To think I can't possibly go back to this martial arts class even though it wasn't my fault?

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Have to be brief as on my way out but I started a martial arts class after new year and LOVED it and have graded once already. Anyway last Friday instructor asked me to help him demonstrate something and wanted me to attack him. I got way over excited (medical issue) and screamed at him "come on you bastard!" and went for him really aggressively. Everyone gasped and the instructor didn't even demonstrate what he wanted to demonstrate, just restrained me and eventually asked me to "take a breather" in the changing rooms. He came in (unisex) to see me 10 minutes later and I explained my medical condition and he said it was absolutely fine and that he just wanted to make sure I was ok. I was but I'm so embarrassed that I can't see myself ever going again which is gutting because I really loved it and it took a lot of courage to go in the first place. He has since called me and asked why I wasn't there on Wednesday and I told him I'm still mortified at what I did and he laughed it off saying everyone has forgetten about it as competitions are coming up and everyone's mind is on that.
AIBU to think he's just saying that to make me feel better and I will be the talk of the dojo for weeks/months to come?

I'd love a class with you in it, OP. You sound great and I'd love your enthusiasm. Please go back to class.

Of course your instructor was trying to make you feel better, as you obviously feel bad about it. But if he's fine with it and cared enough to phone you, I would say go. No one else is going to care.

I read it as "Come on me, you bastard."

So when I realised what it really said, I think you can definitely suck it up and go again. Do it, you'll be fine!!!

"I meant he came in the unisex changing rooms."

Yes, that's what some of us suspected all along.

Don't worry - even if you are seen as a 'nutter' you'll be seen as their 'nutter'. Martial Arts groups tend to be quite supportive of each other. Once you've had another grading or been in a comp you'll see it. Really, don't worry - I bet you're missed more than you realise.

'ave it :)

Go back and enjoy OP.

Oh my goodness your thread has me crying with laughter. Reminds me of the time when I was doing kickboxing and Defendo about three times a week. I was sparring with a guy who was much bigger than me and let my guard slip and he punched me in the breast do hard it knocked the wind out of me. I hate any kind of fuss or drama so popped up again as quickly as I could pretending to be ok. Everyone was all and so to make a joke I pulled the neckline of my t-shirt out, looked down and said "OMG I think it exploded!" Cue a whole bunch of horrified faces because they thought I was serious and that I meant I had breast implants and that one exploded!!!! I didn't live that one down for several weeks. What makes it even more hilarious is that this was pre-DS when I was really not endowed at all - how anyone could have taken me seriously and thought I had implants is beyond me!
It did keep a lot of the guys in the class from trying to break through a girl partner's chest guard for a while :o

You should go back at least once. If you still feel in comfortable then have a break for a month and try again. You said you were getting so much out of it and your instructor sounds fab, really he couldn't have handled any if it any better could he?

Oh and I suggest you watch Friends, the one where Ross thinks he us amazing at ma

Go back, OP! It would be such a shame to stop doing something you clearly enjoy and get a lot out of. You said yourself it took a lot to get you there in the first place, don't make all that effort be for nothing. It might be a bit nerve wracking (sp?) going back, but I am sure you are missed, and your teacher obviously wants you there.