Love, like starlight, never dies... Our precious children sparkling in the sky xx

[CazandBelle]

"Small was feeling grim and dark. He was playing toss and fling and bang and crash. Break and snap and bash and batter. Small said ?I?m a grim and grumpy little small and nobody loves me at all?. ?Oh Small,? said Large. ?Grumpy or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said, ?If I was a grizzly bear would you still love me would you still care?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bear or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said ?But if I turned into a bug, would you still love me and give me a hug?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bug or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

?No matter what?? said Small, and smiled, ?What if I was a crocodile?? Large said ?I?d hug you close and hold you tight and tuck you up in bed at night?.
?Does love wear out? said Small, ?does it break or bend? Can you fix it, stick it, does it mend?? ?Oh help,? said Large ?I?m not that clever I just know I?ll love you forever?.

Small said ?but what about when you?re dead and gone, would you love me then, does love go on?? Large held Small snug as they looked out at the night, at the moon in the dark and the stars shining bright.

?Small look at the stars ? how they shine and glow, but some of those stars died a long time ago. Still they shine in the evening skies. Love, like starlight, never dies?.

NO MATTER WHAT by Debi Gliori

Missing my beautiful Belle, a year to the day we placed her to bed in her garden. Mummy and Daddy love you, always. To the moon and back xxx

Awww Shabs he's gorgeous

Glad you are feeling a little better today Cheese. Poor ds2 though back in plaster.

Hope you have a peaceful and relaxing break fm

WB Yeates "The Stolen Child"

Dh found this and it sums up the way we feel, that she was taken from us.

Morning girls.

Tom is off to Alton Towers with school today. That explains why we are up so early - he has to be at school by half 7 so I better get off here and get him on his way. xxx

hiya ladies just popping onto say hello xx

Hiya PPM xxxx

How come we never got school trips like that? Ours were always very edjacayshunal!

We used to go to monastories etc, we once went to York, to the viking centre, and then we were allowed to wander by ourselves. I got horrendously lost and ended up in a police station.

Probably not the wisest thing to let a group of 10-11 year olds wander round a big city by themselves. Funnily enough, e never went anywhere after that.

Had a peaceful day today, went into town and met up with my parents too. Lovely church there so we lit a candle for Scarlett, very peaceful.

shabs hope Tom had lots of fun at Alton Towers, I used to love theme parks but always hated the "upside down" rides, gone off them now as they scare me! lol

chip (hugs) xx

dee I remember a trip in the last year of primary, we went for a week to Gorsefield I think it was. I loved it and had so much fun! Those were the days x

I lit a candle for all our babies, I hope they saw the lights twinkling in the stars. Sweet dreams little angels xxxx

jane I did for all the babies also, completely went from my mind until you mentioned that. I lit at the church and also at home tonight and have been thinking of us all xx

Candles lit here tonight too. Too many babies gone too soon.

When my cousin and his wife lost their little boy (at 21 weeks) 2 weeks ago I sent them an angel comfort box and in there was a White feather and an explanation that when they see a White feather it should remind them of their babies angel wings. She sent me a message today to say at home today a small white feather blew in through the door and landed at her feet and also today one landed on my cousins shoulder when he was at work. I hope it was their little ds3.

Off to bed soon as I'm taking K to Paultons Park/Peppa Pig World - trying to make the most of our season ticket before the weather turns. She's soooo excited as she's just had a growth spurt and is now the requires 110cms to go on the big rollercoaster there called The Cobra

Glad you've had a more peaceful day Cheese

Shabs hope Tom enjoyed Alton Towers - I haven't been for years as it's a long way from us but I do love love love big rides and they do have some huge ones there!

Hi ladies xx

I light a candle every Friday, Saturday and Sunday for all our precious childen, I have done this ever since I joined our special threads. xx

Candle lit here tonight, one with roses on it for Sylvie-Rose.

Whatever I love to hear thing like that! Makes me feel that it's not my imagination when I feel my Dad's and Sylvie-Rose's presence.

Lavandes I like it that you light the candle all the time.

Morning Ladies
Do you mind if I join you all? My gorgeous little boy Joseph was born 5 weeks ago sleeping at 35 weeks. Today would have been his due date. Some how I have been strong. I have had a few very dark days but mainly been able to out a smile on. I wasn't sure how I'd feel this weekend but now I know I feel like it's gonna get just a little bit harder, for a while at least. I have started the 'we should be doing this now' or 'He be here now doing this'. I know there is only pain in being this way but at the moment I feel very consumed by my feelings for Joseph's.
I have read most of the tread and feel like I might find some comfort and safety in my feeling the way I do at times.
Congratulations to Caz new baby news is so inspiring and gives me hope x

PS My house was lit brightly with candles last night xx

Very welcome Mylittlebubble so sad to hear about your darling Joseph! We're always here to listen, talk, give a hug or hold your hand!

Hi Mylittlebubble - i'm so sorry that Joseph died and you find yourself here with us. Please know though, that we're always here for you, we'll always listen.

Morning girls.

Welcome littlebubble - glad you found us and Im so sorry to hear about your precious little man xx

Morning, Shabbs. How did Tom enjoy Alton Towers?

He had a whale of a time!!! Went on '13' said that all the kids in his Music GCSE class (just 14 of them) went around together.....came walking down the road from school....wet through (log flume ride), starving hungry and very, very tired. Then got a 'second wind' and went on his computer. He woke me up in the early hours of this morning.....he was talking to the children from the hotel we go to in Greece....he had his head set and microphone on and they were practicing their English with him. Dont think we wil see much of him before dinnertime....oh to be 14 again.

Just poking my head in (thanks Dee for the invite)

Haven't time to read the whole thread now - have a houseful of kids but will do later when I get peace.

There's a thread in here - my DD1 had a twin who died before she was born and DD's birthday party (sleepover they haven't I'm on my knees) has brought it all back - how apt that yesterday was the Remembrance day with my house full of taller than me teens.

Why this year more than others, I don't know. But I blubbed last night and some more this morning.

Welcome Fluffy.

I too lost a twin. One of my twin boys was born with massive heart problems. He managed to fight until he was 7 months old and then sadly he couldn't fight anymore.

How old is your DD? My 'surviving twin' will be 30 just after Christmas. He is a Daddy himself now. When he was 13....then 18.....then 21 (and Im sure the 30th birthday will be the same) I struggled to cope with the fact that his brother should have been beside him. Gareth died in 1982 but sometimes older grief bites so very hard. xx

Good to 'see' you, Fluffy.

It's been seven years for me. Ciaran died a matter of hours after he was born. We knew he was going to, as he was very ill in utero, but it was still a huge shock. His brother Brennan, is fantastic though, a huge huge ray of sunshine, even if he can be a bloody terror at times.

Glad to hear Tom had a ball, Shabbs.

Just a quick one... we need to think of a new thread name soon! :) anyone has any suggestions?