I really want to be able to vote labour. They are just making it very difficult.
Tbh it started with Brexit (always been a labour voter and even member). I was pissed off with the lackluster efforts of the labour party during the campaign. I know it was the Tories' clusterfuck but they were hardly a shining example either.
Then at the next general election, when everyone was encouraged to vote labour or lib dem to show they didn't support Brexit. Only for a senior Labour MP to say that every single labour vote was an endorsement of Brexit. Even though there was still considerable infighting within the party about it. The end result was that my vote was perceived as a Brexit vote.
This has very much influenced my voting since. I might not be massively bothered by many party policies but I have to make sure that might vote is not an endorsement of something I'm really against.
Add to that labour's stance on women's rights. Labour MPs stating male rapists should absolutely be in women's prisons if they identify as women.
The general sneering at women trying to make a point and being dismissed as bigots. Like some things in society are just settled and should not be discussed further. This in itself frustrates me as it leaves a wide open goal for the tories to capitalise on.
Couple that with the general air of not really wanting to be in power and you've got major issues. Now, I think people like Kier Starmer do want to be in power, but a significant number of labour don't want it. They say they do but they don't. They don't want to do the work. They prefer to criticise from the side lines and pontificate about the nature of socialism. Which in part explains the disconnect in traditional labour areas and why some went blue last time.
For the last ten years at least they've being going through some sort of schism but a lot don't want to really tackle it or acknowledge it.
Which gets distilled down into many people are not voting for labour. They are voting not tory which doesn't translate into labour being in a strong position.
Anyway. Apologies for the long reply.