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Calling all Mum's of demanding kids - are your fuses as short as mine? :( sorry, bit long)

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balanomorey · 24/09/2008 12:07

Am wondering if I'm normal or in need of anger management!!
My coming up to 3 yo dd is so demanding, I seem to spend 3 parts of my day bawling her out or saying no - it's so demorilising - I'm sure for her too, although I know I have to set boundaraies, don't I?

Her speech and awareness of what's going on around her is, imo sometimes gobsmacking for her age. She knows exactly what she wants, can ask (demand) for it very articulately and comes out with expressions that very often floor me! She seems to know too much at a young age. But as she is so young, she is obviously so very immature in many other ways and always wants to run before she can walk ("I do it" is her favourite expression) and when i say no, because imo what she is asking for she can't do or it is dangerous to have etc, she goes off on one. She also takes forever to do what I ask - all in all, she can be SOOOO frustrating - but at the same time, adorable and I lurve her to bits!

However, as I said all this continual conflict of interest is wearing me down as I am constantly saying no and shouting to the point where she will say 'don't shout at me' before bursting into tears or she will panic if she knows or thinks she's done something wrong as she will say "sorry, sorry, sorry" over and over and looks genuinely scared I'm going to tear her off a strip .

Feel really bad this morning as we were late getting to nursery and she suddenly decided just as we were going out the door that she needed the potty. I was not best pleased as she has used the potty as an excuse lately to keep getting out of bed or stall bedtime...she sits there for ages insisting she needs to go and nothing happens, so assumed she was playing this game again. This happened last night at 3 in the morning (the sides have just come off her cot, and I think she thinks this is a great excuse for disturbing the household in the middle of the night now that she can get out and tell us she needs a wee)...so this morning I bawled her out for needing the potty (frazzled on the back of a bad night, maybe) and felt awful as she then proceeded to do a big wee...told me to say sorry for shouting at her...and told me how much she loves me ..so have been feeling guilty and crap mum all morning.

Just a bit of a rant really, but make me feel better by telling me I'm not unusual to shout - I hate shouting and am fed up of spending a large part of my day bawling and getting wound up. Am I alone in this?
Thanks for reading, sorry so long, just needed to vent. x.

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katiek123 · 26/11/2008 12:06

jabber - it's amy rothenberg. also amy lansky. forgive me if you think this sounds insane. i have a cynical husband who lambasts me every time i bring homeopathy up (he's an intensivist so very black and white re such things!!)

jabberwocky · 26/11/2008 18:26

Thanks katie, I don't think it's insane at all. We already use several types of supplements which have helped ds1 tremendously as well as going dairy-free. I will definitely check out the homeopathy.

Olifin · 26/11/2008 22:56

Hello,

Thanks for all your thoughts and good wishes. I love ActingNormal's idea of thinking of the children as tiger cubs or playful puppies! I'm finding that a very positive image to use when things are getting hectic

Washer- sounds like you're doing really well too.

FairLadyRantALot · 26/11/2008 23:06

rachel, read through your post, and whilst totally understanding what you say....I felt at times like...you...what....because that all seems so perfectly supernanni-ish, which is probabably great...but it sounds like theory not real practice...i.e. some kids will not listen, some kids will not stop bein all over the place and some Kids will not stop being over sensitive.....perfect world gives a good idea...but tbh....it does not always really help that much!

ActingNormal · 01/12/2008 10:44

Hello, I'm still finding my dumb techniques are working (star chart and tiger cubs visualisation) - just thought I would say that because so many things I've tried in the past have worked for a short time then stopped working.

Any thoughts on whether this is normal? - DD has some days where she seems full of hostility and I can't find a reason why. She is like me with PMT but it can't be that. She is often really horrible to DH and tells him not to look at her, talk to her or cuddle her. He asked her in a friendly, interested way this morning if she had managed to find her shoes which she was struggling to find and she snapped "You can see I've got them" in a really angry voice and with a look of extreme irritation and contempt on her face. I can't see that DH does anything bad but both children seem to reject him often eg don't want to hold his hand/sit on his lap/be cuddled by him/play a game with him.

DH seems desperate for them to show they love him, would this put them off? I'm wondering if they feel he is pressuring them into being with him and feel their space is invaded? DH's own Dad is someone who I think doesn't really have boundaries eg will sit next to DH with his hand on his thigh (he doesn't mean anything pervy by it but doesn't seem to realise that normal people don't think of this as normal). Is this somehow relevant to the way DH is with his own kids?

Here is a stupid example - the cat prefers me to DH but DH really wants the cat to like him so if the cat comes near him he grabs her and makes her sit on him. If the cat tries to get away he restrains the cat and the cat starts struggling and I shout at him that he can't force the cat to want to sit on him and he shouldn't restrain her. I don't try to make the cat sit on me but she is happy to (even when I don't want her there).

I don't like seeing DH get rejected but not sure how to advise him without him feeling criticised or told what to do (which he would be stubborn about).

I'm sure I've probably put this in the wrong thread but I feel kind of comfortable putting it where people 'know' me.

ActingNormal · 02/12/2008 09:14

I am SO tired today for no good reason except stayed up too late on laptop. I just got my MN obsession a bit more under control but have now become obsessed with Facebook. I am reminding myself by writing it here that because I'm tired I am A LOT less tolerant with the children and IT'S NOT THEIR FAULT. And reminding everyone to take care of YOURSELVES, because if you don't your DCs and DHs will suffer too! I'm not going to the gym, going to laze around instead. Feel guilty despite my 'advice'.

fernfrost · 02/12/2008 13:52

What a wonderful thread! So much good advice. After dropping my nearly 5 year old girl off at school I was wondering again about why they behave so well for Nursery, Childminder and now School. And not for parents. And about when you feel all that is left seems to be to shout. And what a failure it makes you feel, and how sad and angry that they have somehow changed your own personality at that moment in time.

I suddenly found that it was past 12 noon and I was only on Oct 14. So I had to stop. My reply could easily take me hours it has been so fantastic to read everything - so far. Now I have migraine.

So, just saying hello and thank you to Bala for starting this well-overdue, for me, thread. And what brilliant mothers everybody obviously is here. One of the hardest jobs in the world, I think.

Bala - what is about you and bins! The bin - again!
storytime goes in the bin
dollies goes in the bin
so Thomas, as far as she's concerned, is in the bin but he isn?t is he?
A expensive behaviour strategy!
Do you need to throw out some mental rubbish from the past - that you feel somehow that you cannot?
Not meaning to bring any more psychology into this - previous thread was more than enough! And unlikely - it seemed to me?? What do you call them - a mole or something. A non-real poster. Any truly pathological anger going on here never showed itself did it! Just politeness and maturity. Na, na, na, na, na. Sorry.

Noted a few key points today, that have helped me and I empathise with. Sorry not to know where they have all come from. Some are mine - others I noted down because I thought they were poignant and are in ??. Some thoughts for surverys of these children maybe - or are they just normal and we think they are more difficult? I am not trying to make them into oddities!! Synopsis and supporting points made mostly. And some questions.

?Distraction yes - and Humour - Drama Queens!? Not to take it all too seriously might help.

Love. If you feel deep down that you are on their side and that each day is a new one - I think there will never be any damage.

We may be looking at Relationships that last for life - since there is so much honesty here and little in the way of control. The Positive side?

?Raising Girls? says that it is ok to express our angry and frustration sometimes - because it shows our children that we are human?

Including them in decsion making - but not too much

«What you should say is Thank you Mummy»

Consistency - Sticking to things/methods that you have chosen

Mimi- «She said she saves her moaning for her Mum, but what are you meant to do if you haven't got a Mum to moan to?»
Do you realise what you have said here! It is so important to this thread ? we moan and take things out on our mums! The more they will take - the more we might even do it ourselves! Boundaries - or the parents will be consumed. And the child does not really want that. Cruel to be Kind!
unconditional love ? - for babies - when is it not the right message anymore though? «Love you even though you now know better?« Others wont do will they? Though you don?t want them to be all-giving generous totally unselfish beings etc etc in this grabbing society. Hard to get the balance right - but we know how we want them to behave, I suppose and then they must decided the rest. Agree not conditional upon exam success!

«so self-confident, always willing to try something new and ooze independence « - children are different, children of mums here are harder work than average I think. And so more demanding. I wonder if there is an overlap between their characterisitics - and those of their parents? Lots of helpful, sensitive people on here.

?karate class where she absolutely kicks ass « - has reminded me I need to sign her up!

«that sleep and routine essential for these kids « - I agree and think they probably push bedtimes later too!

Confusing world anyway - full of competition. Prizes from school starting. Mine always hates those party games where there are winners and losers. It was such a shock at first to see her, usually so extrovert and confident - sit on my knee at ?statues?. ?I cant do it?. Is she right, or wrong? I shall have a clown for her 5th Birthday!

The Chocolate Saga - "oh no, that's a shame, isn't it, the man has already put it through the till so we'll have to put the kinder egg back. I know you really wanted the kinder egg, too. Never mind, though, as next time we need petrol we'll come here, hey, and buy a kinder egg then - how about that?" "let's get it next time, would that be good?" type of thing is met with a "NOOOOO!!!!! I want it NOWWWW!", and then I've just had to accept that no amount of poncey empathising is going to calm them down and we just have to get out of there pronto!

I have found this way a saviour also! Even though not every time a syou say!

«I just think he's not naturally comfy in himself having to be a toddler» I have never heard anybody else say this - but I always knew it to be the case. She was often bored before she could move her arms and legs better and do stuff.

«She always wanted to please us, so just being disappointed in her upsets her«- I hoped for that. I expected that would work for me and never raised my voice at all for the first 3 years. But - it didn?t! I got the «laugh in the face» thing somebody else mentioned!

joogly
«The thing is, she is a real wee character, and very funny. dd1 comes through screaming that dd2 nipped her, so I call her, and she stamps past me, rolling her eyes, saying "OK, OK, I'm GOING to the naughty step!" She is very hard to discipline, and sometimes I am at my wits end with her. We have the "why it's wrong to hit/ scratch your sister, and she just rolls her eyes and says "Well, I've STOPPED now, haven't I? I'm not doing it NOW, OK?" Or she lies, blatantly, and while staring me straight in the eye: today for example "I DIDN'T bite her- I was just nosing her and my teeth got caught!" What do you do??? So I said "Biting is unacceptable in this house. AS is hitting and scratching and nasty behaviour in general. OK???" And she said "But what about nosing?" AARGH!»

Get this kind of thing too. «An answer for everything!» kind of child.

«When it comes to my own I suppose they know which buttons to press to get me going.« Because they know we really love them ? and so they can? Will people just treat us as they can. Do we let them «get away with it». If they treat others differently - they know how to behave?

«They really don't see us as real human beings with our own needs, do they?!» Do we have to make them - or just wait for this?

«Sarcasm» - this is what I, sadly do, on the occassions when I get angry - about twice a month I would say - I threw the feltips on the floor this morning which is why I looked on here today - but I just got the «Answer for everything« again - «mummy you?ve made a mess - you shouldn?t do that!» Probably didn?t understand what the hell I was doing - but I got so cross seeing her put all the tops on the feltips and neatly back into their box at school - and then at home?!

ActingNormal - Your two sound quite opposite children - maybe they compensate for each other a little and maybe will be quite tolerant of differences in people later in life! It was lovely to hear that your Bathtime with her and time to yourself thing worked out so well!

Katie - great posts. Art & craft - Have you ever seen the French & Saunders sketch where they so some babysitting with toddlers doing A&C around the table! It is really funny.

AN - «Because she is so demanding I try to 'avoid' her because I find it too much and she becomes even more demanding and we are in a vicious cycle» Been there so many times - especially with an only child maybe - but easing off a bit now she is nearly 5yrs old.

Keaau - «We have to remember they are the most precious things in the world to us and would hate to damage them in any way.»

sky dancer - «I think one key is to simply believe in your love for your child (and who hasn't had moments when you fantasise about passing them on to a good home?
This made me laugh! And I agree.»

I don?t think we will if we love them. Only if there is a constant underlying dislike - usually related to transference problems - re genetics links to others that we don?t like - and immaturity. They go together. That is one of the most damaging things I think. We should all be seen as individuals. Also not being harder on them for negative things that we see in ourselves. Or try to mould and change them and live through them too much. Better to want a bit of your own space then - and occassionaly lose your temper. More healthy, probably. I see none of thes problems in posters here.

Lucel - «I have perfected the silent scream - you turn away from them, open your mouth and silently scream for a few seconds until I calm down.»

Death by monkey - «Be at their level - towering over my little boy ?»

Other sideofthechannel - 'that sounds bossy, can you think of a nicer way to ask'
'I'll do it for you when you've asked me politely"
mimic her bossiness and then say 'try again in a kind voice'
Silly mummy! When will I remember what a big girl DD is!"
That works for me too.

Tips - get a ?

Hamster - absolutely great! So long as you don?t lose it in the kitchen. Easy and something that they can be the «owner» of, love, transference objects in so many ways, discipline it ? sad to see her tell it off so gently and kindly - but then it is like those naughty DVDs behind the cushions! Not really doing anything wrong! Maybe they sometimes do see what they do like that. And getting down to their eye level is good isn?t it - as stated. Harder to shout then. You will find yourself talking more. Hard to do when Knees and Back hurt though. Maybe put her/him up on the table?

Ipod - Learn a language in the Park if they still want the swing after 30minutes!

Forgiving, forgetting the bad stuff and trying again every day. Like we should do in every area of our lives.

Look forward to reading the rest of the thread. And keeping up-to-date a bit! Thanks. Hope you don?t mind the re-iteration.

fernfrost · 02/12/2008 13:53

OMG! Didn't realise how long that was!! Sorry.

katiek123 · 02/12/2008 14:49

hey fernfrost - amazing post! hello and welcome and i do like your pretty name. it's so lovely to see that people read this thread from the beginning (massive undertaking - much respect to you ) and get so much out of it, even if not everything resonates and some of it is controversial and so on. it was really interesting to read your comments. AN - i went through a facebook addiction a while back but seem to have vanquished it for now - still on MN tho as you can see!! strange how some of us need that cyber-contact isn't it! escapism? need to reach out/feel supported through the ether as well as by those close to us in real life?
must dash but back soon. always find this thread so thought-provoking. fernfrost - will definitely look out for that french and saunders sketch by the way! a well-meaning friend showed me the (admittedly gorgeous) usborne '365 things to make and do' book and suggested i got it for DD for xmas - DH and i looked at each other in a 'yeah RIGHT' way, like we want world war three to break out at ten past nine on xmas morning!! no thanks...hope you girls are all well and balanomorey - where are you, and are you okay? xxx

katiek123 · 02/12/2008 14:52

ps fernfrost - we have a hamster, amongst other pets - a real boon for breaking the ice with other kids when they came round to play when DD was less socialised, though she is loads better now. agree a great kiddie pet. hmm, he was launched from a playmobil catapult on one memorable occasion. and often gets driven around the carpet in a revolting fuchsia barbie car. still, survives it all with incredible aplomb and good humour. x

swanriver · 02/12/2008 15:12

I've just been watching Singing in the Rain, with ill 8 year old. He's just old enough to enjoy it at last at last, and I was thinking that burlesque or do I mean vaudeville is the answer to dealing with small children. Not irony. Just jumping in puddles and looking a bit ridiculous and singing funny songs and trying to get through rather tricky situations. Acting Normal, I hope you are feeling better. I love your tiger cubs. I sometimes do that, except I have to pretend to be the slightly annoyed Mother Tiger who is trying to sleep. My little ones are being very tiresome at the moment. Then my six year who would not let me get ready to go out last night took enormous pleasure brushing my hair Elegantly for me and that was rather nice. I was glad to get away from everyone though. My children often don't like to be overcrowded either with ref to your previous query about husband/cat.

katiek123 · 02/12/2008 15:54

AN i just had time to re-read you, and i think the situation with the kids and DH sounds really hard - for all of you. mine are both very close to their dad, esp my tricksy DD, and DH and i are able to split our time evenly between them when he's around. and i can imagine how awful it must be for both your DH and you, the helpless onlooker, who could also do with some space!!, when this rejection goes on. i'm at a bit of a loss to explain it. are they just much more used to spending time with you and does it unsettle them for that reason when he is around?

skydancer1 · 03/12/2008 22:10

I feel ruled by a raging nutter monster whining loony party toddler and want to run away really fast and go somewhere no toddlers can ever find me. I know I'm in PMT land and my Ds hasn't been well and the only things he has learned at his nursery are generally regressive behaviour and advanced Whining but I am going out of my fing mind right now @$&I*()IRI TTFIWRWTO IUH B GF TRDUT R IYG PIUP PRER. This in English means AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH

skydancer1 · 04/12/2008 06:16

Ok feeling much calmer this morning. In fact ranting like mad on here instantly calmed me last night. I hope I didn't upset anyone with outpouring but it sure was therapeutic for me I guessed most people writing on this thread would know the feelings and have been there themselves. I couldn't stop myself getting awfully wound up all of yesterday and couldn't prevent it showing to my DS either. He picked it all up and - very touchingly - suggested "Feel better, mummy!" and even "Have some calpol?" .

katiek123 · 04/12/2008 14:33

hello sky i just quickly checked in to see if things had improved at your end - am very glad they have. have been there many times and sympathise!! must dash. hope your day continues to more sane today x

ActingNormal · 04/12/2008 15:08

SkyDancer, thank you for sharing your feelings, it makes me feel more normal. I feel like I'm having a bad couple of days and it really scares me that I might be slipping back into being a crap mother. It scares me that what if it isn't just a couple of off days like everyone has and what if it is me slipping back into being 'bad'. When you posted about feeling really angry and at the end of your tether and then feeling a bit better again it reassures me a bit that maybe it is normal/common to feel like this sometimes and it CAN go back to being ok quickly.

I've tried so hard to be better at it and have come up with new ways of thinking about it for myself which seemed to be working and the thought that what if this is just another thing I've tried which doesn't work is depressing/makes me feel scared of slipping into depression.

I've felt so tired this week (cripplingly tired) and I don't really know what I've done to get this tired. I'd feel better if I knew it was a logical kind of tiredness otherwise I think my brain might be doing this to me. I have been going to bed a bit later and going on the laptop a lot in the evenings - is this enough to make me feel so tired?

When I'm tired I seem to get locked into myself and not 'all here' in the real world. I think my children sense it as me being more distant from them and it makes them more attention seeking. I want to get through the day easily because I'm so tired so every little obstacle or crying/whining/naughtiness noise and children not co-operating so I can just get things I have to do done quickly (because I don't really want to do anything when I'm like this) really irritates me. I get really snappy and impatient and start telling them to get away from me and leave me alone. I then hate myself for acting like I'm rejecting them (my no 1 fear anyway) and feel like I'm being like my parents and failing in my job.

I feel like I've been selfish by not making myself go to bed earlier and not be so obsessed with MN and FB because now I'm too tired to do my job as a mother properly and it is hard enough when you are not tired!

This morning I felt that my behaviour could be emotionally damaging for the kids if I did it more than a tiny bit. I was ranting at DD for never being happy, always moaning about something and that I try hard with her and all I get is moaned at and I'm fed up of listening to it. I muttered "shut up" under my breath which she probably heard. I did her teeth and hair too roughly I think. I shouted at DS for crying at every little thing.

So I'm writing this to remind myself - children aren't developed enough to be grateful for what you do and in a way they shouldn't have to be because we chose to bring them into the world and chose the job of being their mother. If we persevere and keep doing the job lovingly and respectfully and try to be reasonable even when things are hard, when they are adults they will be grateful THEN that we have taught them how to be happy and how to cope in the real world and treat people and be treated with respect.

One of the things that used to make me really angry, and still crops up for me sometimes, is that I feel my children are getting so much more emotionally than I ever got and that if I had what they had I would have been SO grateful, so when they act ungrateful it makes me really angry. I have to remind myself that all children deserve to be treated lovingly and respectfully and I deserved it too even if I didn't get it. They shouldn't have to be grateful because it is what they deserve.

Because I'm so locked into myself when I'm tired I think I should make a specific effort to focus even more on the children. There are ways to give them attention without having to be energetic. I need to do that thing where I really look at them and notice the things I love and kind of meditate on them and then the loving feelings come accross to them. I really think this works because DD talks rubbish but if I do this and don't even listen to the drivel but look at her lovingly and listen to the feeling in her voice rather than what she is saying she seems happy with that and doesn't seem to want that much of a verbal response. It seems to make her happier than finding empty things to say like "That's nice, oh really, very good" in a distant voice without meaning it or even looking at her much while getting on with housework.

Something someone said on here recently occurred to me and I think is useful - visualise them when they are adult talking about what sort of a mother you were. I really don't like the thought of them saying "She was always too busy or too tired or had other things on her mind to interact with us and was moody and irritable with us all the time and a bit cold and distant". This is what they would say if I behaved like this morning all the time and this is how I think of my parents who I was determined not to become!!!

Going to get DD from school now, will see if I can do the things I said.

balanomorey · 04/12/2008 18:54

Hi
What a lot has gone on since I last looked in...have been unable to log on for a while as we have had pesky viruses on our PC which has taken a while for us computer illiterate pair to sort out....hope no-one's been logging on as me in my absence!!

So much to read - this thread is amazing and such a support.

My last post was very positive.....not had such a good few weeks since though...maybe I've been missing the strength of support of this thread and the reality check it gives you.

Feel like crying today (and have been ) because I can't get away from the feeling that my shouting has got inside dd's brain and that I've moulded her into some sort of paranoid little soul who is waiting for the next shouty moment to come. She can't take any sort of reprimand at all - through the snot and the tears I hear over and over 'I don't like it when you shout at me' & 'why do you shout at me' . How I wish I could turn back the clock to when the short fuse manifested itself (about 2 yrs ago) and change my behaviour - the satisfaction I have had from motherhood over that time has been pretty low...am I beating myself up too much? Maybe, sigh! I just want to feel happy with myself as a mum and I so don't again at the moment. Today, I have said some awful things to dd - eg 'get out of my sight and go to nannys (dh has just taken her so I can have some space). Been winding me up all day - doing the exact opposite of what I ask, challenging me everytime I say 'No' and just being a pain in the arse making me feel I'd like to be a million miles away from her today as I'm so fed up. Also she's not been sleeping well, so I guess we are both tired (was awake with her last night from 3-5 and din't manage to get back to sleep til it was nearly time to get up again. She also said something to me that makes me think that she believes I like my own space too much at her expense - I'm too upset to say what she said but it made me cry to think my own child might be feeling rejected by me which can only be a result of my behaviours. ..no amount of telling her how much I love her has made me feel any better about that (and I love her so much it hurts)

I need to re-read this thread and get myself back on the even keel I was feeling a few weeks ago. Don't know why I've slipped back...PMT definately plays a part - anyone else in this boat? I get p'd off just before i come on and exactly mid cycle too...not blaming it all on hormones, but they do have a lot to answer for!

Hope all you girls have a good day tomorrow - onwards and upwards! Bless you all for posting....the support and non judgemental attitude is a godsend. x.

PS Fernfrost - please be reassured I don't have a thing for the bin due to trying to offload any emotional baggage - it's purely a tool to teach dd a lesson. By the way, the things don't actually get thrown out. I keep the things hidden and when dd has had a good run of behaviour, I'll dig something back out from it's hiding place and tell her I rang the bin man to tell him she'd been a good girl and he got it back out of the bin and brought it back for her !

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skydancer1 · 04/12/2008 20:28

Thanks Acting Normal and Katiek for your supportive words. I realise I'm extremely stressed right now with immanent house move, back going out (painful, debilitating - and bad timing!) plus the other things I mentioned. Interesting how normal toddler behaviour just seems unbearable when stress levels have gone up. Good to hear from you and balanomorey again but don't really have ability to respond just now. So glad this thread here though

skydancer1 · 04/12/2008 20:32

Oh Bm. PMT? I think you'd find it hard to find a woman who cant relate to that grrrrrrrrr

MorocconOil · 05/12/2008 16:34

Hi All, just checked in to see lots of new posts. Welcome Fernfrost Glad you are finding it helpful.

Skydancer- hormones do play havoc with my patience levels. I find it helps to acknowledge this to myself, as it makes me realise things will change, as the hormones fluctuate.

Katiek- thanks for making me LOL, at the image of your DD's hamster speeding around in a fuscia Barbie car. Your DD sounds such a character.

Acting Normal- as usual I read your post nodding away thinking I could have written that, especially the bit about Face Book. I had a brief obsession with it this week. Just lurked on ex-boyfriends and DC'S teacher's sites. then got paranoid when I thought they all might be able to see I'd been stalking them
I think you are a fantastic parent AN. You are so insightful and thoughtful, and it is clear you prioritise your children's needs. I am sure there are few people as self reflective as you are. Your DC are very, very fortunate to have a Mum who considers their needs, and the impact of her own behaviour on her DC. Not only do you do this for your DC, but you have helped me immensely in thinking about how I deal with my DC. I loved your idea of just quietly observing the DC, without talking. I tried it and it works.
Must go for now as the DC are loose with acrylic paints in the kitchen and could do with some supervision or every surface will be covered with a cloggy mix of brown paint.
See you all later

ActingNormal · 05/12/2008 16:51

Mimizan, thank you so much for saying the words you said. It feels like you've given me a gift! It encourages me.

It feels so reassuring when people say similar things to what you have said/what you were thinking because you don't feel so alone and don't feel so 'mad'. I love this thread.

I feel like I know what I need to do now (with lots of ideas from this thread and ideas that have evolved from thinking about what people have said) but I don't always do it. I need to practice and practice doing it and get myself back on track every time I feel I have slipped a bit. It sounds like a few of you are in this position and that we all slip a bit at different times eg when tired, got PMT, illness, extra stresses etc.

I just don't want to go back to how I was permanently and every time I feel a bit bad or don't do so well with the children I feel this could happen and it feeds the 'depression' (or whatever it is).

katiek123 · 05/12/2008 17:07

hello girls, hello mimi . can you please all go out immediately and get fitted with a mirena coil so you no longer have PMT - what a nightmare - i feel for you. (when i had it fitted i ignored instructions to wait in the clinic for a further 20 minutes, and felt faint and sick halfway round the ringroad home.had to veer the car into a hotel and collapse onto their reception carpet. they liked that a lot - great for business, obviously. plus i really enjoyed explaining what had happened to a 19 yr-old member of staff from my position at his bootlevel too.
so anyway PMT is one thing i have never had, even pre-mirena, though god knows i've behaved as if i had ... DD on the other hand already has it, years before the onset of puberty ...no time to write much more than the trivial drivel above, just checking in. lovely to read you all and i agree with mimizan AN, you frequently astonish me with the extent to which you analyse your situation and your relationship with your little ones. you are doing a fab job. mimi- LOL at you stalking your DC's teachers on FB - obviously i have steadily worked through my ex's already but hadn't thought of that one - thanks for the tip! see you at the next national stalkers' convention xxx ps balano it's so nice to get an update and i am so sorry it's still so tough. will come back and write less frivolously soon x

lljkk · 05/12/2008 17:09

.... so I read this all later

skydancer1 · 05/12/2008 20:57

Katiek do you know of any good alternative for PMT (other than mirena coil)? I have never liked the idea of a coil for various reasons (though got to admit I was tempted by your description - despite the fainting episode in a hotel after fitting lol. AN yes you do sound one of the most reflective and caring parents I know - you always come up with gems on here.

Balanomorey I just wanted to say keep on trucking - it does sound like a bad patch. I hear what you are saying about being sad that your DD expects and fears you shouting at her and how you wish you hadn't created this. At the same time when I read you I wondered - just wondered - if your DD has learned rather extreme ways to get your full emotional attention/remorse response and it is now more of a habit, even a 'power' she has. ??? I may be wrong but I am aware that if someone feels bad about themselves they are more vulnerable to being criticised in the area they feel most sensitive about (and I think children are highly sensitive to their parents and not always so angelic/incapable of unconscious manipulation. It might just be part of the equation.

Mimizan/Katiek Stalking. LOL Must give it a whirl.

katiek123 · 06/12/2008 08:29

hello sky! well, you're either looking at hormonal manipulation (mirena coil, depo-provera contraceptive injection, mini- or combined pill - and pills not fool-proof in this regard) which many of us aren't especially keen on once we hit our late thirties and beyond, or if things are very bad indeed you're looking at anti-depressants (prozac is licensed for being taken just for two weeks a month leading up to your period, if PMT is very severe) but that's again a little OTT for most of us!...or you've got all the usual herbal suspects, evening primose oil vitamin b etc etc which i am sure you must have tried ad nauseam. exercise of course too. or you could try homeopathy which is what i would do in your position, as gentle, nothing to lose etc. i have seen some good results. i also struggle to see any results at all sometimes, but the one area i have had (modest...am a beginner!) success in is hot flushe in the menopause and other female hormonal complaints, so worth a try i reckon. BUT so bloody difficult to get right (IMHO) that best to consult a good homeopath and get your history taken well rather than going for something over the counter. mind you i'm not sure spanish massively keen on it so might be hard to find someone good over there? i remember in portugal being looked at like i was a crazed lunatic when asking for a homeopathic remedy in a lisbon pharmacy and i have a feeling spain the same? must go feed the monsters their breakfast! have a lovely day everyone x