To have hated every job ive ever had?

[Coffeeebean]

Just as the title says really – I hate my current job, and I have come to realise that I have hated every single job I have ever had.

I currently work for the civil service and today is my first day back since the 24th. I didn’t sleep a wink last night because I was so anxious and full of dread, and I’ve already been in tears this morning. I have worked in a few other civil service roles, in education (non-teaching), with animals and in hospitality and grown to hate every single one.

Its usually around the 6 month point that the boredom and dread start to set in and I start having thoughts like ‘maybe I could just have a minor car crash and have a few days off’ (not ideal)..

I find the constant interaction and pressure to deliver exhausting. I don’t have ‘passion’ for anything I’m working on so just get so bored and fed up. I definitely don’t have a ‘dream job’, and above all else I completely resent the loss of freedom and the manic Monday-Friday trying to fit everything in, for the weekend to fly by and having to start all over again.

Does anyone else feel like this? How do you cope?

Ive been so happy the last 10 days and immidiately just feel awful now i have to go back. The thought of doing this for another 40 years makes me feel like theres really no point to any of it, but everyone else just seems to get on with it and be perfectly fine!

What am I doing wrong?

YANBU. Work sucks, even if you like your job. I like and even have a 'passion' (bleurgh!) for mine, but I hate the long hours, lack of recognition. And most of all the way companies expect to keep you working ever harder and harder, for what is effectively lower and lower pay due to inflation and lack of pay rises... it sucks. Simple as that.

And in the end, what is it all for? I don't make enough to expect a decent pension or comfortable retirement. Living for the weekend is not a life. I feel like I'm wasting my time, just lining the pockets of shareholders.

Working 9-5 (or 6.... 7...) Mon-Fri to me seems outdated and pointless. I have no idea what the solution is, but people telling you to organise your time better or take antidepressants are missing the point.

I'll make it easy for you.

Fact - someone (or multiple someones) has called something essential.
Opinion - whether it actually is essential or not.

I used to love working and especially working in a team. Now I'm out of that career and I hate working for other people.

I used to feel part of a team, valued, and that the work I did helped us all to achieve something. Now if I go contracting it's endless levels of management, no say, lots of responsibility, and completely unvalued. Of course I know I've never been indispensible but I did feel valued. I'm just another number and achieving nothing nor helping to achieve anything worthwhile.

But I still go, as Terry Pratchett once said;

“Only in our dreams are we free. The rest of the time we need wages.”

I used to feel this way so I retrained in something more suited to my skillset. Now I'm paid well, work remotely and don't have to have many interactions with other people which is just how I like it. The days go by quite quickly now with the freedom to take out time for myself throughout the day. Workouts, home cooked meals, dog walks, etc. Would you consider retraining if you found something that might be a better fit?

Yes I did

I was an academic researcher doing my dream job. I was excelling in my PhD research which was getting a lot of recognition and I was publishing way before the end of my PhD. I loved it, and the topic was the passion of my life. I wolfed so so hard at it and then submitted my phd and had a horrific psychotic breakdown from which I have barely recovered and now have disabilities becasue of he damage I caused ot my body. in psychosis. I had jobs I did Leo before too always but ive barely worked for eight years and I miss my old works od very very much. I dont know what to advise you but id find it unbearable to do a job I didnt like. I was the opposite of what people say and my work was one of the most important parts f my life and it consumed me too much really becasue I loved it. I didnt really make tiem for hobbies but being os consumed also broke me and my life is now in utter tatters. its so hard to get the balance. im thinking of setting up a very small floristry business. im totally dependent on my husabnd.