Ds has an enlarged tonsil.
When he's ill it swells up,it annoys him all the time.He constantly throat clears,coughs etc.It drives his peers mad(and he gets teased).
When he does a lot of activity(eg long bike ride,running around) he has to catch his breath more than his twin.He dislikes reading aloud etc.He ended up in A&E with flu at Xmas due to the damn thing making him think he couldn't breath(his twin didn't).
Anyhow I was thrilled we'd got a date but after a hospital visit(form signing etc),speaking to friends etc I'm now crapping myself,seriously. The consultants are happy to do it but kind of handed the decision over to us.
The dtwins are long awaited IVF twins and I feel like I'm spirally back into this fraught filled ttc,newborn anxiety days ie convinced he's going to be taken away. We've been the 1 in 10000 before so even though there is only a tiny chance of anything bad happening I've blown it up big time.
I get really tearful when thinking about it,can't think about it etc. He's very excited which makes it worse. If something happens I'll never be able to forgive myself as obviously he could poke up with it.
Really don't know what to do.I know I deserve a virtual slap and many mothers have far worse to worry about so I feel bad being so silly but I really am terrified.
So should I cancel or not?