Checking in - still going!
well last week was a million miles an hour with work, deadlines and work coming out of my ears.
I met some resistance from well meaning friends who brought out a bottle of red and wanted me to join them in a glass. I seemed to need to reiterate I was ‘fine thank you’ followed by looks of dismay. they did the ‘go on just a small one’, lovely as they are it really pissed me off. I wouldnt have to say no twice and explain the reasons to a hit of heroin would I ..
Tesco sent me a book of vouchers - I opened to find that they were all for gin. Not even gin I like and no other alternative vouchers - thank you Tescos, they are now ok the recycling.
I have become a bit insular which I’m aware of. Part of all of this encompasses other things such as saying no more often.
Rather too keen previously to be a yes person and wore myself thin, finding solace in wine and then more wine because I was drained, frazzled and not putting any healthy boundaries in place.
weekend was a bit meh.. washed and laundered everything, felt a bit bored and a bit moody.
thinking of all the lovely repair work going on in my body, the cleansing the healing and the healthy goings on rather than the constant state of emergency.
was pissed off I woke up at normal alarm time yesterday. I’d been having lovely lay ins at the weekends but think that was restorative and catch up sleep. Body and brain felt it had had enough sleep thank you. That gave me extra hours to fill and work with.
Had to give myself a kick last night watching rich holiday poor holiday while a couple enjoyed a wine tasting sesh.. ‘why can’t you do that, sip it enjoy it and then leave it?’ Because I can’t so wouldn’t have gone in the first place!
keep going everyone. Lambs in the field here which reminded me I’ve been sober their whole lives 😌.