to ask you to tell us something you’d never admit IRL

[GooseAndSandals]

I’ll start with one of my less dark ones. I didn’t care when my father died.

My husband was diagnosed suddenly with CFS towards the end of my pregnancy.

I cant say it outloud because it makes me a bitch because it wasnt his fault but I really resent that he wasn't there for me when I needed him.

I strongly suspect he thinks the same about me.

Some days it bubbles up, even 15 years later.

I also suspect I might be gay but Im not going to destroy my family to find out. Ive made my bed etc.

Ive never said (typed) that outloud.

I wish my mum would die. She wants a full on Catholic funeral like my dad had, fat chance. She goes to church if I drag her when I go up. She decided, when I was about 20, that it was ‘all radio waves’ as opposed to religion. It would be sacrilege to organise a full Catholic funeral. She can have a do at the crem.

I dont think I'll be particularly sad when my parents die. I mean, I guess I will be sad but not sad, sad.

I hate christmas and have just treated it as another 24 hours for years but everyone I know thinks I love it

My biggest regret is not sleeping with a woman at least once before I got married

Nobody knows that my partner of 16 years gaslights me. Mentally abuses me. Calls me thick, a useless cunt, a waste of space etc. On a regular basis. I just want to be loved.

I am going through the same thing. I too have been reading about conviction rates with these arsehole men. Shocking!

I wish I had never started to date my partner. I really liked him, but i figured it would fizzle out. It hasn't. We went on to fall in love. If it had, I wouldn't have to make so many compromises. Sometimes I wish he would find someone else so I knew he would be happy and I could live my small comfortable life.

Between us, my DH and I have four siblings. Three are currently committing different types of benefit fraud. There are days after a long work week when I consider reporting the whole lot of them.

Having an elderly parent is really difficult. My mother died 3 years ago and I feel really resentful towards her for leaving my now 92 year old Dad behind on his own and I think that’s stopped me grieving for her. I only cried once, a few months after she died.

We live locally to my Dad, my sister is an hour away and he’s managed to fall out with the two friends he had. If he needs anything it’s us who he calls, or if my sister can’t get in contact with him she’ll phone me and ask me to call around and check on him. If my phone rings and I see either of their names my first thought is “what now?” and know that my day or night is about to be screwed up as neither ever calls just for a chat.

We’re waiting for our house sale to complete and then we’re moving out of the area, 45 minutes away. My Dad is showing no interest whatsoever, I think he’s unhappy that he won’t have us at his beck and call any longer. I do feel a bit guilty but he could be around for another 10 years, we can’t put our lives on hold until he dies.

Every time my DM complains about money, or her petty issues, and why her DC don't pay for her to holidays like her friends do, I want to scream it's her own fault. She refused to work, refused to parent us & refused to give us opportunities like extra curricular activities because 'she couldn't be bothered'. too busy shopping, gym, and her latest fad activity. A life of leisure she's led! I even had to force her to skip the gym to come to my HS graduation.

DF still ignores me, but lives for his weekly calls from DB. I admit letting slip DB called me as he wouldn't drive the two hours to visit when DF, who was seriously injured, unless DF was going to die. He turned up for 12 hours & visited DF in the ICU for 30 minutes.

I also get angry when DM tells me they were hard done by by DF's parents. DF was given a house & business by his parents. Lost it all investing poorly & they're living on the pension. I quietly know DF owes 250k to a relative who bailed him out in the GFC because he borrowed against the house. DB doesn't realise they will die paupers, and the house goes to the rich relative who bailed them out. There'll be no inheritance except the copious amounts of junk we'll have to clean out of the house & shed.

I also know DB is going down the same route as DF financially by borrowing against his house to invest at 50, because he's got zero retirement savings & a huge mortgage. No sympathy.

I also don't tell them this boring, stupid child (DF called me useless) has paid off my house & has a healthy pension. All because of me, not DH. Who is a financial advisor but not interested in our finances.

You deserve better

I have 3 third nipples.
I googled it and discovered mine are on the ‘milk line’ , which I found a bit interesting.

My siblings are monsters. Their brains should be preserved in the Natural History Museum for scientific research.

@Boofoof @notatinydancer

msg glycinate has reduced by brain noise massively.
(I started taking it to stop me waking in the night- tick) but it also has made me calmer and took my feet pain away . Bizarre!

Oh I see! You didn't quote that post, so I thought it was a general recommendation to everyone! I wasn't sure if you were going to come up with some eye-popping fetish thing! Sorry, I can imagine it makes life easier if necessary.

Do it.
Wankers.

Dogs have no place in the office.

@Crazyworldmum is it bad that I envy you a little? I 100% believe you btw. Don't spirits help you out, especially your relatives/friends that have passed over?

I wanted to run my ex husband over after he physically abused me

My first time was a 3some I was 16. Then I had sex with another guy because my friend fancied him. I never saw anyone from that party again, not even the school friends as none of them stayed on at 6th form. I think karma bit my arse for that as I’ve only had 2 proper boyfriends, the rest have been FWB or one night stands

I am 52 and think karma could just fuck off

I am thinking of you so much and so very sorry you are going through this. It’s beyond words really. It must be so exhausting staying strong for him x

What the hell do you stay with him for? Genuinely asking you.

This is not helpful. People can’t just choose whether or not they believe something.