To ask what the worst experience of your life Is??

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Having a fucking awful time right now- just one thing after another. Please someone help me put things in perspective

Going with DH to buy food for Sunday lunch, going for a coffee first and him dumping me in the cafe, out of the blue, after 20 years. Driving home shocked, telling DD who was shocked, then subsequently watching DD collapse when she found the sex messages between her DF and the OW.

I'm not sure other people's experiences do help gain perspective OP. My worst experience is the death of my baby daughter suddenly and unexpectedly, it was horrific.

Still, 8 years on, if having a really shit time at work or something I'll think, "why am I so stressed about this I've been through so much worse" but to be honest I've learned you've just got to get through it.

OP I hope you feel a bit better. Love to all on this thread.

Pizza wishing you happiness this Christmas

July 2013
My darling dad collapsed in front of me
Dh and I did cpr but...
I can honestly say I will never get over it
Miss you dad x

To all those of you who have lost children...
My heart goes out to you
X

This year and right now is the worst experience of my life. January I lost a little boy at 17 weeks pregnant, miscarriage in August at 8 weeks and just 3 weeks go I lost another little boy at 16 weeks pregnant. I had to give birth to both boys and they were both perfect little babies. I have had a lot happen to me in my life but this has broken me and right now I am unsure how I will get the strength to carry on. Life just seems so cruel and unfair and I feel as though I am being punished for something. Hugs to all of you.

Sorry I lost the by at 8 weeks in July. I am losing track of time even 😢

Being sexually abused at 8 then tormented by abuser and a family member till in my teens.

Being abandoned at 19 and pregnant.

Crippling hyperesmis gravida x2.

11 years following marrying the love of my life of sexual, financial, emotional and physical abuse.

Antenatal depression that was worse than the postnatal depression that followed it.

Current divorce and harassment and stalking that has made me feel as powerless as the abused little girl that i was and only in the last week have i started to feel like me again.

It one year since my husband repeatedly strangled me and took a knife to me twice and i left but i went back, hence i say repeatedly as i gave him the chance.

It also a year since mumsnetters literally saved my life by shocking me out of my decision to go back for good.

Im starting to breath a little and no longer wake up crushed by fear but i dont sleep unless medicated, im scared of the dark and im self medicating with food and hate going out as hate the way i like.

Im battling sliding back into a deep depression and the only think i live for usis moving away as then and only then will i be able to breath properly. I hope.

to you all.

Hate the way i look, not like.

Watching my mum slip away with dementia. I miss her so much and I'm grieving for her even though she is still alive. I pretend I'm ok but I'm not.

for all. My first baby daughter being stillborn at full term 10 years ago. I wouldn’t have had my eldest son though, who is the kindest, gentlest soul I know. He is my touchstone in all the madness that is modern life.

Apart from the loss of loved ones, I think I’m having it now... shingles, with deep nerve pain that no painkillers can touch, and exacerbated heart rhythm problems, which meant a blue light dash to A & E with arrhythmia. Now I have post herpetic neuralgia and nerves in my intestines and bladder are inflamed and damaged... my stomach is huge, I can't really poo and have to make appointments to pee... hoping it isn't permanent..
I’m supposed to be going to DS's tomorrow but don't know if I should inflict myself on them... Woe.
Hope we all get through our bad times...

All my words will seems so clumsy but I'm sending you all so much love, strength and respect for surviving everything you have.....

For me, watching my lovely first husband dying of cancer for 2 years, knowing that all the chemo in the world couldn't save him....then sitting with him after he died just holding his hand and chatting....having to break the news to his very elderly parents that he had died....

Very nearly losing my own life last year several times to sepsis and other complications....I have a stoma now but have been so lucky in my recovery....had to learn to walk again, feed myself, shower myself etc but I got there...

Having my wonderful dad turn up at midnight on the 20th June this year and hearing the words " mum has died "....spending a surreal few hours with her as the paramedics waited for the police who then waited for the undertaker.....then doing her make up for her in the chapel of rest ( she always said she wanted this as she was very glam bless her ) ...the funeral itself was lovely ....I still miss her with every beat of my heart....

Thinking of you all xx

Giving birth to my dead children. Feeling very sad about them 7, 6 and 5 years on.

Hugs to everyone.

28/12/2016 at 5.45pm when my previously very healthy 15 year old daughter totally and unexpectedly collapsed with a severe brain haemorrhage and stroke and being told 2 hours later when she was on a ventilator on the way to theatre that she had 50% chance of surviving.
She did survive, but I have never ever felt so frightened, scared, shocked and numb in my life.

Heartfelt hugs to all of you. DF passing away from rare bile duct cancer after he supported me through divorce from alcoholic abusive DH 1. Betrayal by BF/relative who hated me once I found happiness with DH2 and caused rift with my family . Like PP I do now remind myself that once you reach rock bottom things can only get better and it certainly stops me sweating the small stuff.

My PTSD which has been with me since 2014 and which has ruined my life since - its a bitch but it isn't going to win!

1st was pulling the bodies of dead Syrians out of the sea on my honeymoon. Poor women trying to escape to a better life in europe.
2nd was being with my baby girl through life saving heart surgery... seeing her in intensive care hooked up to machines- the good news from this is that she is healthier and stronger nw than She has ever been

People on the outside think others have the "perfect' life. We don't were just all dealing with shit life throws at us

My daughter had whooping cough at 3 weeks & was resuscitated multiple times a day.

working in A&E this week and having my big brother admitted and diagnosed with a brain tumour, is currently quite high on my list of bad experiences!

I shoul add that due to the size of the mass he was operated on within 36 hours and I visited him this afternoon and he was able to say a few words before falling asleep. Prognosis currently unknown but out of immediate danger.

When the doctor who had arranged for my son to have an emergency CT scan at 6 days old came into our room, introduced herself again and told us it was bad news. Unbelievably the scan was actually read incorrectly, we were transferred to GOSH where they diagnosed him with a benign disorder of the nervous system which he grew out of at about 1 years old - he's now a very bright, talkative and naughty three year old but I do think the experience has still left me with anxiety issues - we believed things to be catastrophic for 5 days and I honestly wanted to die. You never know how things might change in the future.

Losing my baby. I'll never forget that hospital room.
Holding my Grandads hand while he took his last breath.
Being diagnosed with Bipolar - it felt like the end of life as I knew it at the time and I had some really dark days. Four years on, I'm medication compliant and actually more functional than before the diagnosis.

This too shall pass, to anyone still in a dark place.

Probably the day I found out I was pregnant at 19. Took a week to decide and after a lot of going back and forth, we decided to terminate the pregnancy

Gosh. I thought I’d had a rough ride but you’ve all put it into proportion 💐
In one year:
Was in Asian Tsunami and thought I was going to die
Did ivf and it went wrong and was in hospital having students study me as so rare to have such an adverse reaction (although was succeasful)
Found my fil having a stroke, which he subsequently died from when I was 12 weeks preg
Went into prem labour at 29weeks, taken by ambulance 200 miles to nearest hospital with a free nicu cot available. (Stopped labour and discharged a week later)
At 30 weeks preg, the day I got home from hospital from prem labour, I had a huge fit. Dh and ds found me and thought I was dying. Rushed to hosp, had another fit and was diagnosed epileptic!! Shock!!
All that in 12 months. Despite it being 12 years ago, I will never see my life the same. I will never be confident or blasé when it comes to mortality. It scares me. I have huge health anxiety which is in my every thought.

However reading your messages has made me realise that actually there are sooooo many worse off than me.
Sending you all 💐

abroad being divorced by exh he was given residency of dc, him walking out of the door with them was the worst day of my life, I got in my car drove to the river wanting to drive in and it all to be over, only thing that stopped me was the fact I was pregnant. DC now back with me after a very nasty bitter court case, I do wonder how I got through it it was hell, I suffer terrible anxiety because of it.

so many heart breaking stories here, I want to just be happy and appreciate what I have, but I'm so scared it will all go wrong again