Imp of the peverse - WARNING some might be odd/distressing to people who don't get this.

[elfycat]

On another thread I mentioned an act that I sort of daydream of. It's not a daydream but rather a little naughty voice/image that will never be acted on. The imp is cousin to the imp of mischief, only a bit more, well, peverse.

For me these include, but are not limited to:

Wondering what it's like to jump of something high

When reaching for a knife and DH is washing up, so I reach around him, I wonder what it would feel like to stab him (he knows this)

How it would feel to punch my 3 year old when she is being a threenager

What it would feel like to cut off your own arm (following on from the film where the rock climber had to) in particular the feeling of going through the elbow joint.

Obviously I am not going to harm myself or anyone in my family. I haven't name changed as I know it not to be a problem and SS do not be called as I am not a danger to anyone.

So anyone else understand why I am not a total nutter? And how are you other imp-sufferers getting on with the naughty one whispering in your ear.

I read that Christopher Lee was asked by Peter Jackson to imagine what someone being stabbed sounded like. CL answered that he didn't need to imagine it, he had heard it for real (myth or not it is googleable). I sighed over that... imagine the sound!

But then I've had to help sort out stab victims. I'm never going to create one for real

I think these are idle thoughts...
jumping off high buildings - yes
driving off the bridge etc - yes
beating the crap out of teenage DD1 - yes (when she is being incredible annoying but when I am zen-like, calm, it isn't getting to me - never when it is getting to me, I am trying not to lose my temper)
Not sure if quite the same - but when DD1 was about 2 and a dreadful sleeper (so I was sleep deprived) and I had a lot to do and she just WOULD NOT GO TO SLEEP...
but actually I was quite calm at the time and thought for a split second if I put that pillow over her face she will got to sleep ...it seemed so logical and sensible - and then I thought no that's not a good idea...and felt quite upset and shocked ...

Not so much intrusive thoughts, but I can become obsessive about whether I've locked the door to the point where I have to go back and check a certain number of times. It's always worse when I'm under pressure at work. Once I couldn't believe I really had turned the iron off so ended up taking it with me! I suppose it's OCD.

I get thoughts like that. I sometimes think how my life could change forever by doing just one small act. I wouldn't do it but it fascinates me at times

Jumping into a fast flowing river or rough sea.

Pushing a knife through the back of my hand. Slowly.

Slapping boxes (especially cakes) out of people's hands.

Punching FIL or BIL in their stupid racist, homophobic, misogynistic mouths. Very, very hard.

Bouncing an annoying colleague's head off her desk.

Telling ridiculous clients to fuck the fucking fuck off to the fucking far fucking side of fucking fuck and when they fucking get there fucking fuck off some fucking more.

It is nice to see that I am not the only one who has these ridiculous thoughts pop up!
I have thought about giving my wanker husband (he left) and OW a good old thumping! It's nothing less than they deserve though!
Also, when I've been to the science and industry museum in Manchester, they have a steam room with large cast iron cogs and train mechanisms going round and I always think about putting my hand in them. Don't think I'll try it though.

We just had 3 truck loads of concrete poured into foundations for an extension. Halfway through I suddenly realised I should be compiling a list of people to bury in there. But then remembered that if I don't like them I'm not going to want them to be part of my new kitchen.

I currently have no mental illness and yet intrusive thoughts are part of my day to day life. More so when I'm anxious, but at least several times a day even when I'm not.

One of my particularly persistent ones happens when I'm talking to someone and they are quite close. Doesn't matter who it is, I imagine going in for a snog. Extremely distracting!

Some get really violent though so I can understand why in certain circumstances intrusive thoughts could be seen as a symptom of an illness.

Yes to just about all of these; one of my most popular ones is when there's a pan of boiling water, I think about putting my hand in it

My god yes!
Dd1 (18) has them too.

Slipping off kerb and breaking ankle - bone sticking out.
Oven glass exploding in dd2 face
Dd 2 falling backwards smashing her skull with a sickening crack.
I can't even list them as they are proper sick.

My dreams are hideous . I have an over active imagination.

Sometimes when I'm driving I imagine what it would be like to not turn on the bend and just crash into the hedge.

Actually so glad about this thread- actually thought I was twisted.

elfy

do not sew your finger through with s sewing machine.

fellow patchworker here and once I reached through fabric at the wrong time and needle went through my middle finger and nail.
didn't hit the bone as it was very near the tip of my nail but it was fucking painful.

just saying

I have found myself walking over a bridge and thinking hard about not launching myself off... I wasn't intending to but then I thought I could and had to concentrate on not doing it

Also the driving into the central reservation or the wrong way up a motorway slip road is a fleeting thought when I am driving. No intention of doing it!

Zing I will take your warning very seriously.

Ow!

I get them. I think that's why a lot of people are scared of holding newborns.

I had intrusive thoughts after dcs were born

I have the urge to jump when standing on high things, ds2 explained why people have this urge but I can't remember.

Fizzy you are not twisted. But if you are someone it bothers and have anxiety you should see your GP (as seems quite usual from some experiences on this thread).

If these thoughts and worrying because you thought they were odd in themselves is the problem, see if you can let them slide now and be usual for others on this thread. If you can't then it might be worth talking with a health care professional. If this a part of your persona you should be able to be at ease with it. It makes me that some people are suffering because of this.

I get these thoughts too, though no thoughts about what i could do to other people, more focused on the idea of what it would be like to jump off a bridge, wall or building. Generally speaking, I am no good with edges of any kind that lead to a drop. I try to stay away from edges because I know I will get an urge to jump off. Although I never would!

I used to get this constantly when I was still suffering mildly with OCD a few years ago. I'd get the train to college and imagine what way I would kill each person that got on. Obviously I'd never act upon it.

Weirdly, I keep getting one thought at the moment (I haven't had any for years). I had the contraceptive implant in last Friday and it's quite long and thin. I keep thinking about trying to bend and snap it inside my arm and it's making me feel weird

DH has absolutely got this. He has a little voice in his head that sometimes tells him to do the worst thing possible at any given time

• Just throw the phone out the window
• drive the car into that wall
• chuck coffee in the bosses face

I don't think he's depressed. He's a writer too, just over active mind!!

Yep, always have had them. They are something of a problem, but I do have MH problems.

I think they are fine unless they become distressing/interfere with daily life. If they become distressing and/or obsessive they can be bloody awful, possibly one of the most horrible symptoms possible, but for most people they are just a minor quirk that can even be amusing.

backinthering

I think the holding newborns point is very apt. I have yet to have my own, but whenever I'm looking after my nephew I sometimes have these awful thoughts about how easily he could get hurt - I'm a bit clumsy so what if I trip up holding him etc?!

When I was a (ridiculously strait-laced, well-behaved) teenager I also used to have this sudden compulsion to declare in the middle of a family dinner that I was pregnant, just to see what everyone would say. In spite of this being physically impossible at the time.

Dulcet

I think that must be it for me - overactive & creative mind.
and I'm a very visual person so I can easily imagine how something would look.

I'm not depressed either, nor have OCD etc.

and as someone else mentioned I'm sure most children do a lot of "naughty" stuff, without thinking, just to see/feel/hear what would happen