Need a hand hold

[Imbluedalale]

That’s just it really. I really need a cuddle but that’s not possible so can anybody just support me right now? My mental health is on the floor right now I’ve never felt as low it’s making me feel so ill

Hope you got to supported accommodation ok

Hi NeedToChangeName.
Im here and have been shown to my room and had a tour round . It doesn’t look like a hospital just a huge house it’s very nice . Got huge bay windows in my room which take up a whole wall looking out into a garden. The lady that showed me round is lovely I was having a panic attack and she was so kind and reassuring. I’m just settling in to my room. Got the worse over with actually getting myself here and not backing out . She said we will start the heavy stuff tomorrow so tonight she said I can try and make myself at home

Oh I'm pleased. Sounds like a good place to start healing. Best wishes

That sounds positive OP. Hopefully you can rest well tonight

See you did it! congratulations well done really pleased for you. Your future starts now.

Oh that sounds superb!! Massively well done!!

Thank you NeedToChangeName.
Lady in charge said to make myself feel at home and treat it as a home but I still feel cheeky putting the kettle on so I’m psyching myself up to do that in next 5 mins

Thoughts are with you, you have been so brave even though you might not feel like you have you have and we are all behind you here. Sending you lots of love xxx

Thank you Ruralretreating.
If reason I was here wasn’t so bad it would be like being on holiday . It’s a huge country style house I’ve never seen a kitchen so big and the way it’s set out and decorated is lovely . They’ve even got a library and Netflix ! I’ve been given some medication to help me sleep but I havnt taken it yet I’ll wait until later .

Thank you Todaywasbetter.
Can’t believe I did tbh , can’t believe I’m sat on this bed right now doing this . And do you know what the weirdest thing is ? I’ve just met my councillor for the week and she’s the one I was speaking to before I tried to jump off Humber bridge last year . Isn’t that weird ? She said she’s read all my notes and she said she promises to help get me better and start a new life and she’s going to hold my hand all the way . Isn’t that lovely ?

Thank you ChoccieCornflake.
As I’m writing on here I’ve had a message from next door neighbour saying she’s just been told (by exs mum) that I’ve left . And I was going to reply but then I thought I’m not going to respond to negativity right now and get myself all worked up again and go through the rigmarole of trying to defend myself . I’m going to defend myself by trying to get better so I can get my kids back . My councillor said it doesn’t matter who doesn’t believe me right now because the truth will out one day . And if it doesn’t hopefully I will be a stronger person by then and I won’t care because I would have got through this and that will be my truth

Thank you Tibby2024.
I couldn’t have got through today if it wasn’t for all you MN’s encouragement and support.
Thank you from bottom of my heart xx

You’re doing amazingly. Your ex and his tribe are showing their true colours and I’m so glad you’re not near them or communicating with them. You have the opportunity now to rest and start getting your confidence back. You go for it!

Thank you TealPoet.
I’m rarely even thinking about ex and his mum right now . I was very upset when I found out he’d met somebody else whilst I was going through cancer treatment but I don’t think of that thought much anymore . When I do think of him it’s just to ask myself why really . I know people meet other people when they are already in a relationship but it’s all the other stuff he did that I didn’t deserve . I don’t miss him , I thought I would but I don’t . I don’t ever want him back it’s done . I just want to get better for myself and my children so I can start a new life with them and become a person again .

Don’t ever doubt how strong you are! He wasn’t worthy of you.

So good to hear your updates. I hope you get a good nights sleep so you wake beginning to feel refreshed.
time to focus on you, @Imbluedalale. You’ve got this! 💐

edited for hitting ‘post’ too soon 🙄

I hope I'm not too late to say nighty night😊 You've made it to your new beginning. You deserve a good life. Sleep tight😴

Good night all. Got pjs on and had my meds . Thank you 🙏 for helping me get through this xx

Sleep well! I hope you have sweet dreams of the better times you’re now moving into.

That sounds a great location, and good you can see the positives of it. Sleep well OP.

Enjoy your lovely room and have a wonderful sleep .💤

Just catching up & this place sounds lovely, probably exactly what you need & will really benefit you once your mind allows you to lean into it.

Wishing you an excellent & restful night's sleep.

Sleep well you absolute Superwoman!! Honestly, you have an extraordinary depth of insight and strength - even now when you are beset on all sides. When you are feeling better you're going to be a force to be reckoned with!

Poor you. You have been through so much. I don't think you're weak at all. Take care. X

How are you doing this morning OP?