Can’t tell anyone in real life

[Catchmeifyoucam]

I’m actually shaking a bit writing this because I’m so scared of the comments to come but I need to tell someone because I can’t tell anyone in real life.
for the last 10 years I’ve been addicted to opioids, taking uncountable amounts every day & spending upto £1k a month on tablets from the black market.
im FINALLY clean; did it all by myself by weaning off slowly and im so proud of myself. None of my friends and family know and from the outside looking in I don’t think you would have guessed.
I just feel so amazing, I have so much more energy, I’m not in as much pain anymore and life just feels more colourful as cliche as that sounds. I’m just so proud of myself that I beat this horrible addiction that’s had such a hold on me for a decade. I’m so scared I’ll relapse but I’m determined. Thanks for reading if you got this far!!

Well done!!

You have done an incredible job to come off them. Do you have a plan for ongoing support?

You should be so proud!

Well done OP! That must have been a hard journey. How long have you been clean for?

Massive well done- huge congratulations are in order and yes you should be super proud of yourself!
Don’t go back to it, never go back…..people sometimes thinking they’ve beaten it once they can do it again but that’s not how it works, just don’t ever go back now.
In moments of stress or pain reach for normal tablets now and endure the struggle, whatever it takes just don’t go back on that path.

Well done e OP, you’ve achieved a massive achievement, you must be brimming with pride :)

Thats incredible OP well done you. If you ever feel yourself slipping back please please reach out for professional help you won’t be judged. That’s such an achievement though.

You should be proud of yourself OP.
Absolutely brilliant!
Good wishes to you for the new future you have carved out for yourself

Wow thank you so much for the support! Only a week so it’s early days but I’m determined to stay clean so I can be the best version of myself and be the mum they deserve. I never ever want to feel how I’ve been feeling the last decade. I’ve been trying for years to get clean and just could never do it so the fact i finally have means everything to me!

That’s a HUGE achievement. Massive well done from Down Under.

Holy shit you're a badass OP, well done!!! 😄

Wowza op that's incredible! Enjoy your new found freedom you deserve it all 💞

That's amazing, well done!

Wow, that is bloody amazing! Congratulations, and I am completely in awe of you doing this, entirely by yourself, with no support! You've got clean, I'm damned sure that if you can do that, you can STAY clean!

Not only your health but your wallet! I hope you plan to treat yourself with all the extra money you’ll find yourself with?

You are incredible!

Wow I’m actually crying right now, thank you so much for the support! It’s so nice to have it as I don’t in real life because no one knows! I’ve booked a holiday to center parcs for us this summer now that I can afford it and I’m just so excited for family time where I can actually enjoy it all! 💕

You’re amazing, OP. That must have been damned hard.

Absolutely amazing, you are rightly so proud of yourself and you'll get lots of love from mumsnetters too.

Congratulations OP! It’s amazing!
I know you said that no one in real life knows but I’m sure that your kids noticed the difference already.

That is bloody amazing,

No, I’m going to rephrase that…

YOU are bloody amazing.

you can do this 💪 l

@Catchmeifyoucam I have no respect for drug addicts but I have massive respect for people who get themselves clean! absolutely massive congratlations for this! xx

You're incredible OP, go you!!💪

Thank you so so much everyone. I’ve been so emotional while weaning off/the last week of being clean and this has just set me off again! I’m going to come back and read these messages every day for as long as I need encouragement to stay clean.
i first got addicted after surgery 10 years ago, I was only 23. They prescribed co-codomal and by the end of the 6 weeks I was hooked, I figured out how to get it on the dark web and then moved on to stronger ones like morphine, tramadol and dihydracodine. How I didn’t die I’ll never know! :(

Honestly there are not many threads on here where you open it and genuinely think "bloody hell what an achievement" but you've nailed it OP.

Now just get every bloody bit of support around you, shore yourself up. You have a long road ahead to keep it going. You got this.

Well done OP. This is a fantastic achievement, how wonderful :)

this Is absolutely amazing OP! Well done and you should be so proud of yourself. Stranger to stranger I am so proud of you. Just take it one day at a time..

That's amazing, congratulations op!

Have you thought about joining a support group for continued encouragement and support irl?
Having said that I know not everyone gets on with in person groups and tbh you've come this far already on your own and of course you have mn cheering you on!

This is an amazing achievement OP, here's a HUGE well done from me!! Make sure you get loads of support going forwards. Get on to whatever support groups you can to keep yourself clean. Maybe let GP know so that a note can be put on records (so that they can carefully manage any future prescriptions), and in case they need to check you over. There's no shame in admitting a situation and addressing it.