I don’t want this life, I want my old one.

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Dd is now at school and i’m back to work almost full time (one day off a week)
I went to the shopping mall type place today and felt so sad. I used to regularly take Dd, go for a coffee, play places, choose her new, gorgeous clothes to buy. Every day was something nice ti do and somewhere to go or we’d stay in and do crafts or play in the garden, read, bake etc. Even walking the dog isn’t the same, memories of her running in front in her wellies in the fields, now is just Ddog and I, no little chatter beside me.
I miss my mum group too, we’d regularly meet at play grounds and became close, now everyone is back at work.
They were the best days, I wish they hadn’t ended, things just seem grey and stressful and boringly work based

I still miss it and mine are 22 and 26. It is a golden time and I feel lucky to have had it. But unfortunately nothing last forever!

What about School hols? Do you have plans for half term or Easter ? Not just holidays ,I mean a day out to the beach,park wherever .As the days get longer a trip after School somewhere maybe .My children are older now and I look back on those days spent together fondly

Wot?

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Sounds like you yourself are in a dark place. 🙁

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Oh gosh I relate to so many of these posts. It's the most emotional thread. I have twins, they're teens now and it's all going way too fast.

Like a PP said, my phone keeps pinging memories at me. This afternoon a photo of them on the first day of school aged 8 popped up. It was so adorable, school uniforms, sweet little shoes and socks, big grins. I sent it to MIL saying "the happiest days" and they were, another PP said the age between 5 and 9 is so special. I loved every age though. I was so sad when they left primary school, it was like I left a bunch of friends behind too as those school gate days are over.

The early years when off with them those days were so gentle, pootling about with the two of them, just the 3 of us, incredibly special time. I was lucky enough to work part time for years. Im in a senior role in the city full time now and while I don't hate it I'd swap for those early years any day. I also feel jealous of mums pushing prams or with toddlers, which is mad! I feel so grateful to have them which is the main thing and I LOVE spending time with my young teens. They're amazing, hilarious and lovely. I honestly don't know when I'll do when they leave home.

I understand that , I have 3 children and the stages take some getting used to .
Because of how my children were spaced out ( not necessarily by choice ) I had that pre school experience for a long time !