To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

I am totally peed off today, did get dressed as i had to put the bin out 😁

HRTFT but SAME oh God I'm fed up.

Everything I enjoyed in my life is gone. Of course I still have DH and DS and they keep me going. But oh I miss my family and I miss my friends. I miss spontaneity and adventure and travel and just texting a friend "Hey, fancy a drink this weekend?".. I miss being able to see a doctor face to face, to be able to go on a bus without sitting there with a mask on, looking around fearfully hoping my fellow travellers are doing the same. I miss going to London with my DS and just spending the day walking around, just noticing interesting things and enjoying eachothers company.

I've gained nearly a stone since March. Some days I don't even get dressed. My health has gone downhill I never feel 100% well. I know that I've had it easy compared to a lot of people. I've kept my job and I can do it from home. I live 25 mins walk from a beach so walk there a lot. But wow yes this is miserable and motivation is non existent

Definitely. This time feels so much worse than before. I actually felt ok for most of the first lockdown - really unwell just before it started (I think covid but no test) which triggered an ME flare, and having the time and space to really work on my health slowly, getting lots of sunshine etc was really helpful - I ended up fitter than before.

This time round, shit weather, the kids’ MH in tatters as they’re so done with it too, DH’s health is much worse, missing everyone. Bah.

Wanted to just chip in and say I felt like this for weeks until I found this app yesterday called 21 days. Even if its stuff you already do it gets you motivated to do them and just being told to do it really helps you feel like you're having a fresh start. Don't know if that makes sense but you will see it when you start.

Depression is a completely normal human response to our current circumstances.

Just had a double whammy of seeing people in New Zealand at a concert and then reports we will be in this lockdown till Easter and now I am laying in bed crying.

Same I feel so knackered and zero motivation

Yep - know the feeling. I quite like the fabulous app. It got me out of a rut and I've kept up a lot of activities.

Wish we could edit. That is until the 2nd of April. So a 3rd of the year. And then soon it will be the Threat of winter restrictions

It feels like an effort to even describe how over it all I am...these two sentences is all I’ve got!

I had the best night sleep last night in ages...simply because I read through this thread :) Nobody is saying this out loud to friends, colleagues and loved ones etc. Personally I think knowing everyone else is facing the same (and far worse right now lets face it) on top of regular life is all getting too much. I feel INCREDIBLY inadequate (though from what I'm reading on this thread this is completely understandable, and allowed etc.)

I'm doing the WFH and homeschooling balance as well etc. If I wasn't in a job where I didn't work as a consultant in web meetings (on flexible furlough), I too would submit to 24/7 PJs and leisurewear. There's nowhere to go outside other than a small park raound the corner. We don't have a garden, and don't drive since we live in a city and before there was no point in running a car. In the north, it's been very difficult since the first lockdown.

Whilst I crave the normal, I can't help but feel it's a luxury to even be in this position, having time to worry etc.. Our key workers are so run off their feet and busy with juggling all that is on their plate - just with work even - what do I have to worry about? I feel so guilty about that, I don't know any key workers, and all I seem to do in my spare time is eat, and order crap online.

On top of everything, like many I haven't seen my Mum in over a year now...it will end someday and we have to believe that - but when???

Sorry - just realised how depressed I just sounded there (was venting). It's just reassuring to know that we're all going through this. Whatever works goes I suppose! :)

Me too

I feel like this too. Busy at work but no motivation. Structural changes were imposed on us and I'm not keen but obviously just have to get on with it. DH lost his job and hasn't found anything permanent yet, so that is stressful.
DD doesn't enjoy homeschool and misses her friends. We don't get much exercise as DD often refuses to go out, or its too dark, or cold, or wet or all three!
House is a mess. When I'm not working I'm looking after DD who wants me constantly. I can't concentrate on anything and I'm not sleeping well. I want some time ALONE.

Nerdybird, I so understand. Getting them out of the house for even 30 minutes is a right old task. I need them out so I can get in there and clear out the mess. I REALLY miss my Mum bless her but am the same time am relieved we aren't expecting a visit any time soon...we live in disorganised chaos...I'm ordinarily a neat-freak with a work suitcase pre-packed and ready to go...now I don't know where my smart trousers are entirely, let alone if they still fit. Thank goodness I'm not allowed to travel right now....

As for school uniform ...it's no longer washed an ironed and in the wardrobe for the week ahead - its washed and waiting to be ironed in a sack - in the event they haven't grown out of it during lockdown...

Depression is a completely normal human response to our current circumstances

Totally agree.

I’ve been surprised how low I’ve got. I’m
Pretty resilient. I’ve begun to think really pessimistically and as though perhaps I don’t want to carry on if this is it now.

I don't feel depressed, I feel more stony-faced and resigned
I think we'll get through it but I think it will be bumpy and it'll take a while

This song summates it all perfectly

m.youtube.com/watch?v=cE4lpSFNFUE&feature=youtu.be#menu

Oh that song is brilliant

Countess have you got anyone irl you can talk to about how you're feeling?

I'm the same, due to the levels of corruption and incompetence in our govt I'm struggling not to think that they'll fuck up the vaccine, and let these new variants in... have to try and distract myself...

I was already depressed before with the relentless pace of juggling ft work and kids... no let up with no family help.

Throw in homeschool, house arrest, heavier workload with no interaction and no holiday to look forward to...

This might sound silly, but since I've been shielding Dh since March, and, therefore, haven't really been anywhere, I'm slightly worried that I'll have forgotten how to go out, and I don't know a lot of the rules because I've largely just stayed at home.

Someone on an old episode of Bullseye () just one a holiday to Egypt and I thought "how exotic! But then a trip to the next town would seem exotic right now".

I daresay I'll remember how to go out soon enough though.

Won a holiday. See I cannot even remember words.