To think I don't have an eating disorder?

[NotAlwaysHungry]

I make myself sick about 2-3 times a week. I know it's not the greatest habit and is no doubt very unhealthy but I only do it when I've eaten too much junk. My weight is fine and I'm otherwise very healthy.

My sister recently found out about it (long story!) and she was horrified. She now has it in her head that I have some sort of eating disorder and will die at any minute.

She told me I need to see a doctor but I've been doing this for nearly eight years now and considering I'm still healthy then I'm hardly going to suddenly drop down dead because of making myself sick a few times a week.

Well done writing it down though, spankhurst! I guess that's a first step for you

Wow wasn't expecting this many responses

I ended up compromising on the meal in the end. DP took me out for the meal but I still chose myself what to have so I just ended up getting a chicken salad.

When I went to the GP this morning I literally just went in there and told him what I've already talked about on here. I didn't even mention eating disorders but he came to the conclusion pretty much straight away that I had one and he has referred me for CBT. My blood pressure is a bit low too which I had no idea about as I normally avoid doctors .

Well done for going to the Drs and for going out to eat afterwards. Pressure!!

Hope the CBT helps. I know it can be really good for some people.

NotAlways really well done today. I think you've been amazing since the beginning of this thread. I hope you can work out how to live with DP now that he knows, that you don't slip into a parent/child way of relating about this.

Miscellaneous I just wanted to say how brave it is to share your story. I can hear that distressed child and she deserves to be comforted - in a healthy way, not with food. You are loved just as you are - and you are not a failure.

to both

You definitely have an eating disorder. Please see someone. I'm the pastoral care co-ordinator at the school I teach at and this would definitely be sounding off all sorts of alarms in my head if a student told me.

Well done OP, hope the cbt is helpful. You definitely can get past this.

YABU. You have bulimia.

Really well done going to the GP and being honest. I hope the CBT will prove helpful for you. And it sounds like the meal out was a good compromise.

I wish people would read the goddamn thread FFS.

Well done OP

Well done OP

Everyone can eat the occasional pizza or pasta and cheese, and you don't have to purge afterwards. If you're eating so much that you feel bloated, eat a smaller pizza/bowl of pasta.

That's great that you have visited the GP OP well done and let's hope you get some decent help ongoing.

I wish that people would rtft too before coming in belatedly with such banal comments. Screw as for just answering the initial opening post that is just downright lazy and yours and others initial responses show why.

I did read the whole 14 pages from start to finish before I commented.

Everyone can eat the occasional pizza or pasta and cheese, and you don't have to purge afterwards. If you're eating so much that you feel bloated, eat a smaller pizza/bowl of pasta.

bath read the bloody thread!

Well done on your meal out.
Try to make outings with your BF less food oriented for a while.
I hope the CBT helps you with all this.
Good luck OP and well done again for facing up to this.

screw really? Surely you can see from the title its a sensitive topic and there are lots of pages? Why not spend 1 minute reading the first and last posts and have a quick scroll for messages from the OP?
If you want your one post to be of use to the OP or the discussion you need to spend a bit of time seeing what's been discussed.

fv I praised the op for getting help. Why you and that running person have to go on and on and on about that one comment I made to the original post is a bit weird, tbh.

Well done NotAlwaysHungry! Going to the GP was a very brave move and I'm really glad they were helpful. Well done too on going out for the meal!

Screw as FV45 said this is a really serious topic, it isn't some silly question about sofa covers or your cat's name etc, therefore you do need to give it some proper attention and thought before you post. You admitted that you hadn't read any of it and clearly hadn't bothered to see what the OP had written with regards to visiting her GP. Not sure how you thought you were helping in all honesty until after you had been pulled up on your first comment.

Not sure how you running your mouth is helping op either, don't you have anything better to do

I hate the term "junk food". DS1 has cystic fibrosis. After he was diagnosed, when we went to DM's for holidays, she would say I gave him "junk food". I was cooking meals recommended by the CF Trust, the quick, easy ones so I wasn't taking DM's kitchen over: cheeseburger, chips and tinned spaghetti; oven fried chicken, chips and beans.

There's no such thing as junk food, just foods that healthy people shouldn't eat too much of.

People are calling you out on your insensitivity running, not 'going on'.

And calling you out isn't a waste of time because it's not just you reading - it's the OP and maybe others who will read the thread for help.

Seeing your nonsense questioned will be reassuring for those people and will remind them that this IS a supportive forum and not just a slanging match where people who just want to have their say - no matter what - are allowed to ride roughshod over others' feelings.

Also - read the fucking thread.

Well done for taking the first step, OP. The hard part has yet to come, I would imagine and the CBT might be tough but you sound like you have a really lovely OP and sister to support you.
Best of luck with everything, feel very inspired by your bravery..

sorry meant DH, not OP.