support thread for women who have chosen to terminate IV

[bezzyk]

Hello ladies old and new.

Here's hoping this thread brings better luck and much happiness.

Lots of love

BK xx

Linspinsisfatandtiredtoo! Off to bed.

Glad you had a good day Justa.

Yay for justa. Enjoy your birthday evening.

Sleep well linspins.

Am having trouble facing the school run. It's so wet!!

Happy of happiest birthdays to you Justaboutthirtyfive
Sending you big hugs and smiles and a small glass of champagne
with love
Bee xxxxxxx

Treetops
Feel we should be having a harvest festival to acknowledge and celebrate the bursting forth of your wee egglets.
We should be bringing small offerings to you; a delicious home-made cake here, a Green and Black's selection box there, lavender oil perhaps and a scented candle.
We wait with bated breath on the bench - chilly here but cosy, nattering on to each other. Cashmere tartan rugs on knees, Mrs BG has a hipflask with brandy tucked in her knickers.
I hope they embed snuggly in.
I wish them a fruitful time.
Off to bed now - have such a sad feeling when I think that all this bursting forth is all part of my past now. My youngest does not believe in Father Christmas anymore. So troubling.
Goodnight to you all
wishing Linsy Pinsy a not too frenetic week - deep breaths and delegation.
Wishing Cando luck with telling the world her news - such news.
Wishing dear Bezzy and Mrs BG warmth and reassurance that the babies will come to you both.
And everyone else - everything else
kisses
Bumbling Bee
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Just came to pass around warming cups of hot chocolate.

Could i have a big Tree cuddle with mine please? Very weepy and fragile.

Oh Bee.

This too will pass. The worst of the feeling won't be this acute for ever.

I have no words for you. Hang on. Just hang on till the pain feels lighter.

cream not cram. Lashings of it.

Hello all

bee. I hope you're ok. Please email if you want a sympathetic ear.

Happy birthday Justa! Hope you had a lovely day, certainly sounds like it.

Odd weekend here. Pleasant on the home front, with lots of Christmas activities...tree up (blush)...baked mince pies...I love this time of year.

HOWEVER...

Got a letter from my GP who's chasing up the results of the testing on my recent miscarriage. Unfortunately, there's no record of anything having been sent away. So she's chasing up with the fetal medicine consultant who did my scan. I'm not holding out much hope. Anyway, I got a letter from the dr detailing the action she was taking. Randomly, with this letter, was a copy of the CVS results from the down's syndrome baby. Which blatantly told me in black and white that the terminated baby was a boy. It completely winded me, it was something I never wanted to know. Somehow, it makes him far more real, and not to mention opens a lot of wounds. I was slightly relieved when I read the details on the letter though, as I read that the diagnosis was T21 and straight away assumed it was the result from the miscarriage.

Love to everyone, love the pic BG. I rolled laughing when I saw it!

Oh Bezzy Bezzy.
That is really too much.
It can get so dragged up from where it has been gently resting - this pain, this loss stuff. How insensitive they can be; except how can they know what we know?
I want to be by your tree eating mince pies honey.
Me on a weepy one too.
Can not talk about it.
Did you get my text this morning honey?
Texted you.
Bad day for me too.

Oh bezzk. I am so so sorry.

Bee - you sound like you might be trembling.

A hard grey day for you both.

What really is annoying. Is that I never asked for the products to be sent away in the first place! It was the surgeon that offered. I certainly didn't expect it, after mc being only my 2nd loss in succession.

BK x

Excuse me...cover your ears...especialy the particulary holy one....I have to do this....

KNOBHEADS!!!!!

Not dainty or pretty but I had to get it out.

As you were.

Pretty shit here too.
But at least is the birthday of LM so we having steak in pepper sauce for dinner and wine.

How fitting for LM to have his b'day on St Andrew's day!

Much love Bee xxx

Bee my honey, hugs hugs and more hugs. So horrid for you to go through so much, no wonder the grey days come. I saw a lovely rainbow at the weekend, bright and glowing in a very dark sky...I am telepathically sending the image to you to hang on to.

Bezzy - same thing happened to a friend of mine, she gave her clinic such a furious phone call as she really didn't want to know the sex of her baby. I bet it was a real shock for you. Hugs for you too. xxxxxx

Have to go attend to a very tired Dd now...bedtime 'hour' (2 hours..).

Lins xx

I really hope LM enjoys his birthday dinner Bee x

Ha! Holy one as in Justa, not holy ear, as they are both holy, or they wouldn't work.....

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Off to bake a bakewell tart. Who is with me?

Damnit, the computer...or rather a slip of my chilly fingers...just lost the two messages I wrote....now, where was I?

What I wanted to say was to wish strength and love to Bee and Bezz today.

A horrible way to find out something you didn't want to know in the first place, Bezz. A big shock.

We keep having to face hurdles we didn't even know would be in front of us on this horrible...and sometimes, it seems never-ending...journey.

Love and hugs.

I'll dig out another pic of my torso to upload for you to have a giggle at .

Bee, such an awful, awful day...the weather seems to concur with our feelings recently...or reflecting the feelings, or something like that. It has to get better though. It will get better. The weather...and the feelings. Huge hug to you and hope your LM is enjoying his steak dinner this evening.

Tree, I've never made a bakewell tart in my life. Is it difficult? It sounds difficult....something you have to bake well by necessity. It's too much for me. Are you recovered from your harvest, tree?

Will post before my computer gets ratty again.
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Having a bit of a grump, hope you don't mind me moaning here: I try to read the 'due jan 2010' thread, and keep up with things...but today it's all "have had my hospital bag packed for ages!" and "done all my Xmas shopping" and "finished washing the baby clothes" and "took delivery of my shiny new pram" - God everyone is so organised! I can't even get my head around having a baby, let alone having time or energy to pack my bloody bag. AND ITS NOT DUE TIL JANUARY!
Sorry.
I have so much to do first, as you were all subjected to in last nights moan. And then, oh yes, skiing on the 20th dec. ha ha. (she laughed hollowly).
And Dd end of term party at nursery, Mum's coffee morning, NCT night out, staff meal out...can I just bury my head in the sand until Feb? Think it's all getting to me now. Urgh.
Apologies for this grumpy post which is nothing to do with thread title.

xxx

Dead cow been grilled and peppered.
Wine consumed.
Spirits flat ladies.
The reason for my terrible day? This morning I had a coil fitted.
Caused me enormous grief, sorrow and pain.
I just never imagined in a trillion tiny moments that a year and a half ago when I literally skipped out of the doctor's one sunny May day having had it removed, that things would end like this.
I know you all know how I feel.
So sitting there on a bleak freezing, wintery day, I felt as if I was waiting for a termination appointment really.
It was as if everything was being done back to front like a surreal film, babies dying not being born, coils in and not out, tears of sorrow and not joy. All wrong and cruel and higgledy piggledy.
Yet again I have to make an agonising decision. And on his birthday too.
But I just cannot risk another tragedy; for me, for him and for my children.
Off to put late big children in their big beds.
thank you all so very very much really
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