to stick my head in the sand and pretend this isnt happening?

[queenoftheslatterns]

i got a bfp on tuesday. a clear one. a bright blue line straight down. I am now (going by ov dates) coming up for 5 weeks. this is the time I normally mc, and I just want to stay in bed and sleep for the next 2 weeks. I havent called the cons yet, no point because there is nothing he is prepared to try. I havent been to my gp because he will refer me to the cons and i dont want yet another mc going on my notes.

i certainly feel more pg than i have for years, napping 2pm-4pm, going to bed at 8, eating like a horse etc... but on the downside i have a touch of loose bowels and i know that i need an early scan because of the ep.

but i cant seem to face up to this. dh is cacking himself and i dont want to scare him anymore. he asks if ive called the cons and ive been v evasive and said that he is away, but i dont want to involve anyone else in this in rl yet.

Fab

ps, am very sorry about your dad my lovely x

Of course! Heebee is fine (I answer to anything )

No problems re directions - I have approached it from all angles! I usually get out at Regent's Park (on bakerloo line so easy peasy from Marylebone). Let me know when you're going and I'll give you more detailed directions!

He definitely knows what he is talking about. There's a clip of him on his website (though it may be in the password-restricted bit) on Richard and Judy talking about it too.

I meant to say, that every time you see him, he follows up with a really clear letter of what you discussed etc, so if (like me ) the appointment goes past in a bit of a blur, you at least have the letter to remind you!

Any questions at all, please ask!

Oh no big hugs to you, I am so sorry. Have you posted in the m/c thread they are really good there.

Thank you lissie x

heebee, that would be really helpful, i shall be totally out of my depth (and possibly dh-less)

thank you piglet, tbh i dont use the mc threads because i tend to bring everyone down. i'm hardly a ray of hope

np gibbon

Lissie - you don't know me but I wanted to contribute to help. I went through 1 miscarriage before I had my 2nd, I just cannot imagine going through what you are going through. Good luck, hope the specialist can help!

Hope my contribution went through ok. My initials are NB. Let me know if there was any problem. Good luck with the consultant!

Queen thats what they are there for, doesnt matter I felt down and I posted there, i still do even though i m/c about 5 months ago, nothings happening though, just want a little brother or sister for dd .

thank you all so much, i cant believe how lovely everyone has been.

blinder, recieved it, thank you.

my laptop is playing up and i have sporadic internet so will try to get individual emails out later.

piglet, sorry about youyr mc

i am still in pain. cant believe it. and to make things even worse, have to buy a test today to make sure that its all over. spend half my life praying for a bfp, the other half praying for a bfn!

Hi Lissie - just to let you know that I haven't donated yet as am in Dublin and my paypal info is in Budapest so will do on Saturday.

buda, thank you. even dh got emotional about your generosity last night, he feels very isolated and frustrated. in some ways i think its worse for him. he has to watch me in agony and hear me crying and theres nothing he can do about it. he often feels guilty, because he is the one who gets me up the pole. dykwim?

Sorry you're still in pain Lissie . Hope you start to feel better soon

Just sent a little bit across to you

My DH is the same. Feels awful that I'm unhappy and in pain because of him. It's one thing you can't really share properly, however close you are

Hi Lissie, I have never really 'spoken' to you before, but have followed your previous threads. I've just sent a small amount x

Sorry to hear you are still in pain. Can you take any painkillers? I found Brufen helped quite a bit FWIW.

I would like to contribute too; has another thread been started? I'd need some help in how to Paypal you...

I am no fertility specialist, but I do not see why you should not have a trial with steroids?? Cheap as chips, sideeffects, well, MC has 'sideeffects' as well, and at worst it does not work... what you are doing at the mo doesn't work either so surely worth a go??

Hope you have a good day, lissie.

Only just seen this sweetheart. Check your PayPal and call me if you want/need to. I'll see you on 23rd. xxxx

Hi lissie

I've dropped you an email x

thank you all again. dh is being a star, but popped into mothercare today with mil to get neices birthday pressie and burst into tears. felt i was stuck in baby hell!!

pacific my pay pal is

ls . wltn @ googlemail . com

thank you to everyone. i can't believe how generous you've all been x

Just come across this thread and wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you.

Have sent a little something via paypal.

(((((((((hugs))))))))))))

how are things queen?

thank you tidybush
I'm very wobbly today, wish the bleeding would stop, it doesnt even seem to be slowing down. i cant do the hpt til its stopped though. no matter, i know im not pg anymore, its just a formality.

i cant stop crying though. am currently sobbing at prince caspian. dreading ds's birthday party next saturday, i'll be a wreck.

im also still in pain, still cramping and have backache

I am so sorry It's so cruel after all you've been through especially

i have asked the gp for some iron tablets, supopse I just have to ride it out!