Need a hand hold

[Imbluedalale]

That’s just it really. I really need a cuddle but that’s not possible so can anybody just support me right now? My mental health is on the floor right now I’ve never felt as low it’s making me feel so ill

That poem is absolutely wonderful! Also, the meaning of your name is absolutely spot on!!

I hope you have a wonderful relaxing sleep, and that your body can finally relax!

Ah, I love that song 😍. The words are so beautiful.

Im meeting an old friend I haven’t seen for ages for a coffee tomorrow so that’ll be lovely.

Hope you have a really lovely sleep Laura and can get down for breakfast tomorrow. Lots of love xx

This is such brilliant news, I’m so happy for you and so impressed by all the lovely Mumsnetters who helped. That edited letter was by a long way the best thing I’ve ever seen ChatGPT do, and I’m a fan of it!

Well done for standing up for yourself Laura, you should feel so proud. It sounds like you’re in the perfect place for your next stage of healing with that lovely peaceful view, and the safety of your room, and kind people checking in on you. It also sounds 100% like all your mental health struggles came from the circumstances you were in and the abuse you suffered and probably also a lifetime of your parents coldness towards you, and that there’s nothing inside you or your brain that caused any of it. You didn’t cause their treatment of you, and you didn’t cause your anxiety or sadness or any of it. You’re a wonderful person, and all you needed was some support and safety to start building a free and happy life for yourself. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and can now start to relax and feel like you’re truly safe. 💞

Morning, cookie monsters. I am just about to go down to breakfast which in this establishment means probably a cuppa and some digestives as I need to get some bits in.
I hope you have slept @Imbluedalale
Sending a big hug to you and everyone on this thread as you are deffo all lovely people.

Good morning all! @PeggyMitchellsCameo similar picture in my house this morning. Managed to fine a few slices of bread for toasting before I head to sainsburys at 8am. The joys! Laura I hope you can get out over the weekend for some supplies. I hope you've been able to process the emotions of yesterday and can relax a little now 😘

Morning Laura and everyone! I woke up thinking about you Laura, and thinking about nice things you could get in Tesco’s when you go there on Monday. Do you have a fridge in your room? If so then these are worth a try, they have protein, carbs and veg all in one thing, they last well and they’re nice eaten cold straight from the fridge. I really like them and always choose this instead of sandwiches when I need something quick and easy. You could get some punnets of growing cress too, and maybe a pot of growing basil, for some fresh greens to add to things whenever you fancy.

It’s so good that you’ve got so many people looking after you. Maybe you could ask your mental health team to help arrange for you to see your daughter & your youngest this week, now that your immediate worries are sorted.

There are lots of great free guided meditations on YouTube that might help you find peaceful moments too. I love , it made me sob the first time I did it, it’s very healing for emotional wounds. Lots of love.

Morning Munchyseeds2,
How are you today?
Well I have to say I had the best sleep that I’ve had in a long time last night.
I laid on the bed with my book about 9.45pm and I’ve woke up this morning not believing that I’ve slept all the way through with my book next to me.
It’s a beautiful poem isn’t it, I love it . Thank you to the wonderful person who wrote it for me, I will keep it forever.
Hmmm for my bedroom I would like something plain but with pops of colour in it or I really like blue and white together . I want to get my children’s bedrooms done first so it’s all cosy for them when they are with me xx

Morning ChoccieCornflake,
It’s amazingly wonderful isn’t it! And thank you for your loveliness ❤️
I did have a lovely sleep thank you, not been to sleep that early in months. Hopefully it can carry on after I stop taking the sleeping meds .
Have you got any plans for today?xx

Hi RaspberryBeretxx,
I hope you have a lovely coffee date with your friend and have a big slice of cake with it.
Im just getting ready to go down for some breakfast now xx

Morning Meanwhile33,
Thank you so much. The MN’s on here are all lovely wonderful people , I will be forever thankful to them . And the email was brilliant wasn’t it, I read it to my mental health nurse and she was so impressed!
My mental health did definitely start during relationship with ex, I used to be a bubbly happy confident person who could make friends with anybody but he took all that from me. He ruined my peace that’s for sure. He was his happiest when I was my most upset. He would be delighted if he knew everything that’s happened since he made me homeless.
Re my parents I think that’s how I am with my children , I always want them to feel loved and I always say when I’m with them ‘come and give mummy a cuddle’ and I’m very affectionate with them. I don’t ever want them to crave my love and not feel as though they can get it.
Thank you @Meanwhile33 I do feel safe here and although I deeply miss my children and am still homeless I feel as though I can’t start to heal from the trauma of everything xx

Morning PeggyMitchellsCameo,
How are you today?
Oh I love tea and biscuits, I find that digestives don’t normally fit into my mug so I break them in half and dunk . I’m not a dip and bite kinda girl I’m a dunker get it in one girl. Also Jaffa cakes are my downfall I can’t just eat one or two and I full moon them so yeah I’m greedy when it comes to biscuits.
I’m just sat with a cup of tea and my breakfast to go box , today I’ve got juice , corn flakes and a croissant so that will last me until after lunch.
Thank you for the hug and sending a big one back xx

Morning nornironlady,
Ohhh what did you have on your toast?
Ive no plans to get out over weekend but Monday I have a hospital appointment and after then when I get back my mental health team said they would take me to Tescos . I’ve made a little list of what I need to get. I can’t wait to be able to do a food shop when I get a house and make proper meals.
I do feel more relaxed than yesterday thank you, I can sit and think about my children instead of having that hanging over my head too xx

Morning lovely
I hope you enjoyed a lovely breakfast and that you feel better than you did yesterday....sleep and all!
What's the view like this morning? Xx

Awww that’s so lovely , thank you for thinking of me . That’s so sweet.
I don’t have a fridge in my room and the hotel are not able to store food for me (health and safety) but I’ve made a list of what I can get , porridge , cup a soup . Noodles , rice pots.
They do sound lovely though , when I get a house I will try them . Thank you
I would love to see my children, more than anything but I can’t have my ex knowing where I am and my ex wouldn’t let my mental health team pick them up and bring them to see me. We are trying to work out ways in which I can see them. It’s hard. At the moment he’s got all the power regarding our children and I think it will have to eventually go to court but I need to go to court after I’ve got a home , it will go against me at the moment with me being homeless.
I’ve just been listening to that you tube video , it’s so relaxing! I have saved it to my phone and will give it a try throughout the day . Thank you xx

Morning Munchyseeds2,
How are you this morning?
I’m just having a cup of tea with my breakfast. Eating my croissant and will save the rest for my lunch.
The view is lovely again , abit cloudy today but you can sit and listen to the birds xx

That’s so hard, and so cruel of him. But you’re doing everything right to get to the next stage, and once you get to court any judge would be able to see what a good mum you are and how the kids would benefit from seeing you. Lots of love.

Hello there. I had boiled eggs as I do every day being the creature of habit that I am. My belly is at lunchtime by this point so sausages are on right now! Just a suggestion but Just Eat, Deliveroo and Uber eats do delivery from most local stores including the supermarkets where I am. There's good sign up offers too. I'm sure there's refer a friend too if you want me check it out. Just a thought if you needed things now. xx

I could look at a view with water all day. There is always something to see and it's very relaxing

As far as your disgusting ex is concerned ( who I am convinced is totally responsible for most of your issues, along with family - sorry to say), you are so right, you need to play the long game.

Get well, strong, get settled, then go the legal route. Let everyone know what he has done when you feel up to it, don't keep it a secret
If people choose not to believe you that's up to them - but you well have planted the seed in their heads and they will start to wonder and question what HE has said

Anyway that's all for the future

YOU ARE AMAZING don't forget it! Xx

That’s so great that you had a long proper sleep and that you’re feeling a bit more relaxed. enjoy your cornflakes and croissant! The lake looks beautiful today 😍.

Thats so awful that your ex won’t allow your children to see you. What kind of evil man would want that sadness on his DC, not being able to see their mum 😔, however he feels about you. I think that will look so bad on him when it goes to court. Maybe you can discuss options with the mental health team as they may be able to help or suggest something?

Im having a lazy morning at DPs but about to get in the shower.

that’s great on your Tesco list, it’ll be nice to have some warm food. At least you have subway for emergencies! Have lots of nice hot baths while you’re in the hotel before you have your gas bill to worry about 😁. Just be really kind to yourself and regain some of your physical strength after the trauma xx

What a relief for you. So pleased you don't have to overly worry now.

You had the strength to reach out & that's a true sign of your character. Mumsnetters have been amazing as well, & you deserve it.

Have a very relaxing weekend🤗

Thinking about boiled eggs, there are some videos about cooking with just a kettle on utube....could be useful xx

You’re right, it is hard and it is cruel but I wouldn’t expect anything less from him tbh . He made me homeless knowing how poorly I was and partially paralysed. That was the point I know how much he really hated me.
I miss my children more than I ever thought possible but what keeps me going when I think of them is knowing they are ok . I would give anything to be with them but that’s not possible right now xx

I love boiled eggs , I especially love egg and soldiers. Oh and I love sausages! I could eat a sausage sandwich right now.
Oh I have all those apps I didn’t know they do supermarkets. Thank you for letting me know xx

Hi Munchyseeds2,
It’s relaxing looking at them isn’t it. There’s a calmness about them. I think it’s a 2 mile walk around this lake. I do see a lot of walkers.
I would hate for my ex to know the situations I’ve been in since he kicked me out and I want to say I’d want him to know when I’ve got a house and I’m all settled but I hope by then I’ll be past caring what he thinks. I don’t want to look at him let alone speak to him. I had a phase last week of missing him but what I miss is an illusion and it’s not true life. It’s really weird because I had some photos of him which I didn’t delete because the children are in them and he looks dead between the eyes, I know that sounds strange to say but that was my first thought when I looked back at them and now I can’t unsee it.
I’m petrified of when it goes to court , I really hope I’m stronger by then. He will walk in with his sharp suit on and I’ll go in looking tired and unkempt.
Thank you for your kind words @Munchyseeds2 xx

Thank you RaspberryBeretxx,
Im just eating my cornflakes now with a cup of tea.
I saw the biggest swan earlier, was watching it for ages. It seemed so happy just swimming along on its own.
I know my children miss me especially my youngest. He said the other day ‘I just want my family back’ and it broke me. At the moment because of what ex has told everybody people think I’ve just left and left my children so everybody thinks he’s amazing but I’ve come to terms with that now , I keep telling myself ‘don’t get bitter, get better’ . And also I keep saying this to myself ‘the people that mind don’t matter and the people that matter don’t mind’ xx