Gosh, I just feel so lucky reading this thread. I feel for all of you who've really suffered. I am really grateful for everything I've been lucky enough to have - and it's pretty humbling to realise that the things I sometimes take for granted and things others feel they've had to make peace with not having.
I also still hold out hope that one day I will still possibly find a life partner who loves me fully and who I love fully.
I've had to make my peace with not having a neurotypical brain, my ADHD has really affected my whole life and I was only diagnosed in the past three years.
I think I'm ok with not being able to have another (third) child but I'm also not sure the finality of it all has really hit me yet. I would really have liked that, but it just isn't going to be possible.