to ask you to tell us something you’d never admit IRL

[GooseAndSandals]

I’ll start with one of my less dark ones. I didn’t care when my father died.

I pretend to listen to DH but just smile and nod

😀 Doesn’t he notice?

I wish he had killed me.

Hope you are ok @Taztoy

I genuinely believe there was a mix up when my twin died and it should have been me. Death made an admin error.

Why should it have been you?

I should have killed the fucker when he was sleeping and a knife was in my reach. Hate that I was too cowardly

Thanks @GooseAndSandals I really don’t think I am. Don’t worry I’m not going to actively do anything but it’s so hard to keep on keeping on. He might get off. Conviction rates are so low. And even if he’s convicted he will be out in a year or two and able to live the rest of his life.

Oral sex disgusts me - giving and receiving

I’m so sorry you are going through that @Taztoy Some men are such disgusting bastards. Are you getting any support or therapy?

I have had and am having therapy. It’s changed me. I will never be the same again.

I was relieved when my mother died.

I worry about going to Hell

Because she would have made my parents happy and I’m a waste of space.

I met somebody once fifteen years ago and still can’t stop thinking about her. I am as unromantic as they come, don’t believe in love at first sight or soul mates or any of that rubbish but somehow she occupies space in my brain.

Im so sorry that you feel that way but I’m sure it’s not true. Your life is valuable even if you can’t see it at the moment.

I don’t know 🤣

Thanks for saying that. Each of us has intrinsic worth! It’s just I’ll never make my parents happy, which I know isn’t actually my fault or my responsibility, but it still sucks.

Sounds like the perfect relationship 🤣

I’m thinking of pretending to be going deaf

That definitely says more about your parents than about you! FWIW My parents never praised or supported anything I did.

So sorry to read all the shit some people are going through.
Mine is more frivolous. Ish.

I despise my Dad's wife.
I know that's ridiculous when I'm 55 and they've been together 50 years. I imagine myself at her funeral standing there and not shedding a single tear just so other people can see that I hate her.

Edited for typo

I try that but mine notices and gets in a mood 🙄

I genuinely wish I could runaway from DH and DC and live by myself for a few months

Doesn’t sound ridiculous at all if she has been around since you were five. Hope you are rid of her soon 😀