My other half parents always look at us like were not working hard enough.She would say with her wage she bought herself a home easy.
The reality is her son my man ,i saw over years work tirelessly looking for work.At first it was applying for everything in sight,nothing.
For me it was worst they looked down on me like anyone does in society i have cerebral palsy and the life i have gone through has not helped.My cerebral palsy not bad legs a little stiff and my hands shake a little.But otherwise i have a mind i struggle but i can pull through unfortunately though it was a label that teachers took one look at and gave up.I recall in secondary wanting to do what any other person was doing but being constantly told you wont be able to try heres a simple task.I learnt that i was to stupid to achieve anything and thus stopped trying.My grades clearly showed this and i knew as much i wanted to i would never go to uni and had to take what i could get.
Home life didn't help my own mother couldn't cope on her own so she could not help me.Unfortunately for my mother like anyone one in this country if you have a mental health problem your on your own.Thus i was on my own and the cycle continues.My mother was not coping after my father had left her he had a mental breakdown.As you can see when it comes to mental health it has a knock on effect.First my father then my mother,then me and also my sister she killed her self many years later.
I tried to go to college i worked hard got a certificate in childcare and education but spent years unemployed.I was still unemployed with my other half.Yet anyone in my life automatically assumed i was a lazy benefits leech who didn't want to work.
When my other half finally got a full time job security securing a construction site.He worked long hours for a full month and then the company up and vanishes .They were hired by tesco paid and then left without paying the staff.
We had rent to pay food so this was the first debt we acquired ,we could see we could not cope on own own.So borrowed a little from family to move close to them for support.When we got a private rent we applied for housing benefit till we could get on our feet. Our forms were constantly lost and over months we got more in debt.The council would not pay us housing benefit by simply not completely our applications.
More unemployment and more debt and yet when he did find another full time job about a year later his boss stole money from him using his till login on a day were the camera was not working.We had to pay or face a criminal record.
I tried to apply for work no luck either and trying to find work when you suffer from anxiety disorder near impossible anyway.Trying to get help for it near impossible as well.
We now wait for council housing whilst in temporary housing after getting evicted from another place.We moved after my partner got a full time job so we could be closer.Once i found medication that helped i was able to find work yet once again i am looked down for it.dammed if you do dammed if you dont. Every time i say i work in fast food people look at me like i am stupid.Even though its hard enough standing for long hours in pain due to my legs or trying not to feel panicky in the work place.
This society abandons its mentally ill
looks down on its impaired and disabled
education is poor unless you have money
living in a rental accommodation in insecure
and your completely on your own if your poor and have no family .We only pulled through because although his family look down on us at least they try to help.
my other half finally got a full time job at a factory yet with my job its barely enough to live.Once we get council housing we will have enough to live and pay off debts but after working so hard thats all you can really expect when poor.