Have to be brief as on my way out but I started a martial arts class after new year and LOVED it and have graded once already. Anyway last Friday instructor asked me to help him demonstrate something and wanted me to attack him. I got way over excited (medical issue) and screamed at him "come on you bastard!" and went for him really aggressively. Everyone gasped and the instructor didn't even demonstrate what he wanted to demonstrate, just restrained me and eventually asked me to "take a breather" in the changing rooms. He came in (unisex) to see me 10 minutes later and I explained my medical condition and he said it was absolutely fine and that he just wanted to make sure I was ok. I was but I'm so embarrassed that I can't see myself ever going again which is gutting because I really loved it and it took a lot of courage to go in the first place. He has since called me and asked why I wasn't there on Wednesday and I told him I'm still mortified at what I did and he laughed it off saying everyone has forgetten about it as competitions are coming up and everyone's mind is on that.
AIBU to think he's just saying that to make me feel better and I will be the talk of the dojo for weeks/months to come?