I won't feel welcome in the event of a "Yes" or a narrow "No" and we will, eventually, leave in both cases. The people I care about - friends, neighbours, colleagues, have voted against a union about which I am passionate. The anti-English rhetoric from some makes me feel unwelcome. I have to hide who I am, how I feel, what I vote. I was brought up a conservative voter, thought it through and still tend that way. I believe, and always have done in society's responsibility to look after those in need, but also the individual's responsibility to work hard for themselves and their families.
But, you can't be a conservative in Scotland. It is not allowed. It is tough being a "No" voter because your arguments are always about caution, about the economy, about mortgages and the EU, which sound dull and uninspiring alongside words like "freedom" and "fairness"
The yes vote is an attack on me. It attacks conservatives, the English, the cautious, the thoughtful and those who like things the way they are.
We will seek a quiet village in England, after living here for 20 years, married to a Scot, Scottish children. We will be made welcome there. I will come out as a conservative.
I am also very angry that Salmond was allowed a question that gave him the word "Yes". Why not, "Should Scotland remain in the Union" ? Because that would have given the Unionists the positive case. And Salmond likes to take the language, set the agenda. He is an absolute master at getting debates on his terms. I doubt history will look kindly on him. Certainly, we are upset, angry and sad. My DH feels his saltire has been stolen from him.
However we wake up on Friday, there will be an hangover that lasts years and years and we want no part of it.