To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

Feel strongly as though I am in a dream of some sort it’s all so hard to grasp. Everything hasn’t sunk in. Trying hard to wake up and get back to ‘reality’. Haven’t yet (!) accepted our reality. Everything feels on hold. Like one of those calls where the hold music is wildly annoying/truly awful !!

I feel like I've aged hugely, I look like I've aged hugely. Trying to work, look after a toddler and care for my long-term ill mother. Someone up thread said work feels like walking through treacle and that's very accurate. All the little things keep getting on top of me. I ache because I'm rushing between work and caring duties and am getting no exercise in at all.

Big thing for me today - as I'm not running today, I blow dried my hair, put on some smart clothes - top half anyway , and for the first time in forever, some makeup. I do feel more me - well actually I think the St Johns Wort is taking effect as I hardly feel anything at all - so hope this will make me more productive for another exciting day of WFH.

Oh and I'm quite amazed at anyone who has the energy to get worked up about this being a government conspiracy and post all that stuff. It would be a pretty useless thing to do deliberately to trash the economy and stop people spending money.

Let's go back to discussing slothfulness.

I'm doing too much scrolling over the internet. Don't even know what to look at any more either - boring. I'm struggling to read which is awful; I'm the sort of person who has 2 or 3 books on the go at any one time. I've stopped exercising. Storm Christoph has stopped me even going for a walk. I've invested in some craft hobbies but it's much nicer to cross stitch in natural light and there isn't any!
I feel guilty all the time for feeling bored and unmotivated because I have nothing to complain about - my job is safe, I have no kids to worry about and I live in a nice quiet place. So I can't whinge.

@rookiemere

Big thing for me today - as I'm not running today, I blow dried my hair, put on some smart clothes - top half anyway , and for the first time in forever, some makeup. I do feel more me - well actually I think the St Johns Wort is taking effect as I hardly feel anything at all - so hope this will make me more productive for another exciting day of WFH.

Oh and I'm quite amazed at anyone who has the energy to get worked up about this being a government conspiracy and post all that stuff. It would be a pretty useless thing to do deliberately to trash the economy and stop people spending money.

Let's go back to discussing slothfulness.

I’d like that, I was using this thread to not feel alone in my lowness and I don’t need more conspiracy crap, it’s already stolen my closest friend in the respect that I can’t talk to her without her spouting loads of crap.

Me too, surely that's for a different thread.

@TomatoesAreFruit

I feel that I am just going through thr motions of life. Sleep, eat, work, look after DS, watch TV, talk to DH. Same conversations.

Ring family - end up talking about the virus.

I treated to myself to a Pret lunch yesterday via uber eats. It was ridiculously expensive but felt like self-care.

I dont believe that all the government wants is to comtrol as said uptrend. Boris wants the good times and the Conservatives hate increasing welfare/ benefits that they keep on having to do.

But this life is truly relentless.

What dis you get from Pret? 😁

Yes, agree, we just want to moan about our lethargy, not listen to more conspiracy rubbish.

@rookiemere- I did similar this morning. Went for a walk almost to the office and back at 7am before WFH. I'm hoping this might make me feel it's more like 'proper' work. I don't hold out much hope though.

@BobbinThreadbare123

I'm doing too much scrolling over the internet. Don't even know what to look at any more either - boring. I'm struggling to read which is awful; I'm the sort of person who has 2 or 3 books on the go at any one time. I've stopped exercising. Storm Christoph has stopped me even going for a walk. I've invested in some craft hobbies but it's much nicer to cross stitch in natural light and there isn't any! I feel guilty all the time for feeling bored and unmotivated because I have nothing to complain about - my job is safe, I have no kids to worry about and I live in a nice quiet place. So I can't whinge.

You certainly can whinge! Every is entitled to feel their feelings.

Same as above but also put weight on which is depressing me even more.

@HeronLanyon

Feel strongly as though I am in a dream of some sort it’s all so hard to grasp. Everything hasn’t sunk in. Trying hard to wake up and get back to ‘reality’. Haven’t yet (!) accepted our reality. Everything feels on hold. Like one of those calls where the hold music is wildly annoying/truly awful !!

This is so true!! Like we're on hold and I just want my old life to pick up now 😭

Same here! The relentlessness of the days being exactly the same, ordering groceries, cooking, cleaning, washing - ugh. I don't work but used to be out every day, doing something, and then I'd come home and take the dog for a walk or research stuff on the Internet, or cook something delicious - now cannot be bothered. Haven't been out for days, I am tempted to just go out for a drive today as it's sunny but then remembered I would be just as bad as all those other people who go out with no purpose!

However, just heard of a friend's husband who has to have a completely life-changing operation with months to recover and think that he would be glad to have the chance of being bored which puts it all into perspective for me.

Big news. I went for a half hour walk. Looked around. Saw people and dogs and birds and trees and buildings. Felt like I was a toddler noticing small things. Excited by quite a bit ! Feel batteries flickering back into life. Resolution - to get out more often.
For anyone not able to get out more the reality is it was all pretty humdrum so I’m also trying to change things about interior routines ive fallen into. Support all !!!

The sunshine today is helping so much. Ph please oh please can spring hurry up already

Just want a few hours on my own in the house without a DC or DH interrupting me every 5 mins for food/homeschool/arguments. I have lost 2 close relatives in the last few months to non Covid illnesses and I am struggling with everything. If it wasn't for the DC, I wouldn't be getting up in the morning either!

Same. I only get up in the morning because of the kids. While I envy those who don't have to homeschool, I am glad I have the DC to keep me going right now. It's so, so relentless. I always find things a bit shit this time of year anyway, and now the things I usually do to cheer myself up are gone.

The only thing keeping me going is looking out for signs of spring. It was quite sunny this morning and there were a few birds around, so perhaps it's not so far away.

Even the chirpy morning show radio presenters sounded over it this morning.

I did manage a walk today as the sun was out and I was delighted to see bunches of snowdrops in our local park as I slithered around! They're so delicate and amazing.

Finding small joys like this seems to be the way to go...

Sending to all who are struggling.

I'm really feeling it lately.
I'm sick of cooking, loading and unloading the dishwasher, walking around the woods etc, we have 2 v little DCs, I'm sick of muddy all in ones and boots, the washing machine, the dark evenings.
The dark mornings!
We get up so early with the kids too so I feel like the brunt of the looong day is getting to me now.
We both work full time but my job is more flexible - I've been granted two days furlough per week, I'm obviously lucky but it means I have the long childcare days accompanied by the seeping work guilt, knowing it'll be worse the next day when I log in.
The kids aren't happy staying in so much and tend to go mad on the daily walk so I feel uncertain about taking them on my own.
Especially the baby who won't be carried and won't hold hands.
I find I lack energy to keep up with friends and send bouncy messages too, I'm also doing a qualification part time and my best self has to go to that really.
The absolute minutia of keeping both kids happy gets to me, and I feel like my interruptions get interrupted.
Sorry - it's helped to write that down!

I still feel so, so low, but yesterday, when I put monkey nuts out for the squirrels (in the holes they've dug up in our garden ) I saw the snowdrops poking up through the ground. Also noticed today how much later it was before I put on the lights. More and more birds calling to each other - I love to hear them call out and reply. Hoping our fox family (who live under the decking) will show themselves soon, because it was wonderful to see the cubs playing last year. We also have our regular pigeon family - I love to hear them cooing to each other.

noticed today how much later it was before I put on the lights
we are on the road to summer:)
it is very tough right now, very hard to get motivated but we are at the lowest point of the year, it's totally understandable
I'm trying to focus on any small things that lift me up a bit

I’ve also noticed the days are getting a little longer too. Something to look forward too.

Was on a real downer this morning but then I went out for a slow run and about 20 minutes in a felt positive again. Could literally feel the endorphins kicking in. Really really needed that today as I was not in a good place.

I'm feeling incredibly down today. Really just shit

@StealthPolarBear

I'm feeling incredibly down today. Really just shit

Me too. Hit a real low.

I'm sorry.