To ask what the worst experience of your life Is??

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Having a fucking awful time right now- just one thing after another. Please someone help me put things in perspective

Such sad stories, big hugs for you all.

Mine was the death of my brother at 21.

Being told DH had terminal cancer when I was 33 weeks pregnant. He died three weeks later.

I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself this morning as Christmas is really hard, kids now 3 and 7 so much pressure to make it special for them whilst really wanting it to be over. This thread has given me a lot of perspective- the kids are healthy and I have a job, home etc.

I had a truly shit 2012 for many reasons. Some of it still affects me but it is getting easier. OP - along the way I learned that I am resilient . At one stage I really was just coping with what was in front of me for a matter of hours, not even a day at a time. Really hope things get better for you and you come out of it at the end.

Being raped at 14 and then being told by the rapist whilst he stood over me and laughed that he had AIDS. This was in 1992 when the tombstone public information ads were still fresh in my head. Spent the next few years in abject terror that I was a ticking time bomb (I didn’t tell anyone what had happened - was too ashamed and blamed myself - so had no testing done), needless to say that either he was bullshitting me (highly likely) or I was incredibly lucky.

Big hugs for everyone, these are so sad
grobagsforever - im so sorry about your DH, theres not much i can say really but i hope things get better for you x

CuppaTeaAndAJammieDodger
What an arsehole!!! So sorry you went through what you did. I understand what its like to not be able to tell anyone, it eats away at you. I hope things are better for you now.

Nc for this, the day I started a new job and had to go home as my dd3 has revealed to her dsis my ds 14 had been sexually abusing her. I was the one who called the police and stood while he denied it and called me sick in the head for saying such things. Then watched as the police took away my precious ds who I had to harden my heart to. And support my dd through the nightmares and the trauma and the court case.
Life has never and will never be the same.

pizzapower wishing you the most magical Christmas ever. I'm very sorry.

I haven't been through anything which i'm so thankful for. I just wanted to say how sorry i am for all of you of you who have lost loved ones, especially children. It's a cruel world sometimes. Wishing you all strength, health and so much happiness for the new year for you all.
You are all superstars. Don't ever forget that.

My mother dying in her early 40s she missed my kids growing up

You know what MN's I think you are all amazing, like one massive family. You make me laugh, cry and empathize. I wish you all, the very best of everything.

The whole of 2017 has been the worst experience for me.
Ex h, gf's 16 yr old daughter committed suicide just after Easter. This was the first time we actually spoke in person since he left about three before. Him and her mum found her, he did every thing he could to try and save her but she was already dead.
She had been in my children's lives for two years. When he told me I invited him into my home so we could tell our children together.
We still talk about her now, they miss her a lot.

Then in July the man I had been with for 2 years just decided to beat the crap out of me over a Saturday night and Sunday morning.
I involved the police, he claimed self defence, and walked away with no further action.
So many things wrong with that decision but would be here all day if I listed them.

So many other smaller things have happened as well that it all adds up.

for everyone x

The last few years have been awful. Stalked by an ex and abused online by his girlfriend and her family. My dad dying suddenly over Christmas. The following year five elderly relatives died in quick succession. My MIL died earlier this year. And then my DH was diagnosed with cancer. He also has a degenerative disease of longstanding which has made the cancer treatment doubly traumatic. He is on the mend, but it's been so tough for him. I can't really get into the festive spirit and 2017 cannot be over soon enough.

My alcoholic and abusive step father and my mother having a big fight on her birthday. She slept in my room and the last thing he said to us that night is that he hated us.

Walking past their bedroom the next morning and glancing at his body.

He died of a massive heart attack that night

It haunts me to this day

DF (45 and apparently very fit and healthy, did triathlons and looked after himself) died of a massive heart attack at home with me, DM and DB. He was dead before the paramedics took him away.
Two weeks later, DGD is diagnosed with lung cancer and has one lung removed.
Next month, my DB was hospitalised with meningitis.

This was all 12 years ago, and I honestly couldn’t even begin to talk about how it’s shaped me as who I am today and the impact it made on our lives. But me, DM and DB are all happy. Yes it breaks my heart that DF wasn’t at my wedding, or is around to see his two wonderful grandsons, but I try to take comfort in how proud I know he is of me and all of us.

I was involved in the Clapham rail crash 29 years ago. I wasn't too badly hurt but 35 other people weren't so lucky.

Trying for a baby with my fiancé.

Getting pregnant and being over the moon.

Fiancé disappearing in to thin air. Found out he was living a totally unknown of double life and was already married. Got a letter saying he would never have anything to do with the baby so I had an abortion.

It was a medicinal abortion, I changed my mind half way through but it was too late. They didn't give me anything to sedate me so they had to hold me down to finish the procedure, I was hysterical.

It became infected and i collapsed in Sainsbury's and had to be taken to A&E.

He heard I was in a&e and came to see me to tell me it was good I'd lost the baby and not to contact him again.

A couple of weeks later I attempted suicide and was admitted to hospital then home 'arrest' for quite a while.

The home care team were unbelievable. They'd come round three times a day to bring my medication (and watch me take it) and just to chat. One young lad used to just stroke my hair while I cried. I'll never forget their kindness, they are responsible for me being here today.

Things get better op. I can sit here and talk about this now with just a tear rolling down my cheek. We are amazingly resilient.

omg I have read some others and feel quite bad but my worst experience was getting scabies and a social worker coming round when I was in my nightie scratchin my arms like a crazed junkie with every sheet in the house drying in the lounge.
Also the way my dads family treats me and the kids at Xmas but it's minor in the greater scheme of things.

..or maybe my mum dying, that was quite bad.

the period (beginning christmas day last year) when the extent of my partners alcoholism became truly apparent (at my parents' house of all places) (i was a mere 24 weeks pregnant and had to spend rest of pregnancy fending off social services and in regular contact with perinatal mental health).

i am sick with dread for christmas this year despite things apparently being better. i'll never trust him.

A few years ago in a spate of weeks my mum found out she had breast cancer, my gran died, five days later my grandad died, mum broke a bone, my husband lost his job so we had to give up our rented flat and sofa surf on familys spare rooms. Reached the lowest you could get. Still vvv frightened now in case this all happens again. Things do get better. Hugs op x

Your stories have made me cry - I’m so sorry life/people can be just horrendous and that you all have a peaceful and happy Christmas.

Elsiejane thankyou for your kind thoughts, I am now (although it did rear its ugly head a couple of years ago) and am even thinking of getting the scar on my back, which serves as a reminder, covered up with a tattoo - does anyone know if you can get scars tattooed?

CuppaTeaAndAJammieDodger -you can indeed get tattoos that cover scars although it may be costly as this can be quite difficult. You would want a extremely professional tattooist

@RexMyDarling

I’m so sorry for everything you’ve been through

I'm still here, I am sponsored by citalopram

This actually made me laugh. My partner and I have both been on this over the last year after some very tough times and this just seemed very real. I think I’ll borrow this phrase.

Going to the doctor as I felt suicidal. Being ushered into the waiting room while he called me an ambulance without telling me. Then refused to talk to me when I overheard a receptionist mention what he had done and was advised I either make my own way to the hospital or the police will come looking for me.

Got there and was placed in a room with nailed down tables and chairs and whenever I spoke to the nurse to ask anything, they would answer my then BF as if I wasn’t even there.

Being threatened with being sectioned and having to convince them to allow me to leave.

My then BF leaving me as I was ‘unhinged’

I only went to discuss counselling and possibly medication. I wanted to live or I wouldn’t have gone to the GP.

I was 17 years old and treated like a criminal.

I’ve suffered depression and anxiety all my life and managed to stay away from any MH services for 10 years until I had a nervous breakdown last year. The utter fear of having to ask for help (and dealing with the services through my recent pregnancy) but I’m in a great place now with a very supportive partner who has similar issues and truly understands.

For everyone