To have hated every job ive ever had?

[Coffeeebean]

Just as the title says really – I hate my current job, and I have come to realise that I have hated every single job I have ever had.

I currently work for the civil service and today is my first day back since the 24th. I didn’t sleep a wink last night because I was so anxious and full of dread, and I’ve already been in tears this morning. I have worked in a few other civil service roles, in education (non-teaching), with animals and in hospitality and grown to hate every single one.

Its usually around the 6 month point that the boredom and dread start to set in and I start having thoughts like ‘maybe I could just have a minor car crash and have a few days off’ (not ideal)..

I find the constant interaction and pressure to deliver exhausting. I don’t have ‘passion’ for anything I’m working on so just get so bored and fed up. I definitely don’t have a ‘dream job’, and above all else I completely resent the loss of freedom and the manic Monday-Friday trying to fit everything in, for the weekend to fly by and having to start all over again.

Does anyone else feel like this? How do you cope?

Ive been so happy the last 10 days and immidiately just feel awful now i have to go back. The thought of doing this for another 40 years makes me feel like theres really no point to any of it, but everyone else just seems to get on with it and be perfectly fine!

What am I doing wrong?

This is why I work from home. Jobs get on top of you cos people are mostly awful but if they're far away it's not so bad.

I know cs tries to enforce 3 days but you can probably do a lot less depending on your actual job.

Also try to remember that only liars or idiots are passionate about some bullshit office job.

Doesn't make the slide shows any less cringe ofc.

I find the constant interaction and pressure to deliver exhausting.

You mean people talking to you and expecting you to do your job? I doubt that you will find a role in which this does not happen, even if you work at home or go self-employed.

Yes! There was a time when turning up and doing what you were paid for was enough. Not any more, you have to be passionate!

I know, it's grim. And of course the people who get promoted to the top are the bobbleheads who get right into it and everything worsens.

Look, just because you hate your jobs doesn't mean it's ok to belittle everyone else who doesn't. It's a you problem.

I belittle people who are passionate about a normcore typey typer job, sorry.

By all means be passionate about nursing or postdoctoral research into something world changing or being CEO of a wine or chocolate company.

"normcore typey typer"?

Are you always this much of a twat?

Depending on your department in the civil service you can get a neurodivergent needs assessment which can suggest reasonable adjustments that make work more bearable (more time working from home, change in the way you work etc) and you don't have to be diagnosed to get one. I felt the exact same way until I started putting adjustments in place to help me stay in work. That plus decreasing hours/dropping a day has dramatically changed my attitude to work, now it's just a small part of my life that I have to do in order to be able to do the rest.
It's definitely worth exploring if you believe you may be neurodivergent.

Yep! I do alright for the first 6 months and then begin to hate it.

I have a pretty cushy job atm, wfh decent enough pay and relaxed management, but I'm starting to hate it.

I just don't like working full stop. In fact I fucking hate it.

Sorry to hear about your passionless existence.

“Normcore typey typer stuff” is going on my CV for my last job description 🤣

I am the same OP.

I did OK at the beginning of my career because I worked with decent organisations and with good teams for about 10 years.

After that it all went downhill in my sector, with poor pay, bad managers and one person expected to do a job that would requite an entire team to deliver.

My current organisation is the worse ever: misrepresented the job at interview, back-stabbing colleagues, very inward looking with too much politics, complete chaos and an appalling staff turnover because of it all.

Add to that the stress of long commute (lied to at interview about the fact that I would only need to be in the office once a month, if that). I now absolutely hate every single day I work for them.

Like you I suspect that I am nerurodivergent and I struggle with noisy environment and the transport system. Current employer was completely unsympathetic when I ended up having a complete breakdown last year and I had to get Occupational Health involved.

So I am now looking at leaving that sector and working fully remotely.

More generally, I really don't think humans were made to spend such long hours in front of a computer, stuck in a room either.

Making more profit for corporate companies and more taxes for governments should not be our main purpose in life. Perfectly fine to feel that you don't fit in that scenario...

I expect you'd hate not having an income more.

You do right. You can only laugh at people who post condescending stuff like that 😂

That was kind of my whole point...

Wtf are you talking about?

I find the constant interaction and pressure to deliver exhausting.

So, some kind of research job, maybe? Data analysis?

A lot of research and data analysis is all about deadlines and pressure to deliver.

I get you!
Im in my 50s and have always felt like this, and it’s not because I’m in the wrong job - I’ve worked lots of different roles ranging from cleaner, call centre staff, shop staff, office admin etc etc. I just hate work! I love being at home pottering about and joke that I wasn’t born to work😂

I think it is about the jobs surely, but mostly about the people.

I was born to potter!!

Sounds like you struggle with pressure, which people feel more acutely if they lack confidence. The more confident you are that you will be able to meet the demands, the less pressure you’re under. Would you say you lack confidence generally / socially / at work?

At least we don't live in the olden days. I hate to think how I'd have coped pretending to be passionate about being a scullery maid or whatever.

Yes I think so - i am also quite introverted and struggle to make 'friends' at work. My DH has close friends who he goes for coffees and lunch with and he says that makes office days more bearable, but ive never experienced that in any job