Why does everyone around me seem so happy and OK

[RainbowChameleon]

Are you all happy with this? This working for years on end, only having evenings and weekends to yourself, 4 weeks off a year. The daily grind is honestly crushing my soul. I live for Fridays. I know we have to work to earn money to live but by christ it's dull. Do you all feel fulfilled and feel your lives have meaning? I feel like I'm just counting down the hours, days, weeks, years. I think I'm a nihilist. I don't know how to turn these thoughts off.

I was like that when I worked full time, it's why I ended up a SAHM looooong term just working part time here and there. Fortunately we could afford for me to do it though.

I'm really sorry you are feeling so low, OP. It sounds like you're in a real rut and fed up of the daily grind of life. It can be a grind sometimes even for people who love their jobs, everyone has days when they don't want to work, but it sounds like for you it is worse than most. Saying you can't imagine enjoying any job sounds like you have given up on ever enjoying life. Do you have a fulfilling life outside of work?

I'm also wondering if you have ever thought about finding a therapist/ counsellor to talk through how you are feeling? It's very sad when someone says they resent being brought into the world. It seems like there is a lot there that you could explore and untangle with a professional. Working through it might help you to feel better.

Hi op i get you its bloody dull.
I suffer from mental illness and can't do anything abt it as I can't deal with change I think the key is to try and always have something to look forward to such as holidays trips out etc

I've been asking myself this every day since Brexit. I genuinely don't get how people walk around looking happy and relaxed when the ntire country is such a shit-show.

@RainbowChameleon

There's been some helpful advice thank you.

To those of you who get it, thank you. It's more than just working, it's the whole thing stretching out in front of you.

Some days I feel very resentful of the fact I was brought into the world which I recognise is a waste of energy and not helpful, but it is how I feel.

Rainbow I sympathise I really do. I've started threads very similar to yours in the past.

I read a lot of books, had a lot of therapy and that helped but the only thing that truly helped as mentioned previously is the medication. Those thoughts washed away on meds and it's likely you could be depressed.

I'm gutted I can't take medication currently and hope to resume to my normal self eventually.

I hate taking meds and resisted for 15 years but they gave me a much more positive outlook

I felt that way when I worked long hours in a stressful, low-paid job that I didn't really enjoy.

Then I realised that life is too short to spend the vast majority of your waking hours doing something that makes you miserable. I quit and now I run my own business doing what I love. I work 20-25 hours and bring in the same as what I did when I worked a 40 hour week (plus 2 hours commute each day).