To have lost all motivation for anything

[Pleidiolwyfimgwlad]

Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

I bumped into someone I've not seen properly for ages on a dog walk.
It was bloody brilliant.
Unexpected, spontaneous, a 20 minute outdoor but distanced chat.
Did me the power of good.
Everything else is pants.

Same. Me and dp on furlough. Going to bed at 7am and sleeping all day. Then he goes to see dc and i clean the house and am then too tired and unmotivated to read or do anything. Take up a new hobby? No motivation to.

@HitchFlix

At least you get the kids out for a walk every day. I can't even be bothered with that...

Yes this. I’ve only been out once this year, and it was to get a covid test. It’s very depressing and I can’t see it getting any better soon tbh.

It's hideous. I'd give my right arse cheek to be able to go back to work. This day to day monotony is never ending.

Same. And DP gets to go out and manage thr vaccination centre at the hospital, and see and talk to people and I am jealous. He has a fucking life. But is so tired when he gets home that he doesn't want an adult conversation. Or a shag. And the DC just ask for food ALL day. And my new job has gone to shit. And 1610 people died and its all shit.

God that candle, I had a brief thought earlier that it was Wednesday and the sense of crashing disappointment when it was Tuesday. Saying that I have managed to do a few things today, prepped a few meals (grrr) got the slow cooker on, but now back to meh. All feels utterly pointless and am losing battle with the kids screen time majorly.

I want to go out and have someone else do all the cooking and clearing up. I feel like I've made 250 meals already!!

Tbf, I was fed up with lockdown 1.0 so lockdown 3.0 is just about fixing to finish me off.

It’s hard atm

I cannot wait for all this to start lifting

I miss going to the office and getting a Starbucks on my way to work, wearing nice Hobbs dresses and heels and the feeling of being in the City.

I’m excited for my antenatal appointment next week. I’ll wear my nicest maternity dress and get a takeaway Costa. And do my hair and makeup.

It was 3pm today and I thought, "Only 6 hours till I can go to bed".

@Pleidiolwyfimgwlad

I think this is the first AIBU I have seen where everyone on the thread agrees 🤣

It’s kind of reassuring though- I feel on the edge constantly!

I'm reassured (misery loves company! ) that nobody's rolled up to say how much they are loving this and everyday do a 10 mile run, decorate a room, learn a new language and is preparing a cordon bleu dinner.

At least we're all miserable bastards together.

Me too @WalrusWife so much

@lidoshuffle

It was 3pm today and I thought, "Only 6 hours till I can go to bed".

I was thinking only 4 hours at that point

Same. I'm a uni student with a 5 year old and I just cant be bothered. So close to dropping out.

Me too can I join? I AM learning a language, baking, cooking all sorts of things as well as working lots of hours in a good job I did from home even before lockdown. The children have full zoom timetables and I can't complain about anything. So I feel guilty for being lazy and unproductive when I have a lovely life really.

But I am a bit tired now. I haven't been into a building that isn't my house since early march. My job has changed radically in new and scary ways. It's a great opportunity but I just don't feel up to it and I'm scared and like everyone else I'm running low on reserves and motivation.

Doing the first round of haircuts was fun if unnerving. The fifth less so. I have chipped bits off my teeth grinding them with stress and anxiety and because I'm shielding I don't want to go to a dentist to get them fixed.

I'm angry that we aren't supposed to travel to exercise any more, as everywhere near me is so busy. So now I walk in a mask which is just a bit shit. And it's dull and DH is fed up and bored and complains even though he gets to do his hobbies. My hobbies are basically now online supermarket shopping, cooking thousands of meals and snacks, clearing up said meals and snacks, and baking bread and treats to keep everyone going. Last weekend I clocked up 7000 steps just doing baking. My kids live like kings and they don't even realise how lucky they are.

This thread is so sad. When is it going to be accepted that humans, as social beings, cannot carry on this way indefinately? The human race, like other social groupings, can only survive by interaction. If we don't interact, we die out. The human race can't survive in isolation from each other.

@Caspah

This thread is so sad. When is it going to be accepted that humans, as social beings, cannot carry on this way indefinately? The human race, like other social groupings, can only survive by interaction. If we don't interact, we die out. The human race can't survive in isolation from each other.

It reminds me a bit of animals that sleep too much in zoos. It’s not our natural habitat to do this. Might sound full on but I do think of it.

Yes, I've found this past week awful for seemingly no particular reason, although I do usually struggle with winter so I'm sure that's part of it. Feels stupid to get upset as my issues are all small 'first world' problems and I appreciate I'm more fortunate than a lot of people.

Ended up having a bit of a cry earlier as I'm sick of DP's work papers being all over the living room and not being able clean properly and relax in a comfy tidy room. Then attempted to cook dinner but it looks like our oven's now given up the ghost - chicken breasts in the oven for 2 hours and still raw in the middle! Of course it's a gas cooker, so we probably won't be able to find someone to fix it as we've been looking for a plumber to replace our bathroom tap since the end of the first lockdown. I decided to sack off dry January tonight, but I can't even muster the energy to get off the sofa to pour myself a glass!

Same here. Cant be bothered to go out even for a walk. Am working from home and manage that, but struggle to muster some interest in spending time with my kids. Pretty sure i'm depressed.
My daughter spent her last birthday in lockdown, now looks like her next bday is going to be locked down too (march). means she's spent a 3rd of her life locked down. My son seems ok at the moment but think he will struggle once the novelty of being at home as warn off. It's nice to know I'm not the only one feeling down

@Caspah

This thread is so sad. When is it going to be accepted that humans, as social beings, cannot carry on this way indefinately? The human race, like other social groupings, can only survive by interaction. If we don't interact, we die out. The human race can't survive in isolation from each other.

Agreed, but what the hell else are we supposed to do under these circumstances?

♥️♥️♥️ to everyone.

Same here. Ever other thing I say is fuck off. CBA to do anything inc parenting which i feel guilty about. Eating and drinking much too much 😪 Spending hours on twitter, here or online shops. Spent an hour on ikea.com this afternoon 🙄. Kids won't be back at school before Easter, mine are both bored. Can't see an alternative though. I hold the Tories massively responsible - but that's for another thread!

I'm recently retired and instead of planning exciting stuff to do which I would have done my routine seems to be get up, watch This Morning and Loose Women which gets me through until 1:30, then empty dishwasher, clear up a bit, watch Netflix/Prime box set, get dinner, then more telly.

This.

I posted a gloomy message earlier and it's how I feel.

But I will just say, without wanting to be a Pollyanna, that we will get through this. There have been plagues before, we are the descendants of people who survived plagues. They learned what to do to and they did it and we will too. I think about that village in Derbyshire, Eyam, where the village quarantined itself in the 17th century when the plague arrived. It did not go well for the villagers, but the plague did not spread around the whole of the north of England. It seems the local vicar and his wife had major leadership skills to persuade everyone to do this, but I also think that there had been disease outbreaks in the UK since the 14th century and people knew what to do. So they did it. Just like we are. We have the added bonus of the vaccine that will let us all out eventually. We will get through this. It's horrible, lonely, isolating, frustrating. But we will get through it.