Name Changed. On the surface, I have a lovely life. A wonderful husband, beautiful daughter, lovely home, close friends, a great job (£60k) and I should be happy but it will all go bang before Christmas.
I owe £13k, DH doesn't know, I'm utterly hopeless with money, I can't manage it, it makes no sense to me at all. We need to reset our mortgage and there is a charge on our house. Its £2500 and I can't get the money together to pay off the charge.
I've long suspected I have Autism and ADHD, but that doesn't help. I don't experience feelings, I think I love DH and DD, but I don't know what love feels like. I'm not bothered about the fact my parents are unwell, and I know that makes me sound awful, I can't do anything about their illness, my dsis is devastated so I'm pretending that I am too.
I'd rather be on my own than with people, I put on a show every day and I'm knackered.
I stay for DD, but DH and I will probably split up over this