Our Children budded on earth to bloom in heaven

[frasersmummy]

I think we have had this title before but it seems appropriate for spring

I have started this thread in honour of all our children but particularly Fraser who would have been 7 today. Happy birthday son we still miss you dearly. You will always be our firstborn and we always remember you in our hearts

Morning girls xx

morning girls .. everyone here has had the lurgy and I have been running around after everyone else

and yes now I have it myself. so I am sat here with juice, tissue and choc!!

Ilike I think sometimes you just have to take a break from the thread... cos sometimes you dont want to think about the past cos it just hurts too damn much

and then sometimes you want to rant and cry

its all part of our normality... sigh!!

Frasers thread is heading towards full...thinking of you wee man. You will always be mum and dad's eldest son

why oh why does it all come crashing around you when you least expect it. Trying so hard to stay positive today as its Sians friends funeral. Have to be brave and focus on another young girl taken so tragically early. Why then does it have to be today that when looking through the local paper I see the advert for next doors house which is for sale. Why should something as innocent as this poleaxe me. Simply that the picture must have been taken last year when they first thought of putting it on the market and it has Sians car on our drive. My stupid brain just for a minute thinks she's come back because her cars here, and then the reality and pain strikes. Why do our minds let us think these things when they just hurt so much. She's not coming back, she's dead, Sarahs dead, life stinks and I feel like shit.

Sending you hugs kaz xxx

hello everyone.

I'm just finishing last bits and pieces for the fete on Saturday. If any of you would like your angels names added to my "Name the Bear" choices can you let me know please.

I want all the names to represent all our little ones and families who are missing their precious children.

Holding you close Kaz - older grief hurts when it bites us - thinking about you.

Caz - would love you to put my boys names on please - Gareth and Matthew xxx

kaz (hugs) also feeling like shit, had quite a shit day yesterday and nearly broke down, got to a similar time tonight and almost did the same. Just don't feel good at all lately.

Caz would love Scarlett's name on there please xx

aww kazmus you are right the simplest thing can send you over the edge... I totally get why that upset you ..

Caz it would be nice if you added Fraser to your name the bear competition.. the only thing is you might get done for copyright ...Fraser bear

gareth and matty were already on shab :)

caz i would be honoured if you added Zoe's name.

of course! Zoe added! Do you want middle/surname on there as well jane

could you add Sian Emily, and her friend Sarah Esme, thanks

caz sorry did you miss my post?

found all posts now

middle surnames too if u like

Thanks :), sorry just wasn't sure you'd seen, I know myself I miss posts sometimes by mistake somehow and then realise the next time I look and wonder where they came from Our daughter is Scarlett Niamh Wye. Hoping the fete goes well on Saturday.

Morning girls xx

Hello ladies x just wanted to say hello and post a link to my new blog www.lindasterry.wordpress.com. I 'love no matter what' bluetinkerbell. Good luck for this weekend Caz... But please do take care of you next month once the month of June passes. I found the couple of months after gregors walk last year incredibly tough. Love n hugs to all xx

Thank you so much caz, Zoe Ruth Beveridge. I am hoping the weather is kind to you on Saturday and the fete goes amazingly! I am sure Belle will be there having fun too. I am in awe of you caz, you are doing such a wonderful thing for Belle. I didn't sleep last night and spent most of it reading your blog, you are such an inspiration. The things you did for Belle on her birthday were so beautiful xxx

Caz, would you please add Thea Joanne Virgo? Thank you so much!

Kaz and Cheese, hope today is a wee bit better for you.

pff having a bit of a difficult moment... it's been exaclty a week since they said those devastating words... 'I'm so sorry... we can't find a heartbeat'

tinkerbell... I dont think we have spoken

My little boy was stillborn 7 years ago .. and that phrase takes me right back to that day.

There is nothing I can say that will bring you any comfort right now .. all I can say is baby steps honey baby steps .. dont try to do too much. Take each hour as it comes and do whatever you need to get through it.. cry scream, punch a pillow

We are all here to help

fraser thank you!

Caz I think you already added Sterre?
Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!
the (strange) midwife came just now and for once she said something useful she said that she doesn't know how I feel but that it's good that I'm meeting up with people who do :)

blue (((((hugs))))) to you, it is hard just be gentle to yourself hun.

Im having a emotional day today, been to asda and seen so many pregnant ladies and people with newborns its unbelieveable! Could nt handle it, walked out with a massive scowly face on, that people were avoiding me in the car park! And then come home a see all the nct babies on facebook has just done me in. They are all hugging and kissing their babies and all I can do is stroke her picture and look in her keepsake box.

Caz i wasnt sure about it before but you can add Ophelias name aswell, if Im not too late.

Good luck with the fete tomorrow, your a brave lady.

Good luck for tomorrow caz xx

It is horrible when things throw you back. I was having a drawer clearout the other day and I found a notepad, I was tearing out all the used pages and on one page Richard had written his phone number on. Just seeing his writing on the page reduced me to tears. Some things seem so small and innocent but they are not to us, they are big and very upsetting. I will light a candle tonight for all our beloved children. xxx