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Smotheroffive · 2019-02-16T15:20:10+00:00

....are? I have been watching Pure. It's got me thinking. For any not aware, its pure O, as in ocd, but without necessarily enacting compulsions (like repeatedly washing hands, opening/closing doors, routinely associated with OCD) So, people have all sorts of fantasies they wouldn't want to act out IRL. Also, think things that they wouldn't actually do, or want to see, like in Pure, seeing intrusive images of people naked, or erotically engaged. Would IBU to ask yours?

JenniferJareau · 17/02/2019 08:38

When I'm on the tube I think about having a cattle prod to zap rude people or those who just have no clue about basic travel etiquette. Also I wish for the Harry Potter trip spell for the same reason.

stopitandtidyupp · 17/02/2019 09:35

Throw not through.

BirthdayKake · 17/02/2019 09:38

@cece someone actually did that to me and I'm still petrified of having cars next to me 14 months on :(

Intrusive thoughts are very normal though. We used to have to cross this v busy road with lots of lorries on while doing the school run and I'd always imagine the pram rolling in front of a lorry

BirthdayKake · 17/02/2019 09:40

Our guinea pig also gave birth around the same time we had a bit of a mouse problem and I imagined putting one of the babies onto a mouse trap

SisterOfDonFrancisco · 17/02/2019 09:48

Mine are more anxiety thoughts. If I hold anything breakable like a glass bottle, I constantly feel it slipping from my hands no matter how hard I hold it.

UnleashTheBulsara · 17/02/2019 09:57

If I have cause to think of a blade, any blade as long as it's sharp, I instantly imagine it cutting into soft tissue like tongues. Once someone told me that you could cut off a finger with secateurs and I "see" that happening quite often (especially at pruning times!) Glass also triggers it, as broken glass shards are dangerously sharp

I have a lot of thoughts like pp's, swerving into traffic, running into traffic, falling over parapets on bridges, the handbrake on the car just releasing and the car rolling into rivers, busy motorways, stuff like that.

Also imagine dying alone and being found years later. Or my funeral, and like Eleanor Rigby's, nobody came.

SeeMoreStars · 17/02/2019 10:13

I find myself going about my day and intrusive thoughts about what I would do with my colleague in a locked hotel room enter my head. I see him most weekdays and often can't look him in the eye or struggle to say hello. He probably thinks I'm unfriendly or standoffish. I've caught him looking at me sometimes and I want to interpret those looks into he fancies me back but for all I know it's just a fantasy in my head. I am attractive, I know that, but that doesn't mean anything. I enjoy the fantasies I have about him but wish I could act on them. Maybe the reality would be disappointing.

couchparsnip · 17/02/2019 11:38

When I'm at the top of a flight of stairs I almost always imagine what would happen if I fell down and really hurt myself - sometimes I die, sometimes I'm disabled for life and it always hurts a lot. I usually see one of the kids panicked and calling an ambulance. Its really scary sometimes but only for a second until I pull myself together and walk downstairs perfectly safely.

I fell downstairs aged 14 months apparently so it could be related to that

stopitandtidyupp · 17/02/2019 11:43

When I'm at the top of a flight of stairs I almost always imagine what would happen if I fell down and really hurt myself - sometimes I die, sometimes I'm disabled for life and it always hurts a lot. I usually see one of the kids panicked and calling an ambulance. Its really scary sometimes but only for a second until I pull myself together and walk downstairs perfectly safely.

I fell downstairs aged 14 months apparently so it could be related to that

I have to grip tightly the bannister and sing in my head to make sure I don't do it.

bobstersmum · 17/02/2019 11:59

Some of these are tragic and some are hilarious!
I had lots of intrusive thoughts after I had my first ds. I used to imagine finding him dead it was really scary.

NightOwlHoney · 17/02/2019 12:07

If someone bends over, even slightly, in front of me, I have an almost uncontrollable urge to smack them hard on the arse. I have to put my hands in my pockets because I'm scared I might actually do it. Also, when my attractive dentist leans forward to look inside my mouth, I have to fight the urge not to kiss him. Please God I never do it.

findingmyfeet12 · 17/02/2019 12:14

NightOwlHoney

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Smotheroffive · 17/02/2019 15:09

The handbrake one reminded me of a recurrent dream! Keep pulling the handbrake up and up and up and up!

Feel very reassured that mine work without such effort!

It's clear from the pp that there are very different degrees of affect. Like the girl on Pure, some must struggle to keep focussed on anything else at times, and that's got to be so hard to manage with.

Also, there's a lot of commonality, with the types of urges!

I found it quite funny, sorry, having to rush across the bridge for fear of tossing handbags and keys over the edge!

I really really would like to go somewhere though where you could crash cars!!

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Treble9 · 17/02/2019 15:17

When I'm on public transport I analyse/predict what would happen if it crashed. I predict where I and my fellow passengers would end up, injury patterns, best means of escape, etc.

When I'm just out and about in public I remember all the incidents I've been to.....not always the whole thing but simply the thought "I went to a job there" pops into my head. Sometimes I remember more, especially if it was a death and I try not to step where I remember the person laying.

I also get the car crashing/jumping off things urges.

IamTheMeg · 17/02/2019 17:05

Shagging my doctor.

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Smotheroffive · 17/02/2019 20:49

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anitagreen · 18/02/2019 09:36

I just realised I have another one atm mine seem to go on for days though because I still get panicked by them,
I read some thing on someone's Facebook about them believing in conspiracy theories about something and now because it freaked me out as it seemed so stupid, it's now had my brain going ten to the dozen of what if they are right? What if what if etc. But I don't even believe in the theory at all brains are bizzare.

reallyreallyreal · 18/02/2019 10:22

I was once on a school trip to a court.

I saw a coin on the floor. The whole way through my brain kept saying

' throw the coin at the judges head'

I had to sit on my hands so I couldn't.

SpeedbirdFoxtrot · 18/02/2019 10:49

When I worked as cabin crew I would have odd thoughts all the time. Mostly it would involve stuff like blowing a slide on the upper deck of a 747 and whizzing down it and running for freedom across the runway (I loved my job, though, so lord knows why. Maybe I just liked the idea of causing havoc).

I'd sometimes zone out mid-service and imagine doing a PA announcing that I was very sorry but all onward flights from insert destination were cancelled.

And I really had to resist the urge to do this, but sometimes I would be itching to hide in the first class loos so I could jump out at people walking by and scare them.

All of this would usually enter my head during night flights.

anitagreen · 18/02/2019 15:08

@SpeedbirdFoxtrot the last one is hilarious sorry x

anitagreen · 19/02/2019 09:11

Another thing my brain does is if I watch something that scares me my brain will latch on to it, like I watched a prison documentary the other night and god bless him there was a man on it who was so paranoid he thought the doctors was in on this plot to hurt him, of course they wasn't at all.
But now my brain is like what if doctors do that? What if my doctors like that? (She's really lovely and been nothing but helpful)
And I'm laughing at myself thinking shut up I don't believe this for one second but it's like my brain will replay it like I'm this man with those thoughts. I honestly don't believe in stuff like that for a second but none the less they frighten me to think oh god what if I did believe in that? Intrusive thoughts are wild.

littlepeas · 19/02/2019 09:19

Cutting my wrists - I've read that this is quite a common one. I am not suicidal and it pops into my mind at very random times. The other one is being in a frightening situation (various - plane crash, car crash, terror attack) with my dc and not being able to protect them.

SummerHouse · 19/02/2019 18:27

I love watching gangs of pre school children fighting over who gets to press the button

I think about just barging them all out the way so I can press it then watch the scene unfold into shock, outrage and tears.

Just me?

pancakeBlanket · 19/02/2019 19:13

@Janethevirgo I used to feel exactly like this and felt it on and off for years, including wishing my parents would die so that there would be no reason for me to keep going. It was only when I read your thoughts that I realised I haven't had this fantasy for a while and it feels alien to me right now - like another person was having these feelings. No idea when it left or why it left. Wishing the same for you.

Raffles1981 · 19/02/2019 20:20

Since having my son, I've had weird thoughts about him dying - me dropping him, pram falling down a steep incline, he drowns in the bath - it's so weird. I'm also suddenly very aware of my mortality. And my dp's.