I think if he loved me the way I believed he did
Yup. You wanted to be the one who changed him the angel who helped him see the error of his ways & you needed validation that he loved you enough to change.
Not your fault - the first time around - because young women are sold this bullshit by the romance industry from when they are tiny girls.
But don't make this mistake again.
Men who are going to love you the way you believe (i.e. hope) they do are NOT going to be sleazing over model pics & Like-Whoring online OP.
It was naive to imagine that he did, or will.
But you've now learned from the experience, & won't need to delude yourself over an incompatible man in future.
PP have told you time & again - this man was never going to be who you wanted him to be.
When that happens - your job is not to change that man.
You job is to leave him, & to find a man who shares your values.
Stop pining over a man who you are not compatible with.
Trying to change a man isn't love - it's desperation, & ends up with you feeling unhappy & him feeling controlled.
And you don't want to be controlling, so you?
Buck up OP.
Take a break from dating while you look after yourself, & start looking into resources that will boost your self-esteem. Counselling, an assertiveness skills workshop, reading, following relationship gurus ... when you have re-established your self-worth, you won't waste your time or your good self on men who are not compatible & therefore NOT WORTH YOUR TIME.
