I'm thinking I'm pregnant?! Going insane

[catofdoom]

Some one talk me down. I'm shaking. I can't stop crying.

We tried for years to have ds who's now nearly 6. Having been trying since to have a much wanted other. Had a few miscarriages early in so I really shouldn't be getting excited.

We were told by doctors we wouldn't have another.

One of my best friends died last week and in my grief fog I had sex with dh as I knew I was ovulating (after ten years of trying to conceive you're pretty damn sure when it's happening). I knew I'd get pregnant. I've never been so sure.

Look. This is a line right??

I can't breath. I feel like I can't move ever again.

We do have a ferry but the lines to get on this time of year can be up to three hours each way. It's so hot, I can't sit around trying not to puke with a whiny ds for hours. If we need to go off we buy a reservation a few days before.

All usually fine until something unexpected crops up!

GettickledGETTICKLEDbyspiders No need for the face, I didn’t know the OP wasn’t on the mainland, not driving isn’t a reason for not being able to buy things either!

There’s this little company called Amazon that she could have used if she was on the mainland

@catofdoom you could ring the chemist and tell them what he'll be picking up, to hold one over and ask them to write your name on the paper bag. He doesn't need to know it's a FRER!

I think it's really cruel to be egging the OP to buy more tests. Those are accurate enough to have been the ones GPs used to use before they stopped testing and referring straight to the midwife.
There is still loads of time to fall pregnant OP, just concentrate on getting well and send your DH on a trip to get you some treats instead.

I've used ovulation tests before in order for them to be positive as I'm sure you know both lines have to be as dark as each other or the test line darker than the control line.
When I used LH tests as pregnancy tests the same rules applied and the test line was super super super darker than the control line.
The test line is faint on those pictures so I wouldn't get your hopes up OP you need to do a pregnancy test

But you don't know yet. Keep hoping.

You can absolutely get lines on ovulation tests last in your cycle and not be pregnant (they will usually be lighter than the control line). Your most recent test does look a lot stronger and I would think it would be unusual to get such a strong line without ovulating unless there were other explanations.

I would get a FRER when you can. But do not lose hope. I had a mc in April of 2017. I was heartbroken. We went on holiday the next month and I was ovulating. I remember very clearly standing on the beach and looking out to see and thinking about the baby we had lost and I just suddenly knew that the baby who was meant to be mine was coming. I felt nauseous and awful from 5 dpo. I held out and took a FRER at 10 dpo. Absolutely nothing. It couldn't have been more negative. Completely white. I was heartbroken. But I still felt awful. I felt worse and worse every day and I couldn't explain why I felt so pregnant if I wasn't pregnant. I finally had to come home from work the next week because I felt so ill. I was 16 dpo and I took another test and it was very positive. He's 17 months now. Sometimes you just know. Hang in there and try to stay positive about things until you are able to take more tests in a few days.

Do you take your bbt - are you sure that you ovulated earlier in the month as sometimes your body could be gearing up to ovulate, but then doesn’t so you get a second LH surge later on in the same cycle. Keeping my fingers crossed for you though x

Fingers crossed for you OP

The green ones are ovulation tests as you can see they are very positive. The control line is the line closest to the handle of the test. The test line closest to where u dip the pee. In order for the OPK to be positive for ovulation the test line needs to be as dark or darker than the control line. I did this OPK and got the blazing positive test line darker than control line then I did a clearblue OPK that was smiley face positive and given when I knew I would have ovulated I had a feeling this could possibly then indicate pregnancy and on the blue test which is a pregnancy test there was a teeny tint faint line.
But looking at your picture I wouldn't say those are positive OPKs at all I would pretty much get one like that at any time with the test line there but lighter than the control line

Don't keep buying tests. You've had a negative so I'd accept that. It's not going to be good for you mentally to get your hopes up when you've tested already and been given your answer. Sorry it didn't go the way you expected

Those egging you on to try another test are just here for the drama. Fine if you fancy engaging in that but I wouldn't personally

I’m sorry it is not what you want. It’s easy to excited when you see what you want to see. Maybe it’s worth doing a test in a weeks time, just to be 100% sure either way.

I have to ask as I am so curious- what island are you on that doesn’t have a pharmacy?

Isobelrae23 a bloody idyllic one by the sound of it

for you op.

I knew from conception and was sick before I had a positive result.

Some of the comments are this thread of awful. There's really no need for it.

Good luck, OP. I hope you get your positive soon.

It's a little island off the coast of America. I do think I'll do one more just to make sure. I know it's silly but maybe the other one wasn't a good enough test as it's the day before.

God, I must have spent 1000s on tests over the years.

This is the last time. DH has just said he's worried if I am in case something goes wrong. Thanks a fucking bunch (like I wasn't aware of it already).

Infertility is so so epically shit. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

I once actually talked myself in to seeing a faint line on a test. Got dh to come home from work and I'm sat with a torch and a magnifying glass. It really can drive you loopy.

I would def do another one as you are not as yet even late for your period. Wait a few days though.
I really feel for you. I cannot understand you pain as I was one of the lucky ones who had no trouble conceiving. ( terrible trouble delivering though 😳) but I underatand the desire and I have witnessed first hand my brother and wife going through such a hard time. You are blessed to have one child though and so try and focus on your family.
Best wishes. Hugs 💐

America?! I imaged a Scottish isle for some reason.

Hope you get the result you want op!

Hey, I can empathise. My DH is completely infertile - not a single motile sperm.

I've spent the last 2 weeks convinced I'm pregnant, after a series of early pregnancy signs. Only it turns out I've not taken my happy pills for 2 weeks due to a cock up on my part, and instead the "symptoms" are withdrawal from the tablets. My period arrived bang on time this morning.

😔

Don't do any more pregnancy tests, you've had your answer, you're not pregnant. So sorry.

@TwattingDog I'm really, really sorry. It crazy the tricks our minds can pull on us when we do want to be pregnant.

I'd made my peace with it a bit more recently. I'd even started giving ds's baby clothes away. (Ok packing them in a box and having a little cry but it's movement at least.)

I think it's the recent loss that's suddenly made me get all weird about life again.

Ah that's all rubbish

Very hard to not have hope!

I would just ask the bloke to get one tbh...

Not wanting to get your hopes up OP but I get the obsession. After I had a miscarriage I wanted to try again straight away. Well soon I KNEW I was pregnant. I just knew it. But kept getting negative tests. I drove myself mad taking test after test. But after AF was a week late I finally got my BFP. He's nearly 7 now.

Try to contain your excitement, don't get your hopes up too much. But good luck.