Beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile, If only for a while, to know you're there.

[shabbapinkfrog]

Our thread to honour and remember our precious children who sadly are not 'physically' here xxxxx

Caz - I have to agree with everlong about family. They can be hurtful at times without thinking for even a moment.

The bath idea sounds fab. I'd add some chocolate to that too! xx

Hello everlong

I'm sorry that you have lost Oliver and Caz I'm sorry about Belle. xx

Welcome Mouseface, but sorry that you lost your triplets. I hope you find some peace and understanding here.

I lost my son when he was 15 months old, it will three years next month. Where did the time go?

Oh Caz, what hurtful things your dad said. Couldn't he just hold his tongue? It's no surprise you couldn't wait to get home.

I'm now off to read Dee's thread ....

Thanks ladies...

I don't think he probably meant it as harshly as its come across but there was no need for it all the same. And the stuff with my sister, I'm just gutted thats what they think of me. But hey ho.

Fiz is pleased to see me and hasn't left my side since we got home. That makes me feel better.

Morning all, Apparently there is goin to be a celebrity chef at Wilfs school farm next week filming for Sky!!! Wilf will be there that day! Watch this space!!! Im off shopping this morning. Trying to solve the mystery of why my phone rang when it was on silent the other day!!??!!

Morning girls xxx

Morning folks x

Morning ladies... what a lovely lie in! DH still asleep!

afternoonxx

Hi sorry to intrude was just wondering if i could plant a Cherry Tree in the Garden for my 5 babies that never made it into this world. I have one that i have planted for them in my garden and it looks lovely though it would lovely in the garden with all the flowers around it.

I now have DD2 but the loss of my babies stays with me all the time.

ray81

I'm new here too. We have a cherry blossom for our boys in the garden.

The feeling of loss never leaves. I miss them all the time, wonder how they would be now with their first few weeks in 'little' school...... life goes on and yet we never quite do, do we?

We were in town this morning and ds wanted to buy some flowers for Uncle Matt. He was ever so pleased i let him chose them and pay he told the seller who they were for so she told him to be careful to make sure they got to him and they were still lovely. It broke my heart explaining to her that ds wanted them to go near a picture of his uncle as he's dead. He chose yellow roses (bought for db from him the day after his death), then sunflowers (which he laid at the scene on db's birthday) then finally settled on a mixed bouquet. He got really upset on the way home that he can't see ds. I think he must know that it's so close to the anniversairy

Morning girls xx

Morning all xx

Morning xx

Morning all.

Can I ask something? Do any of you dream about your sleeping/lost angels?

xx

Mouseface - I went through a spell of a few months where I had awful vivid nightmares about my sons

I only had about 3 good dreams about my boys. Those dreams were just before I got pregnant with Tom and in each one they came to me and showed me this baby and they called him the 'golden boy' because, in the dream, he had golden coloured hair. When Tom was born he was identical to the baby they had shown me

Gosh, Shabba, I too have a 'golden boy' that I knew I was going to have, despite recurrent problems (& being a bit over the hill). I didn't dream of him, as such, but my F showed me in lots of ways. When DS4 arrived, I already 'knew' him...

Can i plant some fuschsias and sunflowers please???

Sorry, that doesn't make sense: F is DS3 who died :(

Fuchsias and sunflowers would be beautiful, Lottie.

Tom is also my DS4 and I was almost 41 when I had him. xx