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Original poster

I nearly killed myself today

476 replies

PepsiTwirl · 25/08/2014 23:48

Really sorry but put here for traffic.

I put it in mental health a couple of hours ago but noone responded.

I was going to kill myself , but just as I was about to take tablets, my partner walked in.

DP knows I'm having a hard time, but not this hard.

We spoke for abit, and cried together. DP now asleep and need to talk

(I added a symbol to a random thread to make sure name change had worked)

OP posts:
Coumarin · 26/08/2014 03:15

That's lovely Ludoole

Ludoole · 26/08/2014 03:17

Thanks. I find it helps. X

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 03:17

There's lots of traffic outside all my windows.

Boo!

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Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 03:18

What is a crisis team? What is there role?

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CautiousVisitor · 26/08/2014 03:20

Traffic can be good. I like people-watching and imagining what kind of lives people lead.

Pepsi, do you think you might be able to tell your DP how you feel, or show him this thread, either tonight or in the morning?

Ludoole · 26/08/2014 03:20

Pepsi, how would you feel if you if everything was reversed and dp was going through what you are?
Wouldnt you want to know?

Flingmoo · 26/08/2014 03:21

Just wanted to say that I'm up feeding my baby and saw this thread, I'm thinking of you and despite not being religious I'm also praying too. I hope that you get the help you need. If my baby lets me get any more sleep tonight I'll be checking on this thread as soon as I wake up.

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 03:22

He does know. I just haven't woke him up

We had a chat, and a big cry earlier and we were both totally drained by it

OP posts:
Ludoole · 26/08/2014 03:25

He doesnt know how deep your pain is.
He needs to.
You need to tell him. He can hold you physically. We cant sweetheart. As much as we want to.

oldnewmummy · 26/08/2014 03:26

Could you get into bed with him and give him a cuddle and try to sleep, do you think?

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 03:30

I don't know if I want to.

Just sitting here..

Cat just licked my toe Shock

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oldnewmummy · 26/08/2014 03:31

Give the cat a big cuddle, can't beat a big ball of fluff.

CautiousVisitor · 26/08/2014 03:31

Why don't you want to?

Are you feeling like you don't want to move?

oldnewmummy · 26/08/2014 03:31

We have 4 (rescued strays) - cost a fortune to bring them with us when we moved here.

Ludoole · 26/08/2014 03:32

You should try. If you dont know if you want to then maybe you do.
A cuddle is better than a cat licking your toe....

oldnewmummy · 26/08/2014 03:35

Or licking your face after it's licked its bum!

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 03:35

I will try.

will put the phone down now.

Thank you everyone so much.

Iv been on here for nearly 4 hours.

Many thanks.

Some people's words have really hit home

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oldnewmummy · 26/08/2014 03:36

Hope you sleep well Pepsi. Post in the morning and let us know how you are xx

CautiousVisitor · 26/08/2014 03:37

Be well, Pepsi. Sending you all my thoughts and best wishes.

Ludoole · 26/08/2014 03:37

Just remember you are important. You are worth so much. Try and sleep and we will check in in the morning. I wish you good dreams. Xxxx

Thumbwitch · 26/08/2014 03:50

Hope you're sleeping now Pepsi - if not, I'm still here. x

Coumarin · 26/08/2014 04:39

Night night, we'll be here for you tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you. x

Idocrazythings · 26/08/2014 04:43

Dear Pepsi, I have just read your post. I have a nearly 9 year old dd and the thought of what happened to you happing to her makes me very sad and angry, and then the thought of her twenty years later feeling as you do, is just unthinkable. I truly hope you are able to get some help, and know that you are cared about, even by strangers. My heart cries for you xx

Coughle · 26/08/2014 05:01

Thinking of you Pepsi. Hope you're finding some respite in sleep now.

triplets · 26/08/2014 07:54

Pepsi you were my first thought when I opened my eyes this morning, I have just read through all last nights posts and really feel that everyone cares deeply about you. We are all waiting for you to post, to tell us that you have made it through that dark night. My heart will sing Pepsi when I see your post. xxxx