Its that time of year again.
I usually try and grab your attention with some wittily provocative AIBU thread title.
I just cant be arsed tonight.
I want you to give blood.
I want you to register to be a bone marrow donor.
I would even quite like you to sponser me for my 10k run.
But you know what?
I just want her back.
This time 6 years ago I was watching her die. She died on 27th April 2006 aged 14 years.
A life so full of promise.
Such a clever, beautiful child.
My daughter.
She has two brothers she has never met. She has one brother that couldnt bear to live in the house she lived and died in and has now moved out. She has a little brother whose autistic brain cannot make sense of her leaving but cannot allow him to stop wondering where she is.
I miss her. She should be here.
I should be telling her to get on with her essays and stop spending her money on nightclubs.
I spent an hour and half in boots today scanning photos of her onto disc because we didnt even have a digital camera when she was alive.
I will spend tomorrow in her little memorial garden at the front of our house. Tidying it and replanting.
There is no sense to what happened to her. It makes no sense.
Please give blood
www.blood.co.uk
www.nhsbt.nhs.uk/bonemarrow/
www.justgiving.com/Billiegirl
No one has to say anything.