I can try, but this is AIBU so there's bound to be someone gaslighting me, telling me it's not that bad, etc.
I can't remember anything properly. I leave baths running and ovens going - I set timers for everything. I set reminders for everything.
I can't take in complex instructions easily, especially verbal. I also struggle with dense text and always 'skim read'.
I feel so overwhelmed that I often struggle with meal planning and household things. My husband is very good at that, he helps me cope.
I go through a cycle of 'boom and bust' where sometimes I can get more things done than the average person, sort of like a whirlwind, and then I hit a brick wall.
I'm very impulsive and have made bad decisions in the past - this is slightly improved by having an understanding now that I have ADHD.
Those are some of the ADHD issues. There are more.
I have to do things 'right' or bad things will happen. E.g. put my clothes on in the right order, or use the 'right' cup for my coffee or one of my kids might die.
That's OCD. It particularly manifests as health anxiety and every little imperfection, blemish, bump will lead me to spiral and think I am dying (or my husband, kids, etc).
Generalised anxiety = everyday dread and fear. I'm afraid of plane crashes and random people attacking me on the bus.
I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I would love to change this about myself.
And one of the largest parts of the burden is the masking - trying to appear 'normal' to stop my kids being affecting by my problems. Or feeling so much shame, like if people knew the truth about what's going on inside my head.
I've tried therapy, I've tried various meds.
It still affects me. Greatly.