AIBU to think holidays/travel are ruled out to me?

[palmtreeparrot]

Please do not think this is an adverse inference on anyone who does holiday alone but it is not for me.

At the same time an organised group is my idea of hell.

So - going away seems out? Which is a shame.

There are so many ways to travel now, no one should be dissatisfied. you have to find a way that works for you. Yes it can be lonely but making new friends is part of the adventure. Keep going til you meet someone you click with.
I expect most of the married people here wish they could have a holiday by themselves and most of the singles wish they had a family to holiday with.

Lone travellers tend to make friends with others as they go, so you would not be on your own all the time the way you are at home. I travelled solo a lot when I was young and sometimes I would team up with someone else for a few days/weeks then we'd part ways again.