So so overwhelmed ☹️☹️

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Sorry posting for traffic. I need motivation and well god knows what else.

My mental health is rock bottom. I am a hoarder. I live in absolute squalor.

Today is the day I need to blast through the clutter. The junk. The piles of clothes. The piles of rubbish. The empty packaging and empty boxes. Empty cups. Some mouldy. I know how gross this is.

I am overwhelmed I’ve allowed it to get to this point. I can’t see my floors. Dust is everywhere. No wonder I’m constantly run down and have allergies.

It’s all m fault. Everything is filthy. I’m so ashamed and embarrassed.

It’s just me though. No kids. No pets. No partner. So im not putting anyone else through this hell. My friends don’t know. They’ve never seen it.

I’ve made a start. I’ve almost filled a roll of bin liners up to take to the tip. Cardboard boxes ready to be ripped up for the recycling box. I can now see a fraction of my wooden floor.

But by God. It’s hard. So hard. This is just a quick break to write this and have a drink. (Of tea) now I’ll be back to it and hopefully finish one room by this evening.

I don’t even know why I’ve posted here. But if you’re this far, thanks for reading.

You are a bloody ledgend OP. Just think, every bag you throw out is a step closer to the new you, your bette life.

Well done. Keep us updated. We are your cheerleaders.

Very good! I'm giving you a STAR for effort! (sorry no stars on laptop)!

Where do you live? I'd help.

Well done OP it is so he’s to get started and it sounds like you’ve really kicked it off!! As PP have said, take pics - even if just for yourself to see that amazing progress you’ll make.

but do keep us posted on how you’re going with it all. I am sure you will inspire someone else to get started if you haven’t already! In fact, you have inspired me to have a bit of a sort out!

I'm imagining how amazing you are going to feel getting into those clean sheets tonight with a sense of pride and a job well done e and probably exhausted
Hope you have a good nights sleep and the rest of the house feels more manageable
Well done
We are proud of you

You're amazing for tackling this. Huge well done to you.

Well done making a start is the hardest thing!
If I can offer any advice (unasked for I know) it's to do one room at a time, then a break.
Try not to veer off and start another task before you have finished one room.
Well done, it's really hard work.

Also if you have a pile or drawer or bin or whatever that is just too intimidating, start with a look through it just to see what's in there, with no pressure to actually move or throw anything. Once you look through it you are certain to find things that can go out, so the pile will be reduced when you go back to it later to properly sort it.

Well done keep going! Where are you? I bet someone will come and help if you let them!

Getting started is the hardest part, really well done OP 🌟🌟🌟

Well done OP, what an amazing start!! We’re all rooting for you 👏 👏 👏

Well done. Can you afford to hire a skip? It will be much easier than lots of tip runs.

Good luck.

Keep posting.

Mumsnet is behind you!

Very well done indeed! 😀

Well done, you’re doing such a good job and we’re all so proud of you. We’re all cheering you on!

Hiya have you considered that you may have hoarding ocd? This is treatable, worth thinking if you have any other themes (ocd thoughts that consume you - like fear of driving).

You don't need any of it keep going. It's not easy going through it all but once its gone you will feel better. After its gone you could invite a friend over for a glass of wine as a treat.

Just want to add my congratulations. That's a big achievement already. I hope you enjoy your tidy bedroom and it spurs you on.

https://www.ocduk.org/related-disorders/hoarding-disorder/

You’re incredible!
keep reminding yourself why you’ve started. It’ll be so worth it when you can see the difference!

OP you are incredible to have started the clearing and to have started this thread. My Mum was an extreme hoarder, it took me a very long time to get the house ship shape for my Dad. It's emotional wearing - you have my every good wish, you've got this!

Well done OP. Massive headway in a short space of time. Take it a day at a time. Break it into smaller chunks of time if needed. Hugs. You are doing great xx

Amazing that you have got up and just done this on your own! Well done.

That small patch of floor you can will increase. Think how much better you will feel at the end, and keep that in mind.

You can do it!!