To just feel a bit down in the dumps and stuck in life with two young kids

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I have a 2 year old and a 4 year old and I'm currently on a career break.

My H is away daily from 6 am until 8:30 pm.

The nursery run takes 1 hour each way. My eldest goes to a school nursery 5 days a week and my little one goes 3 days a week.

The weekends are spent doing play dates / birthday parties, Day trips and seeing family.

The days my kids are both in child care are spent catching up on laundry / cleaning / cooking / food shopping and going to the gym. I'm so lucky I have time to do those things and can stay off work for a while as I was suffering from pretty bad burn out before.

Anyway, I just feel stuck and down and so tied down. I know these are normal feelings but sometimes it feels pretty dark. I try not to feel / think about things and just get on with things, but the feelings get to me sometimes.

I sometimes get frustrated with my kids. I feel like they are the boss of me and everything I do is to try to avoid them screaming at me.

I know I'm so lucky, so I don't understand why I'm still struggling.

If you're posting about it on MN and from what you've written it looks you find it difficult/stressful most of the time. Being a perfectionist or overachiever means you're likely not open to constructive feedback or any hint you might not be smashing motherhood out the park. But you aren't and you don't need to - just need to be self aware of your limitations and the impact. Just get help if not for you, for your kids. There isn't a magic cure.