to stick my head in the sand and pretend this isnt happening?

[queenoftheslatterns]

i got a bfp on tuesday. a clear one. a bright blue line straight down. I am now (going by ov dates) coming up for 5 weeks. this is the time I normally mc, and I just want to stay in bed and sleep for the next 2 weeks. I havent called the cons yet, no point because there is nothing he is prepared to try. I havent been to my gp because he will refer me to the cons and i dont want yet another mc going on my notes.

i certainly feel more pg than i have for years, napping 2pm-4pm, going to bed at 8, eating like a horse etc... but on the downside i have a touch of loose bowels and i know that i need an early scan because of the ep.

but i cant seem to face up to this. dh is cacking himself and i dont want to scare him anymore. he asks if ive called the cons and ive been v evasive and said that he is away, but i dont want to involve anyone else in this in rl yet.

Oooo lissie !

I will keep every thing crossed for you xx

Gosh Lissie I really hope this is it for you.

Will say a wee prayer tonight if thats ok?

sending all my sticky vibes your way

I saw Mr Shehatta on the NHS with a gp referral. It's definitely possible. Hoping you won't need to though.

Fingers (and everything) crossed for you Lissie - don't blame you for wanting to stay under the duvet...

Was in TTC yesterday with DCs and thought of you.

That's Telford Town Centre obv - not TTC

God i'm an arse sometimes - even when i can see what i'm writing and have the option to preview...

Oh Lissie, I am so (cautiously) happy for you - will be thinking of you and sending you lots of positive energy.

Enjoy your duvet snuggles :-)

Oh bless you.

I have absolutely no idea about any of this stuff, but dear god after 10 MCs I really and truly wish you all the best. Keeping fingers crossed. Really best of luck.

thsank you all, I am still up the pole and no negative signs yet. had a bit of backache, started panicking, thought - this is it, at least i have next week off work to feel sorry for myself. then i broke wind ands was fine. oops!

told work due to cold room/lugging around crates of fizzy pop and they congratulated me. told them to save the congrats til; we had a heartbeat. supervisor told me i was glowing that'd be dew from exhaustion!

portandblacks, i only live about a mile from the town centre!!

Yay for wind

Careful hugs to you, Lissie. Hang on in there.

thank you. being pg seems to remove all decorum, i keep getting the urge to knicker-check at the most inappropriate times, next to till two is not a good place to pull down your trouserts!

at 'wind'.

May all your bodily functions be so benign .

Do not get yourself arrested for knickerchecking in public places...

lol i'll try to refrain. am at mils now and have so far remembered to go to toilet first!

Queenie, go to www.nhs.uk/choiceintheNHS/Yourchoices/hospitalchoice/Pages/Choosingahospital.aspx - you have a right to be referred to any hospital offering NHS standards and costs. This right became law in April 2009.

Tentative congratulations to you

Hiya Lissie ..
phew - you and me both at the moment then ... I have made it to my six week scan and just started on heparin ... am due another scan this week ...
its hell isnt it ?

Unfortunately maternity services are exempt from the NHS patient choice ..I dont know if that covers miscarriage - I was told that I had to stick with my own hospital - but have been able to transfer my daughter's care to another hospital through the same system ..

I am sure you have read all the books I have, and I know I said on the other thread about being tested for Hughes syndrome ..
I assume you ahve been checked for the basic recurrent mc issues ?
If so, I dont understand why your consultant would want to try clexane - and yet wont prescribe progesterone ..

Have you thought about changing doctors ?
I only say that as I changed my GP about eight months ago and he got me a referral to the recurrent mc clinic and is being brilliant ..

My old GP didnt want to - well wouldnt - refer me to a recurrent mc clinic on the grounds that I have two children already ..despite the fact that its taken me 10 mcs to achieve that !

Its so unfair that access to services and meds is not mandated by law - so much depends on the GP himself ..

Hang in there ..I'll be keeping you company - who knows - maybe this is it for both of us ?

queenoftheslatterns I have 32 cyclogest pessaries if you want them, slightly weird offering pesseries but there you go. In a very good cause.

My gp bypassed my consultant and threw everything at my 5th pregnancy on the understanding that I knew it could possibly be clutching at straws.
It didn't work sadly for me but having read a lot of research I would be inclined to think it works for some women.

I am not surprised your dh is treating you as if you are made of glass or that you want to hide. Fingers, toes I have them all crossed.

Mermaidspurse - I was thinking the exact same thing actually - ! if it was too weird to offer cyclogest !
Lol.. If Lissie wants them , I may be able to sned some in a lttle while - will "lose" a prescription ... ( ahem ..)

They didnt work for my last pg either - but the only two successful pgs I have had were with progesterone shots ..
I am taking them this time too..

Let us know ..x

hi lissie

thinking sticky thoughts for you lovey {{{}}}

also thinking sticky thoughts for you

aw thank you all, if you wouldn't mind donating some pessaries, they will be so, so gratefully recieved! I still cant believe this is happening. this is the best chance we've had in years (going by clarity of the hpt) my gp is actually ok, but the cons is a pain in the arse. we have been referred to LWH where we were told to go on holiday, relax i just want to be taken seriously. it seems that because i mc at 5-6w i'm dismissed as some deranged baby-mad harpy.

A few of us have set up a email address so that we can pass info to each other. Send your address or just mobile if you prefer to [email protected] gracie will send it through to me and I will get them straight in the post for you.

Would your gp agree? mine had to do some googling first.

Hold on to that strong blue line.

Queenoftheslatterns - i realy feel for you me and Dh have been through similar, 5yrs ttc 6 mc 5 at 6 weeks it is realy awful and i wish you all the best. There is hope, i am now 38 weeks and this is all to do with Clexane (heparin) it seems to have done the job so please do not rule it out, we tried progestrone and other things that never worked i am so grateful to my cons for trying the Clexane, it realy cannot harm you or the baby, but of course it is up to you.

Just thought i would share my story and give you alittle hope. Goodluck

thank you, i shall email you now.

ray, when did you start on the heparin this pg?

i am still pg. am 21dpo today, so only 7 more days of this to go. got a bit hot last night but that was the weather, not a fever. thank god. feel sick this am! and no more backache!!!!