Trigger warning- title edited by MNHQ: Overwhelmed and upset no one to talk to in real life

(Is, because his music will endure forever. But he was fantastic in life too.)

Could you look for a choir to join where you are now? Music and singing is very healing for the soul. I sing too, and play some guitar (or used to, back in the day).

I’m listening to The Man Comes Around. Powerhouse of a song (whether you believe in/relate to/understand the source material or not!).

Passing on kindness through the world is a powerful thing and can brighten many lives.

Yes. You have done that for someone today - the world is better and more positive for that woman because you are in it. That matters a great deal.

You have been through a hell of a lot. You have survived and are amazing to have done so well. Keep talking. There are many of us here listening xx

I’m glad to hear that!

I’m making quesadillas for dinner, and really looking forward to it. I know you probably can’t eat much but have you got anything you can make a broth with just for some soothing warmth and at least a little bit of nutrition?

I hope you find a group within which you can sing.

Where are you based?

Sending you positivity and hopefully something from the universe to brighten your evening.

We went out for a long walk today. It was lovely to hear the birds calling. We were meant to make a trifle when we got back but couldn’t be bothered in the end so that’s been bumped to tomorrow.

I’ve got a rosé Spumante in the fridge. It will be a welcome treat this evening.

I'm so sorry op. That's a lot of trauma for one person to be dealing with. But here you are, keep going on - be very proud of that even though you might not think it is. Just take each second, minute as it comes as it's small wins. Sending you a big hug. Is there any friend you can speak to? Even to make small talk ? Do you feel up to taking a walk?

@Fuckedupfuckoffirishrover Some thing are too painful - they really won’t ever truly heal. But with time hopefully the dark days/nights won’t be quite as dark.

I’m sorry you’re struggling with it right now. You are coping though. You’re strong enough to put one foot in front of another; sometimes that’s as much as we can do. I hope it eases soon.

Do you like broths? I make a very tasty Korean or Japanese-Style broth for lunch most days, with smaller or bigger amounts of veg depending on what I fancy/how hungry I am. Beat two eggs together and as the soup is boiling I slowly pour the beaten egg in - it fluffs up really nicely like scrambled eggs.

It’s an an easy way to get some nutrition in, and not too challenging to eat/digest!

I really like it! You can also just boil an egg or two separately and add that in at the end, or crack an egg straight into the soup to poach.

I use a soup base or stock, soy sauce, sesame oil and a bit of Korean chilli flakes and/or Japanese spice mix, and then whatever veg I fancy - spring onion, sliced mushrooms, red pepper, thinly sliced carrots, cabbage. Add egg, or sometimes a little bit of leftover meat like pork belly slice or chicken.

An omelette would work just as well, especially if you add veg and cheese - easy and lots of nutrients.

I hope you manage to eat something.

Oh OP what a time you've had of it sending love and strength and pray that your life will get better soon please reach out anyway you can take good care of yourself you matter and you don't deserve the hand you've been dealt ❤️ gentle hugs you've got this xx

Can I make a suggestion of EDMR. It's to help you process trauma... these are life events that no talking can help. Especially if u have addiction background. You may need support to gently help your brain get back on track xx

Don't contact people like parents who may be part of the problem by sounds of it. Keep yourself safe.

It’s probably not helpful but I think you’re amazing. You’ve been through all of that but you’re still here. What an amazingly strong person you are! Each of those things is incredibly difficult by themselves. But you are still here. Well done you. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, access the services that are available and keep on doing what you’re doing. I’m sure you don’t think that you’re strong but you really are. Don’t listen to anyone, or at times yourself, who tells you that you can’t do life. You’re doing it. Block anyone who doesn’t help you. You have come this far. All by yourself. You can do this.

Sertraline is a very mild AD, can you ask for something stronger?

Hi OP, I'm on the other side of the world, and I've been reading your thread. You are so admirable, not giving up and reaching out. At times, families can be our worst enemies. Please don't listen to them. I'm hand holding from very far away, wishing you strength and all the goodness you deserve.

That message from your parents says everything about them and nothing about you. I'm sorry - they should have your back.

I understand its hard to be objective about your own parents and it hurts to get a message like that.

Happy Mother’s Day to you, OP. I’m sorry to hear that you had a difficult night last night, it is so much harder to be deal with everything when tired. I hope you’re able to be kind to yourself. At real crisis points, I try to remember to do box breathing - breathe in for a slow count of 4, hold for 4, breathe out for 4, hold for 4, etc, it calms the brain and body.
Sending you big hugs. You can get through this and there will be better times ahead. Xxxx