Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

Sounds good shelley I know this first Christmas without Richard will be difficult, to put it mildly, we have spent some part of Christmas and New Year with him for the last 10 years. But our eldest son is making the journey from the other side of the world to be with us this year, we have not seen him since 2008 and I am sure he will need a lot of tlc because he had no family with him when Richard died, he will get all the love and support he needs. and we ARE looking forward to it. I just get panicky about everything at the moment. I am sure we will cope.I know I sound stupid worrying about things. I also know that we are very fortunate to have eachother. We just miss Richard so much.

Hope things are settling down for you now xx

lavandes
I feel so sad for you, and for all of us who are having to endure particularly this first Christmas with our grief.

I would say don't worry about being emotional with your son. Could you even send him and email or a letter to tell him a bit of how you feel first? Then he can explain it a bit to his DP too. I'm sure it will be a heartbreaking time, but also you must be so looking forward to seeing your eldest after so long? I hope you get some long evenings to have a hug and a talk and a cry together.

I thought I was doing ok today until DH phoned to say his boss is sick and work have asked can he stand in and go in his boss's place to a conference on the continent, requiring 2 nights away, 2 hour motorway trip to airport, flights etc. WAAAAH! No! He got how upset I was about it and has said no and someone else is going instead. Made me realise how fragile I feel.

hugs to everyone,dreading christmas but looking forward to another granddaughter arriving,four weeks to go.
i cant believe its four years on wedsday since we lost our grandson,i bought the calendars for grandaughters, hidden away.
we bought my youngest dd a xmas tree,shes put it up already, and has said we all have to be cheerful for xmas, i said we will be , but iv been totally selfish and am working all xmas day, and boxing day , im on a early ,followed by night shift, so i will be busy, dd2 has invited dh to hers for day as dont want him on his own,bless her.
big hugs to eveyone and thanks to all of you who has helped me throught the last four shitty years,your all simply the best

Morning x

Morning ladies xx

Morning girls. Woke up at 7.45 so panic stations to get Tom up and on his way!!! We have a couple of inches of snow so he jumped out of bed and he has set off at the normal time LOL! Not looking forward to the walk to get Lew - I take the short cut path that runs past a big fishing pond and although its beautiful it is very exposed and will be freezing!

We enjoy it i love christmas with my family im quite aprehensive of it this year. My new boxing day tradtion has gone out the window lol H and i met on boxing day so we have champagne that day not this year though lol. I'm managing fine dispite my phione and hair straighteners broke within a day of each other. Thank god my birthday is in less than 2 weeks lol.

Hope it isn't too slippy and cold for you Shabs. I'm quite lucky DS's school is only a 5 minute walk and i always leave so we get there a bit early he goes daft if his friends have already gone in lol. Will be running back as i have to wait for a parcel

Be careful shabs xx

So this is where you've been hiding!

I'm sorry i've not been around for a while - lots going on here including twattish MIL's and pox ridden children!

Much love to y'all x

Dee I thought being twattish was a MIL job requirement! What's up with the children, is it chickenpox?

Hi all, sorry I've been awol, for some reason I find it difficult to be here at the moment. Nothing to do with you lovely woman, infact I'm not really sure why myself.

I think I'm determined to make Christmas a happy time for us all, but the shadow of losing C is always lurking, no matter how jolly I try to be. I also realise that I need to focus my energies on growing this baby. Maybe I'm over-analysing everything? God knows what is going on in my head tbh.

Lovely to hear your news AbiAbi, I am thrilled for you all xxxx

How is your db TW?

One of the main reasons I've come back is because of H's and J's remember days.

I think of all of us and our darling children everyday.

Morning girls xx

Hazy - thinking of you and your daughter today on your precious Grandsons remember day. My candle is already lit. I cannot imagine the pain you must feel. A grandchild is a massive blessing. Holding you close today xxxxx

Good morning all x

Hazy , my candle will be lit in snowy Sussex today xx

I hope you manage to have a peaceful day .

Love to you and your family today Hazy xx

Hey folks x

Thinking of you today Hazy x

thanks girls, iv lit mine as cemetry is out, dd has been but its got worse since this morning,even schools shut down now, its crap i hate this bloody weather.
i bet jayden is looking down and laughing,
thanks girls once again for all your support over the last few yearsxx

Thinking of you all today xxx

I think you're right, Jayden will be looking down at the snow and laughing, as will all our darling children.

Hazy - Thinking of you, your daughter and Jayden, lots of love xx

Hope everyone is ok, I'm back at work which is fine once I'm there but I'm struggling to get up in the morning and finding it hard to sleep. My GP is referring me to the recurrent miscarriage clinic, technically you should have 3 miscarriages but he said 2 and a still birth should make us applicable . The closer it gets to Christmas the worse I feel.

Hazy sorry this is late, but thinking of you.

Mini I know what you mean. I blogged about Christmas a little while ago. There is something about it now being December that has made me feel very low today. Earlier we went and decorated Belle's garden. It looks beautiful but I wish it wasn't this way.

Today has been made worse by feeling pre-menstral. I've felt hormonal and emotional all day, back ache and period pain and a bit of brown spotting. Not supposed to be due on until next week though, only on day 25. Doesn't look like this month is our month. Which is ok, because its only 1st month of ttc and it took us 3 with Belle. But I'm feeling sad about it, because we shouldn't be back on the ttc journey at all. That wasn't part of the plan.

I hope the recurrent miscarriage clinic can bring you hope. Thinking of you also tonight.

Morning girls. xx

morning girls, still bloody snow everywhere, i toook annual leave but dd1 is back at work today, which i feel for her, its her birthday on 20th so bought her a warm coat,want her to have it now,as the one she bought from school uniform shop is not warm,we laugh, mum of five and can get a coat from school shop still,i wish.
downsize is cant get served anywhere,and has been stopped twice by traunt police,lol

Thinking of you all today TW, I'll be lighting a candle for your darling Harry xxxx

I also hope your db's op goes smoothly and uneventfully.

I don't think today can go fast for you.

fast enough

tw thinking of your today and Harry,look after yourself,xx
candle lit here

TW candle lit here for you and your lovely family.xxxxx