Beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile, If only for a while, to know you're there.

[shabbapinkfrog]

Our thread to honour and remember our precious children who sadly are not 'physically' here xxxxx

Hi ladies.

I haven't had a chance to get on here for seemingly ages.

I'll catch up on the thread now xxx

Still really low, its the build up to the first anniversairy. The package was deffinitely worth waiting for got several more raffle prizes out of it. It came early enough so i went to mums to organise the raffle prizes so we're not calling it all night lol. I got home to more donations for the goody bags. Been busy phoning newspapers/ tv channels/radio stations and even emailed the bus service to see if we could put posters up on there buses. My darling brother's face is all over town he'd probably hate it but understand why we are doing it. Think the hardest decision i've got now is what to wear on the night!

Hey all.

shelley thinking of you in the run up to your brothers anniversary.

TW Yeh memorial service is tomorrow. At the moment I'm still in the mind that I am going. Assembly today was fine (that was in my now only school, memorial tomorrow is in my old other school - I used to work in two different schools, opposite ends of week). I was given my proper phased return plan today, and I'm happy with it. I think it will be ok.

I've been thinking of ppm and her husband tonight. I hope they are ok. She hasn't posted since the awfulness the other weekend.

ilike good to see you. When is your scan? Have I missed it? Hope all is well.

Ladies, I'm coming off the pill in 3 weeks. We're not going to actively ttc until around Christmas, we'll be careful in the meantime, but want to give my body a good 6 weeks or so to come back to normal. I went back on the pill so quickly after Belle was born (9 days) I'm just hoping everything is ok.

Thanks Caz its appreciated.

I'm sure things will be fine with you going on the pill then and it gives you chance get back to normal as you say. DH and i have been ttc but had no luck since mc so i bought some conception indicator tests its a pain remembering to do them each day lol

Ok ladies, I was going to hold back but being as we're on the subject, I've just found out that I'm pregnant! I did a test on Friday and it was positive,its very early days, I'm about 5 weeks!

We haven't told anyone in Rl other than the genetic counseller ( and we want to keep it this way for as long as possible) who has fast tracked our follow up appointment for next week because of this. I'm going to see my G.P and call my consultant to organise a scan.

Caz, glad today went well and If you decide to go to the memorial, I hope that goes well x

Hi Shelley - thinking of you, I'm sure your brother would be very proud of you x

Anyway, I'm shattered and feel very sick most of the day, I'm glad its half term next week (unfortunately Dh is the week after!). At least I'll be able to have a rest

Huge congratulations Mini - I'm sending lots of sticky vibes for these early days and wish you a smooth and uneventful pregnancy for the rest.

Start sending the baby dust mine and shelleys way now please!!

How useful was the genetic councellor today?

shelley - we have a clearblue fertility monitor - they were daily test sticks which would show when I was due to ovulate based on hormones in wee I think. How long have you been using them? We caught on our 2nd month using this monitor with Belle. I hope it is as effective next time around, but we wont start using that until December we've decided, because we're not going to be actively ttc until around then. Lots of baby dust vibes to you xxx

Oh Mini - how wonderful. Dont send any of that magic baby dust my way please

You have made my day xxx

Congratulations mini.

I just bought cheapy stick tests from ebay only started using them a few days ago haven't got the hang of remembering to do it yet lol. Its annoying DS i concieved without trying, the 1 that ended in a mc was our 1st month of trying, think db is trying to get me to have on on his remember day or his birthday greedy aint happy with it just having a name to do with him lol. Yes please to the baby dust

Thanks! Tbh, I'm trying not to think about it too much but I am very pleased and excited! DH keeps teeling me I have to be positive and not to worry but it is my nature!

The genetic counseller basically went through our family tree and asked questions. She'll pass that on to the genecetist and we are meeting with him next Thursday.

Thanks, we're going to our neighbours house on Saturday night, I'm sure they'll guess as I won't be drinking!

Morning girls xx

Morning xx

Morning all xx

Morning all,

Im in rather a happy mood dare i say it. I was on a publicity mission yesterday and it has ended in me possibly having the charity night on the local news, in the paper and the radio and posters on buses.

Well done Shelley - I know how hard it is to raise money, you are doing an amazing job - keep at it!! Love the idea of your brothers pictures on the buses

Thanks shabs. I know its great suddenly thought of it yesterday so go to take up 50 posters for them after taking ds to nursery. Mum has an appointment for the radio on monday too :)

Congratulations mini

Sorry I must have missed that fab news earlier xx

thread about Babyloss Week

Many many congratulations Mini, such wonderful news

Sounds like you're doing a fab job with the fundraising Shelly, your db would be proud.

I had the 12 week scan today and all is well, and may I also whisper that the sickness seems to be getting better - hurrah!

Ilike glad to hear your scan went well.

I've had a boost tonight. My husband has started a photography course, a few weeks ago he had me posing in the park to practice his portraits (yes I did feel like a complete numpty!) and his photos are on some website somewhere - tonight he has had a message from a complete random saying he thought his wife (me) is wonderfully attractive and vivacious! :o

Thanks for posting that link lottie - its nice to see people taking notice.

The memorial service was ok but it took it out of me. A lovely assembly - such a celebration of his life and totally caputured his personality. But I was home asleep very quickly after it. I've noticed how often I need naps now. My pupils parents came to the school memorial, I thought they were wonderfully brave. His funeral was Sunday (Muslim culture so his funeral was very quick after he died) and so they would've still be recovering from that let alone to attend the schools 'funeral' for him too. I sat there and thought would I have been able to do that 6 days after Belle had died?

Thanks I like, just got to hope people turn up next friday now. Thanks for the baby dust glad all went well with the scan

Caz I found that grieving for my sons was totally exhausting....dont know what you are like but I never had restful sleep.....I would be exhausted and fall asleep quickly and then feel like I was falling into a big black hole it does improve, in time xxx

Well done for getting through such a hard day Caz.

For me sleeping was a way to get away from everything, it was the only time I wasn't thinking of C.

Nite all xxxxxx

Nite Lottie xxx