Love, like starlight, never dies - In loving memory of all our darling children gone too soon!

[Bluetinkerbell]

I am the gentle breeze upon your face
The twinkle in the stars
I am the sudden ray of sunshine
That warms your broken heart.

Thank you Whatevertheweather for starting the previous thread! :)

Let this place be a place of support for all of us on this path together, with lots of smiles, lots of tears, lots of hugs and lots of understanding x
A place where 'new' and 'old' bereaved Mums and parents can share their grieve, experiences and memories of their darling children.

Thinking of you tomorrow Chip and your beloved Sylvie-Rose.
Congratulations to whatever. Wonderful, wonderful news.
And hope the sun shines for you all on Saturday shabba

Thinking of you, your family and Sylvie-Rose chip. How sad and unfair for your friend.

Congratulations whatever, hope it all went well.

Hugs to you shabba as you prepare for a day of such mixed emotions.

I'm massively stressing at the moment. Trying to get the details for all the lots for the auction and people just don't reply to my messages, of they fob me off. Grrr. Plus horrid money/mortgage talks as we try and move house.

The auction website is auctionforsands.blogger.co.uk and we have a facebook page too, www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/pages/Sands-Auction/165842970207306, would be great to get some input from you as to how we shared our story - too much details?

Aw, chipmonkey.

Feel shit just now. Thinking about how we won't have her in our physical lives now, possibly for a long time.

And the thing is, although they will be in our spiritual lives, that can't ever be enough for our physical selves.

Never, never enough.

Cant sleep xx

Chip - let the balloon fly high - let it soar into the sky my friend xx

I live in a 2 up 2 down Coronation Street terraced house. Quite big rooms. In my living room I have a long low coffee table. Am sat here looking at it now. Underneath the table lie 50 washed and ironed chair covers and 50 Royal blue organza tie backs. Plus a mountain of lovely wedding stuff. If you had told me that this would be happening after Gareth died in 1982 I would have said you were mad. Time marches on and I promise every one of you that 'things will get better.' I cant promise what day or date that will happen but it will get better xxx

Morning ladies xx

Sending love to you and your family today chip and thinking of your beautiful baby Sylvie-Rose xx

Congratulations Whatever wonderful news. xx

Take it easy today Shabs xx

Happy birthday beautiful Sylvie-Rose. chip I hope that you have a peaceful day today, thinking of you all xx

Happy Birthday Sylvie-Rose xxx

Got into the car this morning and was about to drive away when ds4 said "Oh look, a rainbow!"
And there it was in the sky. I took a photo and as soon as I did, it started to fade. As if it was just for us, for that moment.

chip, your little girl is so clever at sending you signs of love. How amazing. Sending so much love your way today. xx

chip that is so lovely :) A very Happy Birthday to Sylvie-Rose, and gentle hugs for you xxxxx

Miasmummy I am so sorry, I did think that the birthdays I was thinking of were in September, so yesterday assumed I had been wrong all along, I really have scatty brain in at the moment. I hoped I didn't cause offence, I think I misread something... Happy 23 months to Mia anyway xxxxx

So pleased for Whatever, what a beautiful liitle rainbow girl :) xx

Shabs gentle thoughts for you xx

FM thank you for linking to the dates list. I think it would be nice to have it linked to, in the OPs of this thread, so that it's easily accessible. I did look on 'what I'm on' but am a bit too thick to figure out how to change the settings on it. xx

Isn't it funny. I didn't share on FB about the rainbow because I imagine that people who haven't lost a child will likely be thinking "Poor deluded chip and her signs" Or maybe they wouldn't! But it's nice to be able to share that here.

happy birthday sylvie rose..A candle is shining her in Glasgow for your little girl

I was on a break at work and noticed someone (tami I think) had wondered outloud about dates.. but I didnt have much time so just posted the link with no other words.. looks a bit abrupt.. didnt mean it to.

We probs should include in new ops gong forward. I think there are a few people missng off it.

Shabs are you holding up

Happy birthday Sylvie-Rose, you beautiful rainbow painter

Of course she's with you, chip! What a beautiful girl she is, too! Thanks for sharing her with us on FB. :)

Happy Birthday to Sylvie-Rose. Hope the day has passed peacefully for you Chip filled with special memories of your girl

MrsY I've had a look at your auction site and have read your story on it. You've shared it on here, but to read it again was so sad. You've communicated your feelings well, and it is easy to follow and be swept up in your journey. I like it. You are a very brave lady.

Feck it, that was too hard a day. I am never working on her birthday again. Don't know why I thought it would be ok.

chip (((HUGS))) I imagine it was hard, and I can see why you wouldn't want to do it again. I imagine the reason you thought it would be OK, is because you (probably) work your sons birthdays, so why should it be different, after all she should be here physically, and then working on her birthday may not have been an issue.

But, alas, the truth of how different our lives are, from what they should be, has been exposed again. There was no way of knowing how you would feel.

I was thinking of Sylvie-Rose lots today. There were quite a few small, white feathers in our garden - DD1 kept putting them in her playhouse.

I also saw this beautiful violet flower, lying on the ground, when walking home. There were no plants nearby, so no idea where it came from. For some reason it made me think instantly of Sylvie-Rose. I feel an idiot saying this here, as I have no reason to believe this flower would mean anything to you, but it just made me think of her.

Hope you have a peaceful night xxxxx

OMG...JUST OMG!!!!!

Dan texted me tonight.....asked me about some wedding details. I texted him back saying 'see you tomorrow morning about 10am' Then I pressed send......Dan got the message and it was sent four times to Matts primary school girlfriends HOME phone number. I didnt even know I had her home number on my phone. As it sent the messages to her 'Pump up the jam' (matts favourite song) played on the radio and the smell of lillies was so strong my eyes were watering!!! LOL what the hell Becky will think when she gets her messages tomorrow....well God alone knows. Very, very strange night

shabs, that's amazing! Sounds like Matt with be living it up at that wedding!

I was at my friends and she just sat there with her mouth wide open!!! xx

shabs your Matty blows me away... just WOW!

chip think that tami has summarised it well. You did what you thought you could do... what you normally would be able to do. But it sounds like it was simply a bit too hard, which is totally understandable and for that, I am so sorry. Still, it is unnerving when you discover you now aren't the person you were. I hope you aren't feeling bad though. Your courage is amazing. Sylvie-Rose has a such a lovely mummy. xx

Tami and Mias, you are both right. And yes Tami, I have always worked on the boys' birthdays. And I actually thought it would be odd of me to take her birthday off and unfair to the boys. But the boys do at least get to blow out their own candles.