To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

I can relate I don't feel depressed but I do feel quite flat, I think the last lockdown was easier mentally because it was summer, I used to go for long walks in the evening and that helped

Yes I think the crap weather and general January misery is making it much worse this time. I seldom get any time during the day to go outside, then when I do I don't want to because it's cold and raining and I am sick of walking around the same streets.

Yesterday was "blue Monday" apparently the most depressing day of the year!

Cabot be bothered with most of MN posts, now. Which is a buggeration as it used to be a pleasure, sometimes.

I want a nice holiday. Not a week in a tent in the lake district but somewhere abroad and interesting and warm and where I dont have to lift a finger for at least a week.

I really really want a proper holiday

Also feel guilty as though I've been working throughout I'm not front line and they probably deserve a holiday before me but oh what I'd give to be sitting in a crowded airport terminal right now

I started my absolute dream job last April, in lockdown. After over a year of interviews, trials and fierce competition. Colleagues would cut off their right arm to be where I am. It has taken me the best part of 20 years to get here. But I feel so flat about it now, I’ve got zero motivation and energy and joy and feel like a total failure already. It sucks.

To bloody true OP, we have DONE this already and jigsaws and baths and zooms and crafts can get to fuck. Not only is it miserable we get threads on here and general arseholes on social media still screaming that we aren’t doing it right 😭😂

Me. I have an assignment to write. My house is a tip. Work to do. All I've managed today us eating biscuits, watching the crown and having a little cry. There are no more biscuits so I'm going to eat Crisps now. First lockdown I learnt sone piano pieces, read loads of books, took up running, did yoga. Now it's just Crisps really.

Just seen this

You’re not alone, as you can see!
Very meh a lot of the time. It’s very fucking mundane.
One child in school. One child at home. If ds at home misses a lesson I receive a generic email from school.. Tell him off. Back to normal.
Don’t get me wrong, I am totally in awe of our teachers. I’m happy to give my son a metaphoric kick up the arse!

I am finding this time different. Last two lockdowns I had two massive life events to look forward to but this also caused me a lot of anxiety, anger and sleepless nights worrying they would be cancelled. But their was a ray of lights. Now both these events have been cancelled and I've moved past the sadness I literally feel nothing. Every day is the same. If I didn't have DD I don't think I would last much longer.

@MorrisZapp

I miss my friends so much but I cba to phone them. My closest friend texted me to say 'chat later?' and I thought oh god, do I have to?

I can't even be bothered speaking.

Not having anything to talk about except moan about how miserable everything is doesn't help this.

One of my closest friends is a massive denier and that makes it even harder to talk.

I feel the same.Tbe first lockdown I thought "right we can do this" Did fabulous meals exercised, Zoom calls, but this time is different.Motivation gone
You are not on your own feeling this.I miss my friends, I miss my sister..hugging my family too.It's crap

Sorry it's crap i should have said

You aren't alone. This is a bad time of year in the best of years. I am fighting an urge to go to bed with my book and wake up in March, but must keep trying to work. So hard.

@RosieLemonade I am the same - there's no point in looking forward to anything as it won't happen.

It was Christmas that was the nail on the coffin. We'd planned to visit SIL and family- staying in a hotel to reduce contact. Logically I knew it wouldn't happen, but as the days got closer I allowed myself to hope. Then super spready variant arrives and BOOM no Christmas .

My overriding emotion was anger at myself for being stupid enough to believe we'd actually get to go.

Much safer to have no plans and expectations.

Well, just had the highlight of the day. A nice bubble bath with candles. At least I planned a couple of lessons today. When can I go back to bed?

I have found my people!

Last lockdown I felt that there was much more community spirit- everyone in it together but now, .
Work wise, clients are not as forgiving as they were last April/May and expect way too much. I am trying but I have two young DC at home too.

DH is WFH full time and doesn't seem to be suffering in the same way - he enjoys his job even more WFH, I do not.
I agree re cooking and cleaning. In theory I should be able to bang out decent meals every night but I just cba. We have eaten more fish fingers so far in 2021 than the last year in total.

I have also taken to wearing leggings permanently. I do get out for a walk every evening and I try to mix up the route but some are not really safe at night and I have done all the others to death. I have set myself the goal of walking the distance from Lands End to John O'Groats in 2021 and listening to an audio book per week (I used to love reading but cannot find the concentration now) but even then I am not that enthusiastic. I go out walking to avoid the mess at home.

Getting out of bed in the morning is a challenge- I am grateful DH gets up with the DC. I just need to prolong the start of yet another day, even for 15 mins.

Although this lockdown has only been two weeks (I know!) we were in tier 4 from 19th Dec and we were isolating from 11th Dec in order to spend Christmas with a vulnerable relative (that was cancelled) so we have been in lockdown for over 5 weeks already. At least in the first lockdown we went from pretty much normal life to this, the past 3 months have been on and off lockdown.

The only thing keeping me going is that we are due to move house next month, I am excited about that but at the same time everything is so difficult- getting removals, trying to source a new carpet when the shops are shut etc. Vendor not allowing us round to measure up so we don't even know if some of our furniture will fit (I can understand their reluctance).

I want to see my mum. I want my mum to take my DC off my hands for a day
I want to get roaring drunk with my friends, over zoom does not cut it.

I am jealous of child free couples that just get to hang out together but then my DC are the only reason to keep plodding on - they are young enough that the routine is strong, even DH's colleagues know 3pm is snack time.

The only thing that helps me is keeping my head down, not thinking too far ahead and getting through one day at a time. I cannot think about when schools will reopen or restrictions will lift, they are not in my control.

I’m WFH with very little to do. I’m still in my PJs and haven’t showered yet which I need to do before DH gets home! Can’t be arsed.

It's so so relentless at the moment. There's no joy, nothing to look forward to, nothing to plan for. There's just more worry and anxiety and waiting for the next axe to fall.

This. I’m busy, stressed and bored all in one. I’m juggling (fulfilling, important) work with a three year old and every day is like wading through treacle. It’s hit me all of a sudden.

@RosieLemonade and @rookiemere same.
I was supposed to get married last year, but obv it was cancelled. Then we pushed the date back to May this year, then decided it still wouldn’t be feasible, and now have set a date for August. I haven’t even sent out any invitations yet, as seems like no point.

I have found my people! CBA with anything. Everyone and everything is wearing on my last nerve. Yesterday was productive. I did two loads of laundry, ran the dishwasher, cleared and vaccumed the living room and cleaned the bathroom. My 7 yr old commented with surprise that it smelt nice (proving it's not been done in a while ).

Today I've done bugger all...

I'm glad I've found this thread. I just feel fed up and exhausted now. I'm sick to death of cooking my own bloody food. I'm just bored with myself. Highlight of my day is my bath and I can't even be bothered to do that today!
I can't even imagine now what normal life feels like.

I think this is the first AIBU I have seen where everyone on the thread agrees 🤣

It’s kind of reassuring though- I feel on the edge constantly!

Thank goodness it's not just me. Relentlessly tired, boring, flat, dull, sad, cold, messy, muddy, repetitive. That's how life feels right now.