which threaten to drown you, and then which slowly subside. You have to keep afloat, and that is all you can do when you are in the middle of such a storm, as there is almost no room for peripheral thoughts or actions. You are in survival mode, and do the bare minimum to get through the day, hoping you will find safer waters soon. And there will be moments of calm when you take a breath and keep going...
cafe are you getting any sleep yet? Worried about you!!
kate ttc is very hard while grieving. I cried a lot, and felt horribly guilty, missing Mia, but wanting the chance to hold my own child once more.
chip I also wish that you could find Sylvie-Rose in your dreams again. Maybe she is visiting other family and friends at the moment? Have the boys mentioned her recently?
After my bad dream the other night, I have since had another dream about Mia, which I can't really remember, but I know she was being busy and happy and gorgeous. I like to think she was telling me that this was the truth.
The other night we watched Source Code, and at the end, when it revealed the possibility of alternative realities, I suddenly began to cry. I want Mia to be in another reality with me, MrMia and Finn, where she with us as a big sister and we are a happy family all together. How I long for this to be true!